I hug my legs to my chest as I press my cheek against my knees. I should be mad-I should be mad at Greyson, or Isaac, or Bahee, but I'm not. I just don't know what to feel.

Am I sad? I was at first.

Am I relieved? I don't know.

Maybe I'm just numb. The realization keeps coming to me, that If Isaac didn't change his intentions like he did, what would've happened?

He was a spy, yes. But was he sent here to do more harm than simply telling Bahee everything that was going on? Was he sent here with more ill intentions?

I close my eyes when I hear the door creak open. My head facing in the opposite direction, but I already know it's Greyson. He had to go inform everyone the situation, and what exactly happened. He wanted me to come, but saw I was in no shape to speak in front of people.

"Hey," he says softly as I feel the bed dip down next to me. I sigh, finally peering up at him reluctantly. I haven't moved since he's left me here, and I can tell that it's concerning him. "Willa-" he trails tucking my hair behind my ear gently.

"I'm okay, " I croak out. My voice just barely above a whisper.

"No you're not," he replies almost like he's talking to himself trying to piece things together.

I pick up my head, resting my chin on my knees besides my cheek. Grey is quick to cup my cheek within his palm. His thumb drawing circles into my skin. "I'll be okay," I correct myself.

His eyebrows crease as he looks in my eyes, searching for something. An answer, maybe?

I bite my lip looking away from his eyes finding them hard to look at momentarily.

My emotions are so confusing now. I still haven't gotten used to them and its been months since I transitioned.

Human emotions are so black and white and easy to decipher.

Now I have two different thoughts in my head and at times they don't agree with each other which make it hard for myself to understand what I truly feel.

I growl softly to myself pressing my fingertips to my temples.

"Look, I'll give you a couple of minutes there's someone waiting for you downstairs when you feel up to it." He squeezes my leg softly before he walks out of the room.

Once I hear the door close I flop back on the bed feeling my head sink into the pillow.

Only if I knew the intentions behind Isaac sooner, I could've gotten him out of his messy situation. I could've helped him.

If you keep thinking like that, you won't feel better.

I don't know what else I can think about.

Isaac is dead and I don't know how to take my mind off of it, or what to do about it, how to feel about it.

Groaning I throw my arm over my eyes.

"You took too much time, so I came to see the princess herself."

Instantly I feel myself smile in what it feels like forever, as I set up quickly in bed. "Faye," I breathe standing up from the bed. She smirks walking to me with open arms, and quickly we hug each other laughing quietly.

"How are you? How is it in the new pack?" I smile leaning back so I can look at her.

She smiles nodding, "So good." I can see her happiness radiating off of her. "Eli and I, it's just crazy."

Her hair falls behind her shoulder letting me see her new mark, making my grin grow. "I'm so happy for you, and I'm so glad you're here." I pull her in fro another hug, holding onto her tightly. It feels so good to have her back.

"Now, enough about me, how're you?" Slowly I let go of her, feeling my smile fall slightly. "Grey told me what he did," Her head cocking to the side slightly as her sharp blue eyes pierce into my own

"I'm trying to forget-"

"Why're you trying to forget?" She laughs slightly. "What I gather, Isaac was your friend and in the end Isaac was vulnerable to Bahee's control and was unpredictable. But that doesn't mean he should be forgotten. Instead of mourning what happened, be grateful for the good moments you spent with him."

Biting my lip I feel the corners of my lips quirking up.

Faye always knows what to say, I missed her inspirational speeches.

"You're right."

She grins, "I know, I always am."

Rolling my eyes slightly, she links her arm through my own. "Let's go down stairs. Eli has been looking forward to seeing you again."

Reluctantly I follow behind her, my footsteps getting heavier as we reach the bottom. But instantly the stiffness in my body is released when Faye pushes me forward and I trip into awaiting arms.

Looking up I see Grey, his expression conflicted.

I feel my body release the tension it had building up, "I'm fine." I finally nod.

Putting myself into Greyson's shoes I know why he did what he did, and that might just be the bond telling me it was for the best. But maybe it was really for the best.

"Willa, I jus-" I grab his face putting a small smirk on my lips. His lips shut quickly.

"Grey, I will be okay I promise."

He nods slowly, processing my words. "Okay," he finally says after a while. "If you need anything just tell me. I just feel so bad for what I did. I didn't think about how it would affect you and-" Quickly I put my lips to his which shuts him up quickly.

I pull back watching him open his eyes right after me, "I love you, okay?"

He nods, "I love you."

"Ew I've been back for less than an hour and I forgot about how disgusting you two were." Faye scoffs behind us with a sly smirk.

Just as she says that, Eli comes up behind her wrapping his arms around her waist. "If they are disgusting then I don't know what we are." He kisses her neck quickly before looking up to Grey and I, smiling.

He unravels his arms around her waist, walking forward. "Willa!" He smiles largely opening his arms. I step to him giving him a hug.

"Its great to see you again," I relay his large smile that is indeed infectious.

When I let go Faye puts her hand on my shoulder. "I made dinner, but we just have to gather up all the others."

I cannot express how happy I am that Faye is here and is cooking. Her food is too good, I've missed it.

"I'm sure Koda and Silas are somewhere on the grounds I can get them," I volunteer.

"Do you want me to come?" Grey asks.

"Go ahead and find Seb, I'm ready to eat so I don't want to waste any time."

He nods, "Okay." He pecks my cheek quickly before I start walking out of the back door.

Instantly I pick up both of their scents and jog to where they are.

It only takes me a second to trace them back to the training center off the territory. Why are they in there?

I'm about to get my answer when I open up the door slowly making sure I'm not disrupting anything. My eyebrows scrunch when I see Koda turn around quickly, looking sweatier then normal. "Koda?" I chuckle slightly taking a step inside. "Where is Silas?"

He glances around quickly before tucking his hands in his pockets. "He went for a run, he should be back soon." He looks down walking to me.

"Why were you guys in here in the first place?" I'm pretty sure Silas doesn't fancy training very much.

"Uh," He stops in front of me. "To get some alone time since the house is so busy, so we've been in here for a while."

"For how long?" I keep feeling the questions spew out of my mouth, but I just can't stop myself from getting an eerie feeling.

"Oh yeah, we heard you talking to someone earlier. Though we didn't come out to see. If I would've known what was happening I would've-" He pauses abruptly looking over his shoulder, his body becoming stiff.

"Koda?" I ask setting my hand on his shoulder feeling his body tense under my touch. "What's wrong? You've been off ever since I got here."

I give his shoulder a tight squeeze when he turns around to look at me, shaking his head softly. "I wish there was time to explain, I really do."

"What?" I press seeing his forehead start dripping with sweat.

"Just know that I have no choice, okay? I'm so sorry-so sorry," He peers up to me his eyes full of distraught.

I open my mouth to press for my questions. Though his hand quickly raises out of his pocket in a blur, and a sharp pain pricks the side of my neck. I find my mouth closing in shock, "Koda-" I pause when my vision starts to blur with black dots.

I can't control my eyes as they roll back into my skull, sending me forward.

All I can feel is a grasp holding me so I don't hit the floor, and a spine chilling chuckle come from far away before I can't hold onto consciousness anymore.