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I wake up with a glass of water on the nightstand.

Huh never asked for that oh well. I haven't seen Edd or Matt the last few days, I wonder how they have been. I heard the door creak open. I was expecting to see Tom but I saw Edd instead.

"Hey Edd it's been awhile!" I was excited to see him mainly because he's my best friend. "It has, Tord I saw how you fell asleep on the floor last night." If Edd wasn't Edd I would have screamed at him for entering "my" room without permission.

"Tom was worried about you, he said he heard you say his name before you fell asleep." I was disappointed. "SO he heard me?" I sighed and shook my head in disappointment. Edd chuckled and said "Let's go get breakfast Matt and Tom are waiting." Well I mean I'm probably gonna screw their day up because of how terrible my mental state is. How do they even put up with me?

They don't

They're lying

Nobody cares about you

Never did never will

Just die

It will make everyone happier

No that's too good for you

Suffer

You disgusting

Hypocrite

User

Ugly

Deformed

Sadistic

Communist

Tears threatened to fall but I choked them back, I didn't want to show my emotions and I didn't want them worrying about me. I'm already in hot water because I fell asleep on the floor. I started laughing and Tom said "Is there something you want to tell us?" He glances at me actually expecting a non half-assed answer. "Oh sorry didn't know laughing was illegal, and you call ME a communist." He just looked to the side and started laughing.

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My god Tord is so bad at comebacks it's funny and c- no. Stop it I'm not gay. It was cute but not in a homo way, right? What am I saying of course not he's my rival I'm only being nice to him because I feel bad.

Im so sorry I'll write in Matt's point of view soonnnnnnn

I didn't noticed I spaced out until i saw Tord snapping in front of my face, how rude. "Gonna wake up? We still h—" he stopped mid sentence and looked at the ground. Edd looked at me and we both looked back expecting a panic attack. He just stood there for a solid 5 minutes and then shook his head and asked what he was saying.

Today's gonna be a looooonnng day. I grab my flask and head to my room. Just forget about it, the feeling in your chest means nothing. I started thinking about Tords mental health. He's been having panic attack but if he suffered from Severe Brain Trauma or crashed into the ground headfirst at high speeds, wouldn't his condition be worse?

Yeah something is definitely off here, and I WILL figure it out. For now I'll play his little game. I hope he didn't just come back for another fucking robot. If he did I'm going to make sure he's in a worse condition then Jon. How could Tord do that anyway imagine the leader of an army a 5'8 male with a feminine body shape.

Whoa what if Tord became a trap. He could totally pull it off. What's happening why am I- nevermind let's just not think about that little cute shi- and there we go again I'm NOT gay. I couldn't be gay. I shouldn't lie to myself like this, maybe if I take a look at Tord I'll be reassured that he's just a stupid communist nothing else.

I crept out my room half expecting Tord to be right outside my door. I hid behind a wall and peeked at Tord. As I looked at him I could feel the fluttering in my chest come back and I started blushing thinking of things I cou— nevermind nobody wants to hear that, wait who would hear that.

I don't think I should keep staring what if I get caught. I can't take my eyes off him, it's the way his body curves and how his caramel hair shines. It's indescribable. I need him, but how. I know for a fact he doesn't like me— I totally forgot about his feelings. This is pointless he doesn't like me and never will.

I'll just give up like I always do, that's the easiest thing to do right? It's better for both of us. I won't get embarrassed, he won't have to make a choice, he won't feel "bad" for hurting my feelings, he won't have to lie and he wouldn't have to deal with me being all sad.!

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I could see Tom looking at Tord from halfway across the room, he looked like a stalker but it was funny how he kept blushing I wonder what he's thinking.

I think Matt noticed because he started to laugh.

Tord just looked at us confused and asked what we were laughing about. We told him it was something we remembered about high school.

I looked at Tom he seemed to notice and ran towards his room. Matt and I bursted out in laughter. Tord felt embarrassed for not getting the joke and he started blushing. Matt and I looked at each other and we knew what to do about this.

"Tord how do you feel about Tom?" I asked and Tords eyes widened in confusion and uncertainty. "I-I uh, he's my rival I h-hate him. He hates m-me so why s-s-shouldn't I hate h-him?" Matt asked Tord "How do you ACTUALLY feel you seem bothered and need to get it out your system so we're here for you we won't tell him anything."

"Well, I kind of like him? I-it's nothing serious just a s-small crush that'll go away soon, r-right?" You could tell Tord started feeling guilty about everything he had done to Tom. I hugged him and he started crying into my shoulder.

🙏Thank you so much for reading, school sucks so I don't think I can upload everyday I will try. I'm making longer chapters though! 1000 words to 1200 words!!! Thank you 11 people who spent sometime of their lives to read this I really appreciate it thank you so much and I'm sorry my writing skills suuuckkk🙏