I woke up on the couch with both zo and Jaden in my lap. The tv was on and there was food everywhere. I dont remember what happened last night but I do remember that kiss.. I regret it- I mean if it was with gelo than i'd be fine but ZO- nah . It made me feel like I kissed an old ass man (no offense).

I wanted to go to the studio today cause that's how I get all my emotions out. Through music.

I got off the couch carefully making sure not to wake them up and started to clean around them. I went to my bathroom , showered , and got ready. I then posted this on Instagram

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time 2 let my emotions out ina studio

Jada J. and Lamelo B. over 👀??

sure did !!

ready to drop an album huh? I betta be featured on it 🙄

of course durk lol

miss you gang 🖤

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I walked into the studio and it was just me. YESSSS!!!

I went straight to the recording table , played my beat and started the chorus

'I lied by nicki minaj' (act like its jada's song smh)

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I went and posted a snippet on my story and left.

I was tapping through people's stories when I came across Jada's. It was a song snippet and I could tell it was about me.

Do I regret sleeping with neyah ? hell yeah ! her head game weak asf and if ima be real I was thinking of Jada the whole time. I even moaned her name on accident-

Neyah had bruises all over her face and I still had the huge red slap mark on my face. That shit burns I had no clue Jada could hit so damn hard..

I really miss her tho..

I still care about her don't get me wrong.

I just hope she aint go rouge and kiss or fuck anyone..

I started going through pictures of us and I just couldn't take it anymore.

I got my keys and drove to the only place on earth she could possibly be at..

I was eating my churro's and salad just vibing to durks album until someone tapped my shoulder

It was Lamelo. Oh hell no

I rolled my eyes and continued to eat. He moved the chair in front of me and sat down

This bitch really was making me mad.

"listen please" he said.

I stared at my food.

"I am so fucking sorry for what I did to you. I messed up. BIG TIME. and I didn't mean to hurt you in any way possible. Miles and Rozier got in my head which made me think and do stupid shit. I should've came to you as a mature man and talked it out with you first. But I jumped to conclusions when I shouldn't have.. please forgive me I fucking love you !!" he said with teary eyes

I took my headphones out my ears

"can you repeat yourself? I couldn't hear you my bad" I said genuinely wondering what he said.

He gave me a hurt look and I saw a tear run down his cheek

"I WAS PLAYING MELO STOP BEING A BABY" I started dying of laughter.

His face turned red like REALLY red. I lowkey felt bad but not enough to care

"listen man. I love you.. but you really fucked up this time- sleeping with my best friend? really? you could've at least slept with ashy and I wouldn't have tripped as much" I lied. still would've rocked that hoes shit.

He looked down and played with his fingers.

" I wanna be with you but you gotta commit to this relationship. you act as if im always in the wrong when you probably was flirting with other hoes while with me.." he gave me a look that made my heart shatter a little. I obviously knew it was true but damn could've pretended it wasn't.

"please d-dont l-l-leave me" he said having a whole mental break down

PEOPLE WAS STARING AWH HELL.

I took him into my car and let him cry into my arms..

I started to feel real bad cause no ball boy ever shows how they really feel. other than zo ranting ive never seen one of em cry. They cover their pain with jokes..

What is it about this kid that I cant let go?

fuck man. I already kissed his brother

how am I supposed to tell him THAT?!

how Jada feels towards Melo right now:

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