'victoria, wake up' richie whispered lovingly into my ears

we were lying in the meadows, still in each others arms

i remembered what he had said before as I felt the dried up tears on my cheeks

'do you want to go down to the river and watch the sunset?' he asked me

i nodded and we got up and walked back up to his bike

i held onto him and remembered what I had said to myself a while back,

and I didn't hold on tight, because I had already lost him

my mind went blank while we biked across the town of derry, people watching us from their cars or while they're out on walks with their dogs

and I didn't think of it

and for that matter, I didn't think about anything

not even richie,

not even richie

'okay, vic; we're here'

i looked down and nodded, not wanting to see his beautiful chocolate eyes in fear that they would make me cry again

he intertwined our fingers as we walked down to the shallow river

we hadn't been here together in forever

and we're not going to see each other in forever

ugh

ugh

ugh

'vic?'

'what? um, I mean yeah?'

'are you okay? you look worried'

'i'm fine'

he nodded his head, knowing I wasn't, but also knowing I would never admit it

'victoria, i'm so sorry. this wasn't my decision, and if it was, we'd stay here in each other's arms forever'

'but it's not' I whispered, not wanting to make myself cry again 

 'victoria, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and don't ever forget that'

i sniffled, not answering to his comment

richie was sitting down with his legs spread out and I was sitting in between them

he had me in his arms and it made me feel so safe and comfortable

then, with a small whisper, richie said,'please don't ever forget me'

i didn't answer, and then grabbed the hand that he had wrapped around my waist and kissed it

he kissed my forehead in return

i laid my head back, looking at the sun that was almost gone

'rich, i'm gonna miss you' I said straight up

'i'm so sorry'

'don't be' I sighed

that was it, I simply couldn't take it anymore

it hurt so bad

my heart hurt

laying there in his arms hurt

everything hurt

'richie, I have to go.' I said and left

why did I do that?

there was so much going on in my head I couldn't take it

i sat on the huge green field all alone,

richie had slipped a note to me in biology saying to meet him out here

it was going to be nice to talk to him,

but in some sort of way it wasn't

it hurt to think about how I was never going to see him again

'never' as in two years

but it felt like never

i sat down on the turf and played with the fake grass

'vic' I heard someone say

it was richie

i smiled on the inside,

but frowned on the outside

i got up and walked over to him,

meeting him halfway I ran up to him and wrapped my arms around him tightly

it felt so good

he held his arms around, almost lifting me up, while his chin rested on the top of my head with his eyes closed

i felt something wet on my head and looked my eyes up, not wanting to move

it was richie, he was crying

that made me even more sad,

seeing him sad

silently, the tears slowly started dripping down my face and down to my neck

i sniffled and then we pulled apart while looking at the other one who was crying

we intertwined our fingers and walked over to where I was sitting before and sat down

i laid down between his legs and he wrapped his arms around me

i held his soft, warm hands and the tears came back

'richie, please don't go'

i whispered

'trust me, i'll make sure i'm never going to leave your side' he lied

we both knew that there was nothing he or anyone could really do 

after what felt like a few minutes out on the field, we could here the bell ring from inside the school, signalling that lunch was over and we had to go to theatre class

right as I slightly stood up, richie pulled me back into his arms

'let's just stay here for a bit, that's all I ask'

i nodded, and shuffled closer to him and closed my eyes

a few minutes later, I could feel richie shaking me awake

'what's going on?' I asked him

he smiled at me,'vic, let's go to class since we shouldn't get in too much trouble'

i nodded, and we got up and walked back into the school

me and bill walked out of the front doors of the school as we said goodbye to each other and went our separate ways

'see you tomorrow billy boy!' I said to him as he waved goodbye to me

i started walking over to the bike racks and got to my bike; after I was about to get on it I saw greta bowie come closer to me 

she stopped a few yards away from me and crossed her arms while looking at me with half pity and a half smirk spread across her face

'what do you want, greta?' I asked as I walked away from the bike racks and across from where she was standing

'heard about you and richie skipping class together out on the football field'

'so? why does that matter?'

'i'm sure your older brother would love to hear this' she smirked and tilted her head at me as if she was some sort of dog

'don't you dare' I threatened her

'well, you dared to take richie away from me, so I guess I dare to tell him'

'you never had richie, greta. so back off!' I began to get annoyed and mad as she stepped closer to me

i could smell the fruit gum she was chewing obnoxiously,'if I want I can take richie back anytime'

'oh you know thats not true'

'but it is' she fake pouted

'back off' I said as she stepped closer and closer to me

'like richie did from you?' she smiled at my annoyance

'he never did and never will' I answered, clearly pissed off,'and I said back off, greta'

'well isn't that just sad; but I don't care what you say or think, and i'm going to tell steve everything about what you and richie have been doing these past few months'

that was it,'i've had enough of you, greta'

i slapped her

'you whore!' she screamed, causing everyone around us to look at us

she wound her fist up into a ball and threw a punch at me

i ducked, and then went straight up again, throwing us both to the ground

she got a hold of my hair and pushed me under her

then, I went in for a punch and she let go of my hair attempting to duck but miserably failing

she got a nose bleed

i grabbed a handful of her hair and swung around again so I was on top of her

i pulled her hair even more as she screamed

i then slapped her one more time before I felt someone's arms wrap around my chest and pull me away from her onto the grass, and then pulled me up so I was standing back up

'victoria, what the hell are you doing?!' he whisper yelled at me

'richie, she was goin-' richie looked at me angrily

'think next time, i'm so disappointed in you. I honestly thought that you were better than greta bowie, but obviously not'

he let go of my arms and walked away, making me stumble on the green grass, and then he biked away

there were green stains from the grass all over my pants and backpack as I felt stares from what felt like the whole school looking at me

with a crack in my voice from being about to cry, I yelled at them all,'what are you guys looking at?!'

they all quickly turned their heads away and continued on getting ready to go home

with a sigh, I walked back over to my bike, got on, and peddled home

once I walked through the door back at my house, I noticed that steve was there in the kitchen

'oh, hey steve' I mumbled under my breath, quickly trying to get away to hide in my room from my brother

'victoria, wait!' I heard steve yell after me as I stopped in my tracks and turned around back to the kitchen

'what, steve?' I asked him as I sat down on one of the kitchen chairs

'do you have any homework that you haven't finished?' he asked me, with sunglasses resting on top of his pulled back hair

'no' I said, almost as if it was a question that I had asked him

'good, because we're going to eat dinner with billy and his little brother, henry, tonight and I need your help to cook the food'

i nodded, not wanting to do it, but also knowing that there was no way out of it

'this was really good food, steve' henry said forcefully

billy looked at him and nodded

'um, thank you henry; now since you and vic are both finished you can help take out the plates and then hang out a little bit in victoria's room' steve said with a smile

henry took one fork out, leaving me to bring the rest

wow, so helpful

richie would've helped with everything

but not anymore

i sighed as I sat on the floor of my room across from henry

he smirked at me and I rolled my eyes at him

'what do you want bowers? aren't you gonna beat me up?' I asked him annoyed at his presence

'heard about you and tozier today at the school'

'basically everyone in the entire world has'

'one sec, i'll be back'

he got up and left the room

steve slammed the door open in my room and yelled at me,

'VICTORIA HARRINGTON! WHO THE HELL IS RICHIE TOZIER AND WHY THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN MAKING OUT WITH HIM THE PAST FEW MONTHS?!'

shit shit shit