I'm out with the PLL cast at a bar on a Saturday night. We just wrapped filming for season 5 today.

We're all sitting in a private booth laughing and talking, when I get up to go excuse myself. My fiancé Patrick was supposed to come be with me tonight as we're all also celebrating my birthday. I understand that he's busy with work. His show Suits is almost finished filming for the season. I miss him like crazy though.

I walk over to the bar and sit down on a stool to order a drink. I get my iPhone out of my purse to see if I have any text messages, nothing. Disappointed I put my phone back in my purse. When I look up I see Keegan handsome as ever sitting beside me.

"Hey." I say with a smile. A couple minutes later the bartender gives me my drink. I take a sip.

"I wanted to come see how you were. You seem a bit quiet and lost tonight." Keegan replies looking a bit concerned. Lately when we've been working together, I've started to develop stronger feelings for him. I've tried pushing them away, but they keep coming back. I push them away again. I have a fiancé back in Toronto who I love dearly.

"Patrick...wasn't able to come tonight. He's busy with work." Then I realize I haven't seen Ali tonight. "Where's Ali?"

"She's still in Paris. Modelling ad." Keegan replies looking a little disappointed himself.

"Here let me order you a drink." I tell him trying to make him feel better.

I order Keegan a drink and we talk for a few minutes. When the drink comes he takes a sip.

"You look beautiful tonight." Keegan says. I still have my hair done to play Spencer in the dollhouse. I changed into a slim fitting black dress before I left set.

"Thank you. You're not so bad yourself." I reply with a blush. Keegan is wearing a dress shirt and black dress pants.

I reach into my clutch and grab a $20 bill to pay the bartender and Keegan's hand grazes mine for a second. We lock eyes for a moment and smile at each other.

"There you two are! Come you're missing the fun!" Ian says to us. We turn to look at him and make our way back to the table with him.

"We'll be right there." Keegan replies.

I walk up to him and whisper in his ear. "Thanks for keeping me company tonight." I say to him.

"Anything for you T."

Keegan's POV

The entire night I haven't been able to take my eyes off of Troian sitting across from me.

The way she smiles. Her laugh. How she blushed when looking at me tonight. We've been working together for a while. The thing is I've had feelings for her most of that time. I was too embarrassed and afraid to lose her as a friend if I was honest about them.

As I sit here with everyone I think about what an incredible girl she is. What's wrong with me? She's engaged! I have to let these feelings go. The problem is I don't think I can.

Also I'm not one to cheat on my girlfriend. I don't know what to do.

A little later on...

In the men's bathroom

I'm standing in front of the sink and splashing water onto my face as I look into the mirror. I look at my tear stained face. What is wrong with me?

I hear someone come in. Shit. Some guy is going to think I'm a cry baby. I turn to see Tyler.

"Hey man. Are you alright?"

I back away from the sink and turn to face him.

"Dude. Are those tears?" He asks laughing.

I nod my head.

"Oh something is bothering you for real?" He says to me.

I nod my head again.

"You have to promise you won't say anything. I mean it."

"Yeah. You can trust me."

I take a deep breath.

"I have feelings for Troian. Have for a long time. Lately I feel like I can't let it go. I need to do something about it... I feel like a bad person. She's my best friend who is engaged and I have a girlfriend. Who I love. What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing is wrong with you. You're a good person Keegan. You're not the first guy to be in a relationship and also have feelings for your costar. It's happened before. I think you might want to let the feelings for her go. You said it yourself she's engaged. Tell her that you have feelings for her and you risk losing her as a friend. It's a crappy situation. But..."

"But? What?" I ask.

"I don't think Troian would be mad at you, if you really confessed how you feel. She's a nice person and you two are really close."

Me and Tyler make our way back out to everyone. When we arrive at the private booth where we're all sitting we notice Troian and Lucy aren't sitting there.

Troian's POV

Women's bathroom

I'm sitting in the stall next to Lucy.

"Goose? Do you have a tampon?"

"Yeah. Here you go."

She reaches her hand under the stall and I grab the tampon from her.

"Thank you! You're a life saver!" I say laughing.

When I go to join her at the sink we wash our hands.

"You've been quiet all night. Are you alright?" She asks looking at me with a concerned look.

"I'm fine. Why does everyone keep asking that?"

"Because you look sad and lost." We both turn the sink off and go to dry our hands.

"I miss Patrick... and..."

"And?"

"I can't take my eyes off Keegan tonight." I say blushing.

"He does look handsome." Lucy replies with a smile. For a second I don't say anything and I put my head down.

"Oh do you like him? As in more than a friend?"

"I think I do." I reply in a whisper. "But I don't think he feels the same way. I mean there's always been chemistry. We work well together. I don't know why I'm having these feelings. I have a fiancé. We haven't spent a lot of time together lately but..." My voice trails.

"Keegan's a great guy. You've always been special to him. And I think deep down he's always been special to you. I can understand why you might like him as more than a friend. Especially when Patrick hasn't always been there for you lately. What would you do if he told you how he really felt?"

I look up at her and shrug.

"I wouldn't be mad at him if he told me he had feelings for me. I ignored those feelings for a long time. They haven't gone away. I love Patrick though..."

"Do you regret ingnoring them?"

"No. But I do in a way..."

After I compose myself and Lucy gives me a hug we head out and join our friends again.

I take my seat beside Ashley and Lucy . I hear my phone go off and I open my clutch. I smile when I finally see a text from Patrick.

Miss you so much! Hope you're having a great night! Wish I could be there😆 - P

Love you so much❤️

- T

Two hours later

Keegan was honest about how he felt about me at the party tonight. As I'm driving home I can't get the image out of my head of our kiss. I shake my head frustrated with myself. If Keegan wasn't such a sweet and caring guy, it would be a lot easier to forget kissing hm. It would also be easier to forget how hurt he looked when I told him he would always be a friend. Nothing more.

When I crawl into bed I pull the covers over me and look at a picture I have of us on set fooling around. It makes me smile. For a brief moment I sit up and look through the scrapbook he gave me for my birthday tonight. He probably spent hours on this I think to myself as I look through it.

The next image brings tears to my eyes.

Troian,

The sweetest girl to kiss.

That night I get home and curl up with Dan on the couch. Tonight I confessed to Troian about how I really feel about her. Was it a mistake? No. I don't think it was. I just hope I didn't make myself look like a fool. Troian told me it wouldn't ruin our friendship. I really hope it won't. I grab my phone from my pocket and wonder if I should text her.

I start typing and then decide to delete my message. I think it's probably best if I give her some space for now.

Troian's POV

I put the scrapbook on a chair beside my bed and before I turn out my lamp, I debate calling Keegan to make sure he's alright. We left things on a good note but it probably wasn't easy for him to be honest with me about his feelings and I don't want him feeling guilty or embarrassed. He is my friend and I care about him. I decide against it and feel it might be best to give him some space for a few days. I close my eyes that night and as hard as I try to forget our kiss, I don't think I can. What is wrong with me? I'm in love with my best friend.

When I finally get into bed that night, I can't stop thinking about that kiss with Troian tonight. I think I'm in trouble. I'm in love with my best friend.