I mourned my mother, I don't know for how long but it was getting a little late.

I still had time before sundown to meditate on the matter.

I walked away giving her a goodbye.

I knew where I was going.

I felt a little relieved to talk to my mother, even though she is dead thanks to those sons of a bitches,

Sand people.

I kept walking but I'm not going back to the moisture farm to meditate. It's cramped and even though it's almost sand free, but it doesn't feel right to meditate there.

It's doesn't feel like it's the right place like it's out of order.

I never felt like this before.

Not even once.

I walked further but not too far until I met a cave.

This cave had a certain presence and I definitely know a certain jedi was here.

I felt anger but it didn't last long as I felt something else. It felt like it was part of me but it's not.

My son was here. With Obi-wan.

Not so long ago too...

This was the place where I first heard Leia and Luke's voices. Amazing that without little training they found me. They had never seen me but found me many stars away.

I thought of all the people I've met and lost.

I'm so sorry Ahsoka. I wished I was a better master. If I was, mabey all of this wouldn't have happened...

Mabey you'll forgive me one day.

I wished I could have done more to help you unlike the other jedi's that didn't believe in you.

And Rex...

He and I both had really no choice for what we did, except I did have that choice.

The Younglings... People just as young like Leia and Luke I've slaughtered and now every time I think of that night, I imagine that Leias' face is replaced and I kill her.

Padme,

Oh my sweet angel. Where do I even begin?

I tried to keep you safe but instead I harmed you.

I tried to choke you.

Out of all people I tried to protect you were the one who got hurt.

Not just physically, but mentally.

If you tried to kill me,

I wouldn't blame you for I wished I was dead but now, until you come for our child we made that night, I will have a purpose.

I'll protect Leia, I will help her.

I will help her get through the deaths of the people who was there for her when she hadn't had us by her side and cared for her, just like you did to me despite what I did to the

sand people .

I just hope she will learn to let go of her hate towards them.

A lesson I never learned.

I lit a small fire just on the outside because of how cold it can get at night.

I then sat down and began to meditate.