(tw: blood and rape and i think thats ab it ://oh yeah and mentions of death so if u cant stand any of them pls leave

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(your pov)

(also some flashbacks)

"Hey, watch where you're goin! Now I've gotten water all over my shirt!"

"It's just water-"

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"How's this for a sharp turn?"

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"Think you can handle me?"

"I meant training, dumbass. Stop being so dirty minded"

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"I realized Itadori was special to you. And, also I didn't want to strike a nerve"

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"You're cute when you're blushing."

"How would you know?"

"We'll just have to find out"

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"Can't believe I fell for you"

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"I hate myself even more for loving you."

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"I love you so much...it makes me want to kill you."

"Then do it. Kill me right now or I swear to fucking god I'll do it myself."

"No. I'm not going to. I could imagine a life without you. I wouldn't be me. I wouldn't be whole. I wouldn't be without you."

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"Y/n, don't hate yourself because of me. You could so easily run off with Nobara and live happily without me"

"But I don't want I want "

"Then be with me. If you don't want Nobara, be with "

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"I'm with you"

"You're with me"

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I remembered all those times Maki and I spoke as the rain came pouring down on my blood stained face and smiled. The wound in my stomach was probably beyond Shoko's repair, as my intestinal organs have been ripped out and thrown off somewhere and I'm not sure she can replace them. Gojo had sent us on a mission against a special grade spirit just some hours ago.

I'd been using my Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan so the fact I'm lying here, about to die was a bit embarrassing, but it was nothing compared to the pain I felt in the hole in my body. The curse was extra cunning and Gojo didn't seem to tell us. He probably didn't even know. He couldn't be with us since he had errands to run. I can't imagine the amount of guilt he'd feel when he hears I died. Not that I have yet, but it's almost certain I will.

It'd take a miracle if someone, anyone had found my now dirty and probably infected organs and rushed me back to Shoko in time to stop the bleeding and stuff them back into me. This must've been what Itadori felt when Sukuna ripped out his heart. I'm still upset about that, even though it's been quite some time since he made his welcome back at the exchange event.

Nobara rushed over to me with a small limp and screamed for Itadori. "ITADORI!! IT'S Y/N SHE'S-" Nobara screamed. I smiled, knowing she still cared even after I broke her heart.

"Don't bother" I said weakly. "My intestinal organs were ripped out and thrown off into no where and I doubt Shoko can replace them with compatible ones" I continued. "Nope. Y/n, stop talking. You're wasting breath and I'm sure there's something Shoko can do" Nobara said, squeezing my hand.

"But-" "Just be quiet! The sooner you stop talking, the sooner we get you to Shoko and the sooner you can see Maki again" She interrupted. I let my head rest against the ground.

"Tell Maki that I love her" I said quietly. Nobara looked at my with worry. "No. Y/n, don't say that. You can tell her yourself." She reassured before turning to the boys. "ITADORI!! FUSHIGURO!! Y/N'S ABOUT TO DIE AND I ONLY HAVE A HAMMER!!" She screamed. I couldn't tell, since it was raining and my vision was a bit blurry, but I knew she was crying.

Fushiguro ran to me, along with Itadori. "Y/n!!" Itadori yelled, crouching down next to me. "Sukuna!! Swap with me and use your reversed curse technique and heal Y/n!" He yelled. Sukuna popped out on his hand. "No" He smiled. "GOD DAMN YOU!! MY BEST FRIEND IS DYING!! IF SHE DIES, I DIE AND SO DO YOU!! NOW COME ON AND SWAP WITH ME!!" He screamed.

"Don't. My times almost up anyways" I breathed. "NO!!" Nobara screamed. Megumi put his hands together and summoned Nue. "TAKE Y/N BACK TO THE SCHOOL AND TELL SOMEONE TO GET HER TO SHOKO!! GO!!" He yelled. Nue took me by my shoulders and soon enough, I was out.

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I didn't know if I was dead or not. I'd opened my eyes to see a white room. I looked around and sure enough, Shoko was there. "Huh?" I asked weakly. "No, Y/n you're staying right there and don't bother arguing. It's a miracle that you were still alive by the time Fushiguro's shikigami got you here" Shoko said sternly.

I just let my head rest against the pillow. "I wonder what's happening with the others right now" I said. "You can ask them what's happening once you're better. But no sneaking out like last time. These are much more than bruises, you may be scarred with this for life." She explained. "I wonder what Maki'll think of me after this" I questioned, and chuckled a bit.

Shoko sighed. "I'm sure she'd love you no less than before" She turned to me and smiled.

(16 hours earlier)

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"Fushiguro, Itadori, Kugisaki and L/n, you are going on a SPECIAL mission for my SPECIAL students" Gojo beamed at us. We just looked at him. "Ok?" I said. "Welp, off you guys go. I'll text you the coordinates of the location so you don't have to worry about that yet" He said, pulling out his phone. "Ok. Well, you heard the man" I said. "Wait. Does it involve a special grade curse?" Megumi asked.

Gojo turned to us. "Maaaaaaaybe? Why?" He said. I rolled my eyes. "Because it very well may mean the difference between our life and death for the next few hours" I crossed my arms. "Yeah ok it does. BUT. I trust you all have each other's backs, yes?" He beamed again. We all looked at each other. "Yeah. You guys, I've got your backs" Itadori grinned.

"I've got yours too" I said. "And yours" Nobara added. "No comment" Megumi said. "Aww how sweet of you to chime in on that?" Itadori and Nobara chirped. I rolled my eyes again. "Whatever. Let me grab my eye drops and do a few other things before we go" I said, jogging off to my room.

I got to my room and saw Maki opening her door. "Hey" I said brightly. "Hi, my love" She said, kissing me passionately. "Damn it. You doing that makes me not wanna go!" I mumbled. "What?" She asked. "Gojo gave us a mission involving a special grade curse so I'm saying my goodbyes real quick in case anything happens" I explained. "Whatever you're thinking better not happen" She said sternly. I chuckled.

"Well, anyways I also came back to get my eyedrops then I'm off." I opened my door and grabbed my eyedrops from my nightstand. "Wait, eyedrops? I thought you said your eyes weren't irritated anymore?" She asked. "No no, I said that the Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan wouldn't irritate them further, not that they weren't anymore" I corrected. She frowned and looked away in embarrassment.

"It's ok. You're just looking out for me." I cupped her cheek. "I don't want you to go" She mumbled. "Stay here, with me and Inumaki and Panda" She said. I smiled. "Don't worry. I'll be back in no time" I said before kissing her.

A few moments later we pulled away breathless. "I love you. Don't you dare leave me and not return" She said. "I won't. I promise" I held up my pinky. She crossed it and hugged me. "I love you too" I said before walking out the door.

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"Alright guys, let's go" I said, walking to my friends. "Welp. Off we goooo!" Itadori chirped.

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We got to our destination in about 20 minutes. "So what're the details?" Megumi asked. Ijichi-san looked at us through the rear window. "Construction workers have been disappearing for a few weeks now. Some other workers say that one moment they were adding a cinder block and the next they were gone like out of thin air. They haven't been seen for sometime now" He explained.

"And these workers, they all know each other well? Like, they're close?" I asked. Ijichi-san nodded. "Hmm" I said.

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We pulled up to the construction site and got out the car. "I'll set up a veil" He said, rolling down the window. "Thank you. Keep it about 9 to 10 kilometers" Megumi requested. Ijichi-san nodded before driving off. "Welp, here goes nothin" I said before following the other three.

We walked around the site until we got to the main building, which had a light on the outside that was flickering. "Oi, let's split up. The sooner we find and exorcise that curse, the sooner we can get back" Megumi said. We nodded and went out seperate ways. I went for the main building and opened the door with my usual katana and Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan.

The room was dark and there was a small leak in the ceiling. I mentally thanked myself that the lightning kept it a little bright in there. My footsteps were wet and loud so if anyone were to be in this building they'd know I'm here, unless it's the special grade curse then I'm in deep shit. There were some lights that flickered on an off through the different hallways. Most were either just off or busted.

I turned a corner and saw a few bodies sitting against the wall, all mangled up. Joints dislocated and some parts missing. I turned away then puked in my head and kept walking. Something told me that splitting up was Megumi's worst idea in the world because the more I walked the more some smell lingered in the air; like something died and crawled up a rat's ass.

I turned around another corner and sure enough, there were more people. But, they were alive? How? With a special grade curse playing around at the construction site? No matter. I kept walking until I got to the people. "Hey, what're you guys doing here?? This place is dangerous and you need to get out of here!" I said before they turned to me. One of them smirked at the sight of seeing a girl in a skirt alone here in the building.

I rolled my eyes and readied up my katana. "See, told you they'd send at least one girl" One of the men said. I lifted an eyebrow in confusion and pulled up my mask because the smell was excruciating. A few seconds later, I felt a dull pain in the side of my head and I was out.

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I woke up and lifted my head to find myself tied up and on the ground. My leggings were off so I could only assume the worst from these men: that they'd lured me here and...I'd rather not speak of that right now. "Aye, boss I thought you said you didn't hold with rape?!" One of the men questioned. I looked up at them. They'd been sitting at a desk with some sort of paper on it.

"Well, it's something to keep you busy while we wait for the others to join her" The 'boss' answered. I widdened my eyes. I couldn't say anything, as my mouth had a cushion in it. Did I tell you my head was pounding right now? Well it is and the blood that trickled down my cheek and it got annoying as hell. My stomach felt full, which gave me more proof that these men are so worthless and pathetic that they'd take a 16 year old girl and rape her as they please. (a/n: ima be like this rq, if u ever have been raped, it's ok to talk to someone ab it, don't be ashamed about it :))

A few minutes later some footsteps were heard. My heart lightened at the thought of seeing Itadori, Nobara and Megumi bust through the door and kick these guys' asses. Nah, it was just some bored men looking for entertainment. One of the men chuckled at the sight. "Oh ho ho, lookie here" One man said maliciously. My body felt weak right now and I was tired as shit and I couldn't do anything to protect myself.

The man took out his dick and started playing with himself to get hard. I shut my eyes and thought of Maki. I wondered if she would still love me after this.

He groaned once he got hard enough to be a third leg and walked over to me. He slapped me and forced me to open my eyes. "You're gonna watch as I fuck your pretty pussy, you little slut" He said before aligning himself and pushed in. Note, my back was flat on the ground now and we were on display for everybody. Tears formed in my eyes, trying to adjust to his size and no they were most definietly not happy tears.

His face was red and his thrusts were sloppy, which let me know he was close. I widdened my eyes once I FINALLY realized what was happening. I couldn't find it in my to get my Sharingan out so I just shut my eyes and pretended it was just a nightmare, and that I was going to wake up soon next to Maki.

That was not happening in this case.

He groaned and came inside while I came with him. He huffed and pulled out, watching the tears flow down my cheeks. "Well would you look at that, the whore's crying because she likes it. Why don't one of y'all get some of that" The man said. Two men smirked and walked over to me before taking out their dicks. I whined and tossed my head back knowing it's going to happen all over again.

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Some hours later, I'd counted the times I'd been raped and got to a total of 12 times in one day. Sheesh, I wouldn't blame Maki if she'd broken up with me if she heard about this.

They finally stopped and dragged me out the room and out the building. It was pouring by now and my hair was soaked the second I walked out the building, both from sweat and the rain. My mask had been pulled down and my nose was bleeding, along with a small scar above my eyebrow. I knew that I'd never emotionally recover from this.

"Alright, here you go. One 16 year old whore for ya" The boss said, dropping me in front of what looked like a human being. But instead of that, it had purple skin and was much taller than any of the other men and it's legs weren't there, instead it had tentacles and it's head looked bigger than mine, Itadori's and Nobara's combined. It walked towards me and grinned. It's sharp teeth like that of a shark.

It took out it's long tongue and lifted my undershirt with it, exposing my tummy. I huffed, knowing that this was the last time I'd ever be outside.

Just a few seconds later, a door swung open. It was Megumi and Nobara. "Y/n!" Megumi yelled and sped over to me, only for the curse to take a tentacle and swipe him away. Nobara took a few nails and struck them at the curse. It just naturally obsorbed them and shot them back, which she dodged hastily. Itadori came running out the building a few moments later.

He ran to me and crouched down. "I know what they did to you" He said. I couldn't tell if more tears were coming out my eyes or if it was rain. "I'm sorry that it happened, I should've been there. I should've gone with you. This wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been there to protect you!" He cried out, hitting the ground with his fist. Tears or rain fell from his face and onto mine.

"i'm sorry" He whispered before resting his forehead against mine. I smiled. "It wasn't your fault" I said weakly. He lifted his head from mine. "Yes it was. It was my fault that I didn't go with you. This would never have come to this if I weren't for my stupidity!" He said. I chuckled and cupped his cheek. "It's ok. I'm the one who decided to go in that building. It was my fault that I didn't go with you" I said.

"No, don't you dare say that to me. None of this was your fault. You didn't have to go on this mission." He said before getting up. "Now I'm gonna be the best friend that you deserve and get revenge for you" He said, readying up his Divergent Fist. I smiled as he ran and punched the curse.

I sat up and watched the scene before me. Luckily, my I could still walk so I was able to do something. By the time I stood up, I'd processed that this curse was extra cunning. It'd gained the men's trust and had them lure Jujutsu sorcerers over here just for rape and fun. The others were lucky that it wasn't them. And I would've never forgiven myself if it was Nobara or Maki or Mai or any other girl I know.

Eventually I got up and got out my Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan, revenge and blood thirsty. I ran up to the curse with my katana at full speed and slashed at it's tentacle, only for it to grow back and grab me. It threw me off to the side and I hit my rib against a light post before I landed. I screamed in agony before getting back up.

Blood rushed from the top of my head and down to my face. I whiped it off confidently and started for the curse, readying up a kunai to blind it. I ran up to the curse, using the objects around me as platforms to avoid the tentacles and jumped. I took my kunai and slashed it's eyes only for the cut to heal almost instantly. I knew that it was pissed now, cuz it took a sharp tentacle and struck me in the stomach.

My intestinal organs, my pancreas, my stomach all went flying out and blood came spewing out everywhere. The curse threw me off somewhere away from the construction site and onto the grass.

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All the memories of me and Maki came flooding through my mind. I guess everything does come back when you're about to die, huh?

That day I exorcised my first curse, the day I met Itadori, the day my dad died, the day I became a Jujutsu Sorcerer, the day I met Nobara and Megumi and Gojo. The day I met Maki. My first kiss with her, my first kiss with Nobara, when Nobara first confessed to me, when I first started dating her and Maki, the day I first used my Genjutsu on Mai, that day at the exchange event I apologized to her for everything, the time I admitted that I love Maki, Itadori's home run, the day off we spent doing a deez nuts war, now. All of it came flooding back.

I lie on my back, blood trickling from my mouth as rain continued pouring over my blood stained and mangled face. The fact I'm lying here about to die when I'd been using my Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan against that special grade curse is a bit embarrassing, but it was nothing compared to the pain I felt in the hole in my stomach. This must've been what Itadori felt when Sukuna ripped his heart out.

I couldn't even begin to imagine the guilt that Gojo would feel when he hears that I died. Not that I have yet, but it's almost certain I will. The damage done to me was probably beyond Shoko's repair, as my lost, dirty and likely infected intestinal organs were ripped out and thrown off into no where, it'd take a miracle for someone to find them and get them and me back to Shoko in time for her to stop the bleeding.

Nobara rushed over to me with a small limp and screamed for Itadori. "ITADORI!! IT'S Y/N SHE'S-" Nobara screamed. I smiled, knowing she still cared after I broke her heart.

"Don't bother," I said weakly. "My intestinal organs were ripped out and thrown off into no where and I doubt Shoko can replace them with compatible ones" I continued. "Nope. Y/n, stop talking. You're wasting breath and I'm sure there's something Shoko can do" Nobara said, squeezing my hand.

"But-" "Just be quiet! The sooner you stop talking, the sooner we get you to Shoko and the sooner you can see Maki again" She interrupted. I just let my head rest against the ground.

"Tell Maki that I love her" I said quietly. Nobara looked at me with worry. "No. Y/n, don't say that. You can tell her yourself." She reassured before turning to the boys. "ITADORI!! FUSHIGURO!! Y/N'S ABOUT TO DIE AND I ONLY HAVE A HAMMER!!" She screamed. I couldn't tell, since it was raining and my vision was a bit blurry, but I knew she was crying.