mundes

"Matt! You told me he didn't like me!" I push Matt to the point that he falls onto his bed. "You know, that was the first guy who actually made me feel something." And even if I did know him for only a week...

"And I know why you did it! You did it for your selfish reasons because you like Taylor!" I shout loudly, my shadow hovering him.

"You claimed you've never liked him. Taylor has said you guys hated each other. Hey, even you told me you hated him when I was coming to your dorm when he was in there. You, hate him. Now why do you like him all of a sudden?" I retort.

Matthew sits up and looks at Grayson. "You know someone is still here and you're embarrassing yourself." I turn around. "I only used you anyways. You can leave." I tell Grayson, pointing at the door.

"No need to be rude. But it doesn't matter. I'm leaving." Grayson gets up and leaves, closing the door softly.

I look at Matthew and sit on Taylor's bed that's across him. "Matt, we've been friends for so long. And all I want to know is one thing. I just don't know why you hide things from me."

Matthew remains silent, fiddling with his fingers. "One time, I heard, and sort of saw him, under the covers. You know... And to mention, it was like three in the morning. God, you don't understand. His moans inspired me to write sensualism."

"Oh god. That's so gross!" I yell, a little too loudly. I look a him and he covers his face. Probably out of embarrassment. "I'm sorry Matt. Your passion isn't gross, I meant that like, you lied awake just letting him go on without helping."

Matthew laughs, but he should, clearly I was lightening the mood. And with that laugh, I know an apology will be traded between us.

I get up and sit next to him and take his hand. "Do you like him?" I whisper. "I thought I did, but the way you talk about him, it's not as much as I can. I think you should go after him."

I smile at the thought, I'm getting approval from my best friend to date the guy that he's been having sex with.

- April 3, 2016