I felt very uncomfortable all night. I have to process everything that happened today. Did it really happen? Who knows, maybe I'll wake up soon and I'll be relieved because it was just a dream. But, no, unfortunately, this is the reality, it really happened.

I don't know why I allowed him to do those things. What is wrong with me? I'm probably going to avoid Nate because I feel really ashamed that this happened. Omg, if my mom finds out about this, that would be a real nightmare. I don't know what her reaction would be but I'm sure she will be shocked.

I got out of bed and listened attentively for voices in the house, it was quiet. Was anyone awake yet? I dare not leave my room, afraid to run into Nate. I took a deep breath and decided to go to the kitchen to get some food. As I walked down the hall, I looked at the pictures on the cupboards. I've walked past this place so many times but still want to look at the pictures just to clear my mind of Nate. On 1 of the photos I was together with my mom and my dad who has now left us. Mom looked so happy then compared to now, she's so often depressed and alone now and then, when dad was there, she was happy then. I don't know if I should miss dad, he left us, which really hurts me but he is and will always be my father. I hate Benjamin, my fake father, so much, but if that's what makes my mom happy, then I accept that, what else can I do?

When I almost got to the kitchen, I stopped. There were noises coming from the kitchen and I didn't trust it. When I turned around, the floor creaked beneath me and I stood still. "Liam?" I heard a voice behind me. I knew it was Nate, but still I didn't respond, I stood still, not knowing what to do. "Liam? Is everything okay?" He came closer, I could feel his breathing on my neck. "I - I'm okay." I stuttered. I still didn't dare turn around, making eye contact with Nate would only make me feel worse about the situation. "Are you sure?" he whispered in my ear. This time he was right behind me. "You know you can tell me anything, don't you?"

I looked at him, which costs me a lot of effort. I could feel myself blushing. I nodded and looked back at the ground. "Aww, you're blushing! How cute." He's so sweet, which just melts my heart, but on the other hand I know this is wrong that just makes me want to hit him. "Uhm, whatever, about yesterday, please let's never talk about that and certainly not to Mom." I said ignoring everything he said.

"Oh, uhm, yeah that's good. Didn't you like it?" I shrugged my shoulders. "It was okay, but you're still my stepbrother, and you're so many years older than me." I saw how he searched for words. "I don't think age matters much if you really love someone. I mean, it's just a number?" he said, searching for the right words. "I don't really think the same as you. I'm underage and you're not, the way we think is different. Maybe you should find someone your own age, sorry." He looked hurt, and I understood that, but it's the truth and I can't hide the truth. "Sorry." I said again. I walked to my room and called Max, I needed someone with whom I could vent.

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