The way he tried to touch me felt the same what Anna did even though she was drugged and he was drunk.

There's a difference between purpose and accidental. Yet they both led to the same thing. One can't control and the other is numb to any feeling whatsoever.

I covered Anna up and went downstairs where Paxton came home late night. She must have went to the outhouse and she was drunk.

I took her to bed and let her sleep when I grabbed me some chips and sat in the living room. I watched tv all night and fell asleep at 4 in the morning.

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I woke up to someone moving around in my lap. I saw Anna while she was getting up but when she looked at me her eyes lit up.

"You didn't sleep next to me." She frowned.

"Couldn't sleep. Sorry." I mumbled focusing my attention to the tv.

"What happened last night? Did I do anything?" She asked and I shook my head.

"I know you told me not to drink it. I'm sorry I didn't listen." She apologized and I shook my head.

"It's fine. Your safe so everything is okay." I mumbled knowing if I told her what happened and that the flashbacks I got from it she'd know what Jackson did and I can't handle Anna getting out of control again.

"Peyton..." she mumbled.

"Peyton please look at me..." she whispered I just gave her a silent treatment.

"You want me to go?" She asked and I drove my attention back to her.

I stared at her before she got up. She grabbed her things and left. It was for the best I hope. I want some time to sort things out.

I didn't want her to leave but she needed some time and so did I. It's like when you spend to much time with someone you start to get annoyed at them.

I was exactly annoyed but the feelings of his hands on my body felt like he was gonna hurt me. And Anna's communication is through touch and I could feel myself getting overwhelmed when touched even if it was her.

I hated not being able to see her but we are gonna need some time away from each other.

I got up grabbing me an orange juice and walked outside. I got in my car and went to one of my favorite places. The pier.

Even though me and Anna went together it was just me. I liked the most hitting my face almost fell as if I'm relaxed.

Some people were fishing as I looked out to see someone catching a big one.

"It's big aye. Bet you've never seen a girl catch a fish this big." I heard looking at the girl who was grabbing the fish.

I smiled but kept walking. She looked familiar has she stopped me.

"You go to my school don't you?" She asked and that's where I saw her from.

"Yeah you were in my Chemistry class!" She said and I laughed.

She waved goodbye while I did and continued to walk. I found myself at the edge of the pier as me and Anna's conversation and scenes replayed in my head.

After awhile I felt someone next to me. That same girl.

"Hi. I'm Kacy." She said and I shook her hand.

"Peyton." I said and she smiled.

"You come here all the time?" She asked and I nodded.

"Well... I come here with someone... but I think we are taking a break?" I said and she nodded.

"Well I guess this is your person?" She asked handing me a picture.

It just have fallen out of my wallet. It was a picture of me Anna on the Ferris wheel back in LA I had printed it in a small photo to keep with me at all times. I smiled at the photo.

"She seems to be important to you. I'm sorry y'all are taking a break. Hope it gets better for you." She said leaving.

It didn't.

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"Cmon Peyton. Tell me what I did wrong!" Anna yelled as she followed me inside my house.

"You did nothing wrong okay!" I yelled and she looked at me.

"I clearly did something wrong for you to act like this." She said crossing her arm.

Couples fight... right? This is normal!

"Okay maybe you may have taken it too far last night but it's fine! It's over!" I yelled and she furrowed her eyebrows.

"Take it too far?" She asked and I nodded.

"What do you mean I took it too far! I don't remember taking anything to fucking far!!" She yelled and I could feel the fear of being hit rise against me.

"YOU— I- never fucking mind just get out!!" I yelled and my voice has never raised that high... I was panicking...

"Tell me what I did wrong Peyton." She said and I shook my head no.

"TELL ME WHAT I FUCKING DID WRONG!" She raised her hands and I could just feel what's coming next.

But it never came. I flinched so hard I stumbled backwards before Anna noticed.

"Peyton..." she mumbled coming closer.

"Get out." I said while getting away from her.

"Wait. Peyton please-" she mumbled as I cut her off.

"I don't think... we should see each other... anymore." I mumbled as I could just feel flashbacks running through me.

"Wait no Peyton I can fix this... just please tell me what I wrong." She said and I couldn't explain what she did last night.

She took it too far even when I said no yet the drugs made her continue. If I told her then I would have to tell her Jackson did the same thing.

They aren't the same person. I know they aren't but my mind and my emotions are telling me they are.

"Just go Anna I don't want to see you anymore." I mumbled and I could see the pain in her eyes.

"Please Peyton I didn't mean to." She said and I just shook my head.

"Please get out Anna." I said and she sighed at me before getting up.

I felt her getting closer making me want to get farther away but I was backed into a wall.

"I'm sorry...I love you" she mumbled as I felt her kiss my forehead before leaving.

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