The walls started closing in around me. I was utterly powerless against it I watched as the walls stained red crushing me. The color red it was a strong color. To me I find the color cold and violent, like a big red star. I could feel my body going numb as I just looked around it was red. The dreaded color of my regrets, but also the color I was attached too. Red was my prison it hold me captive to its cold embrace. Blue the color of my guilt. Blue was the color I wanted. I wanted the color to set me free into its warm embrace but red was all I could seem to get. Green the color was always special to me. Green was a color that I felt close too it gave me happiness and joy but I never really wanted it as much as blue. Then there's purple, a funny and odd color. Purple has always been a strange color, but it's also the combination of red and blue. Purple is also the color of royalty but it's also sometimes suffocating.

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We finally got some peace and quiet, tord has been having panic attacks for the past few hours and its beyond annoying. I need a drink. I step into the kitchen and grab some Smirnoff off the counter. I drink it feeling the weight of the world disappear.

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I have a splitting headache. Where am I? Weird they didn't lock the door. Oh right I'm a in Edd's apartment, right? I open the door calling for Edd but nobody responds. Strange I look at what seems to be the kitchen and I see Jehovah's Witness. Fuck wait why am I staying with him I thought he hated me. Of course he's drunk, and it's a mess. I should probably clean it up. I started picking up the empty glasses of Smirnoff. I hadn't noticed Tom waking up and he just looked at me raising a brow. "So... what are you my maid?" I squealed, it sounded like a rat got ran over and then squeezed to death. Tom started laughing and I looked to my side blushing. "Oooh did I embarrass you? Aw sorry Tordy didn't know you couldn't feel anything other then anger." Ouch that actually hurt. "Yeah okay, but you made that assumption all on your own Jehovah." He just looked at me weird "Yeah but I've never heard you make such a bad comeback you okay?" He looked a me concerned "if you don't shut the fuck up im gonna burn you alive and feed your ashes to your children as a warning." I growled "Aaaannd there's the Tord I know and love." Tom said "What do you mean love." I blushed "no don't get the wrong idea I'm not gay haha.. I meant as a friend wait no enemy we aren't friends." He looked at me his face was as red as a tomato. I laughed and walked away glancing at him one last time before sighing and standing there wondering where the fuck I'm supposed to go. "Yeah your room is on the right. It's a guest room I don't want you messing anything up if you know what I mean so I confiscated your hentai" "oh oka—- wait wot." I actually wanna carve this pineapple open, take out his insides and make him into a pie for homeless people. "YOU LITTLE HOW THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN GET MY HENTAI!" I yelled halfway across the room, he started approaching me and laughing. "Your phone dumbass, ohh you think you can get this disc?" He teased "yes I can watch me asshole." I stomped to my 'Room' I can't believe he did this. Now what am I gonna do, I glance over at a mirror and look at myself. Holy shit that's why I can't open my eyes sometimes. I pulled the bandage off my face and looked at my forehead. There was a huge cut it was so deep. I looked at the floor noticing some pills. It didn't bother me that much I expected to me forced to take some pills, but it has no label. I frowned thinking about overdosing but then pushed the thought away and started thinking about Jehovah's Witness. Why do I keep thinking about him?

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I wonder how Tom was doing. I should probably check on them. Cause ya'know I kind of left him with Tord but I should really spend some time with Matt. I can't decide fff. I'll go check on them and then spend time with Matt, yeah that'll do. I walk to Toms room and I did not expect what I saw tbh. I see Tom nervously looking at Tords room he was about to open it but I stopped him. "Tom what are you doing?" He looked at me surprised but then rolled his 'eyes' and replied "I heard him call me it was pretty loud but now he's all quiet." I rushed into the room and see Tord sleeping it looked like he wanted some water. I put a blanket around him and sighed looking at him one last time and closing the door .