Melo was scared to leave me alone the other night so he decided to stay over night. I wasn't gonna hurt myself or anything, at least i didn't think i was.

When i was a mental breakdown, I don't know how to calm myself some. I feel like i need to hurt myself cause i think i deserved it. I know it's sad but i had a really hard life, ive been through so much.

Moving to Chino Hills was the best decision my mother ever made, we have a better life here. I finally have friends and a lovely boyfriend i adore. I have good memories here as well, sleepovers with the girls, Melo and I falling in love, etc.

I never thought i would have this many friends or even being in love. Melo makes me feel shit i never thought we're really. He makes me feel like the shit they described in wattpad books.

Like that butterfly feeling you feel in your stomach, or when your heart just starts racing just by only looking at them? yeah i didn't think that shit was real.

I woke up with Melo not next to me anymore, wonder why i felt so cold. I look around my room confused, i get up to go check my bathroom but there was no sign of him.

Usually Melo would text me or leave a cute little note on my pillow. but this time there was nothing, I started to become worried. I grabbed my phone to check the time and if i got messages. the only message i had was my mother telling me i shouldn't go to school.

The time was telling me I was gonna be late to school if i didn't get ready now. I through my phone on my bed and ran to my clothes. After getting dressed, I went to the bathroom to put on deodorant and brush my teeth.

My body felt so weak and tired. But i didn't want to stay here and just lay in my bed depressed. I decided to text Melo asking what the fuck did he go last night.

"Damn i'm just had to

go man, why you

so damn clingy all the damn time."

I reread the message over and over again in my head. Trying to comprehend this in my brain. Me? Clingy? he's the one always wanna be up under me and blowing up my phone when i don't reply fast.

All i felt was sadness and anger. Why was he being like this? We was just fine yesterday watching movies together and cuddling. being all lovey dovey and shit.

I know I didn't do nothing wrong last night or ever. So him being mean to me right now was unnecessary and i know i didn't deserve it. I felt a tear fall down my cheek but i quickly wiped it away.

I quickly text Ray asking him to come pick me up cause i know didn't have a ride there. Melo was usually my damn ride but i don't even wanna see his face.

Few minutes come by and Ray texted that he was outside. I grabbed my stuff and left out my house, lock the door behind me.

On the car ride to school, I was telling Ray everything that happened and showed him the text message. Ray looked honestly confused and told me he didn't know what was up with him. And I believed him.

I just sat back the whole ride just thinking to myself. What if the other boys know what's going on with Melo and wanting to keep their loyalty to him. If they're lying to me and not I find out my feeling are involved, i'm fighting niggas.

I mean I understand, I only knew The Yerm for almost a year. I don't expect them to take a bullet for me, but i do expect them to respect me. I know they would keep Melo's secret if he asks.

the second we arrived at the school, i wanted to find Vin asap.

"Hey Ray, Can you help me find Vinnie?" I asked.

"I gotchu"

Took us a few minutes but we finally found her in the library by herself with her airpods in. Ray and I looked at each other then rushed over to Vin. We took our seats right in front of her which made her look up from her phone.

Vin looks back and forth at our faces. She knew that sum was wrong by our facial expressions. Ray had a frown on his face and i was just sad all together.

"What's wrong guys?" she asks concerned while taking one of her pods out.

I didn't say anything, I just showed her the text message Melo sent. Her facial expressions went from confused to anger real quick.

"Vin? do you know what's going on with him?" I asked her. I just really want some answers. I know someone knows something.

"Nah I don't know what's going on with my dumb ass cousin, I wouldn't hide anything from you Scar."

I believe her.

Vin starts getting up and packing her things. She looked at us confused, wondering why the hell we didn't move yet.

"Cmon hoes! we got some investigating to do!"