Before I could stop Bella, she gets up straight towards the door, grabbing her truck keys and jacket.

"Bella wait!" But that didn't phase her, she then got in and started her truck. I quickly got to the passenger's side and hopped in as well. She pulled out of the driveway and headed towards the rez.

It started to rain as we were close to passing the treaty line, "Bella, what are we doing? Why are we going to Jacob's?"

I looked at her, she had determination in her eyes as she looked at the road, "I need to talk to him. I need to see him." I decided to leave it at that knowing she won't back down if I asked her to.

After a few minutes, we saw the little red cabin house in view. I got this weird but warming feeling inside of me. And as we began to park, someone came out of the house walking towards the forest in the backyard, shirtless only with jean shorts, already soaking wet from the rain.

That's Jacob? He sure has changed. Chopped hair, tribe tattoo, buffed physique. But I guess that's what phasing into a wolf does to you.

Bella parked the truck and immediately got out. I was going to argue and join her but I think they need some time to themselves. I'd interfere if things get out of hand.

"Jake! Hey!" I heard Bella say through the rain. Jacob stopped slowly in his tracks, looking back at Bella as she approached him. His face filled with hurt.

I peeked into his mind and saw that he was hurt that he didn't imprint on her, he's frustrated about the whole thing, and he's a little ticked off on why I was there with Bella.

I mean aside from his big crush on Bella, and his hate towards me and my family and our kind...he doesn't seem that bad...

"You cut your hair up? And got a tattoo?" Jacob slightly glanced at his bicep. Then back at Bella.

"Bella-" Jacob said softly but Bella continued, "I thought you were too sick to come outside, or pick up the phone when I call." she stammered, clearly getting cold from the rain.

Jacob looked down at Bella sternly, "Go away."

"What?"

"Go away." Jacob repeated.

"What happened to you? What's wrong- Hey!" Bella started but Jacob began to turn away, Bella grabbed his arm back to make him stop, now he had an annoyed expression on.

"What happened?...Did Sam get to you? Is that what's happening?" Bella asked, that made Jacob look at her, mad.

"Look, Sam's trying to help me. Don't blame him. If you want somebody to blame, how about those filthy bloodsuckers you love...The Cullens. There's obviously one in your truck." Jacob countered. Oh he did not just insult me and my family.

"I- I don't know what you're talking about-" Bella stuttered, "Oh you know exactly what I'm talking about. You've been lying to everyone, Charlie...But you can't lie to me. Not anymore Bella." Jacob remarked. Just then, the others were calling Jacob over from the edge of the woods.

He looked back at them then back at Bella.

I concentrated on Sam's mind and spoke to him,

I then focused back on Jacob and Bella, "Look Bella, we can't be friends anymore-"

"Look Jake I know that I've been...hurting you- it- its killing me, it kills me. I just need- maybe give me some time or someth-"

"No. I- Its not you." Jacob defended.

"It's not you it's me right...Really?" Bella asked.

"It's true. It is me. I'm not...good. I used to be...a good kid. But not anymore. Look this doesn't even matter alright? This is over." I felt guilt and sadness from Jacob. This was hard for him to do. I felt pain radiating off of Bella.

"You can't break up with me-I mean...I mean you're my best friend. You promised me." Bella finished. I got a flashback from Jacob's thoughts, the night at the theaters with Bella. He promised her that she wouldn't hurt her.

"I know. I promised I wouldn't hurt you Bella, and this is me keeping that promise. So go home, and don't come back. Or you're gonna get hurt." Jacob finished. Leaving Bella frozen at her spot. Jacob started to walk away and Bella finally started walking back over to the truck.

As Bella got in, she started to cry. I immediately got out of the truck, "Stay here."

Look I know I'm still on Sam's orders but, I need to do this. I need to set him straight. Bella's already hurt enough, she doesn't need anymore.

I noticed the others were beginning to descend into the trees, Jacob still crossing the backyard. I used my speed to catch up to him and grabbed his arm to make him turn around, "Hey! You can't just talk to Bella-" I started but once we locked eyes, my world stopped.

I suddenly snapped out of my little trance and looked away from his eyes.

As I looked away, I heard Sam and the others' thoughts:

-Embry

-Jared

-Paul

-Embry

-Sam

I tuned them out. I still looked away from Jacob, trying to depict what just happened.

I could feel Jacob's eyes still glued to me, I finally pulled up the courage to look back at him, his eyes longing and soft, I sighed. This is going to be hard for me to do, but I have to.

"Look, we both know what just happened....And I know this is going to be difficult, but...nothing can happen between us..." I saw his eyes suddenly fill with hurt realizing what I just said, "-not yet to be precise. Not until Bella knows everything and I mean, everything and is hopefully out of this depression phase of hers." There was hope in his eyes when he heard that I said 'not yet' but still, he felt hurt.

"Avalei I-" Jacob started but I interrupted him, "I'm sorry Jacob. We have to focus on our jobs first, to protect humans and to protect Bella. She's been through a lot of pain already, and if we both fall into what we're meant to be now, what will that leave Bella? As much as I've grown to learn that no good ever comes out of any situation when Bella's around, I'd have to cope with it. And besides, you and I both know how you feel about my family and I know what you thought of me when you found out about my secret. You could have changed your thoughts especially what just happened between us, but it doesn't matter right now. I know you want to talk about this, but you have to sort things out with her before anything between us can happen." I explained, feeling hurt as well.

"Wait did you just-"

I knew Jacob wanted to say at least one thing to me but I spoke first, "Goodbye Jacob. And please, take what I said into consideration." As I walked back over to Bella's truck, I felt tears threatening to fall. Good thing my wet hair hid it because they started to fall. I saw Jacob watch us as we pulled away and drove down the road.

Bella and I were in her room, Charlie was down at the station late. I was drawing in my notebook at Bella's desk, Bella laid on her bed, trying to sleep. Ever since our little visit to La Push earlier today, Bella was quiet. I tried to avoid talking about what happened and I myself couldn't stop thinking about what happened. I mean you imprint on your soulmate and then turn him down because you focus on others than for yourself. How can I not think about that?

Minutes went by and it was complete silence. Bella had fallen asleep. I was just finishing up a drawing of Jacob's eyes, and I mean just his eyes. I held it away from me to get a better view. I had made it very precise and so real. It was like I was staring at him like he was really here...

Okay snap out of it Avalei! You can't! At least not yet! He still loves Bella and there's so much more you have to explain to both him and Bella.You can't fall for the imprint trance just yet!

I suddenly felt a warm feeling in me again when something had hit the window. I had shut it earlier for all intents and purposes...What? If Laurent can get to us then what makes it not possible that Victoria can't do the same?

I ignored the sound and feeling until it happened again. That made Bella wake up, her heart started beating fast as she sat up. Since I was closer to the window, I went to it. I used my telekinesis power to open it then peek through it.

There, down below, stood Jacob, still shirtless from before, looking up at me.

I sighed in relief, which made Bella come peek through too, "Jacob, you scared me. What the hell are you doing?"

"Back up, I'm coming up." Was all he said. I knew what he was going to do, hey I've done it a lot except with my powers and vamp abilities.

I pulled Bella aside with me as we waited for him to jump through the window. And he did as predicted. Landing with ease. I felt one corner of my mouth lift a bit, impressed. But hid it immediately.

"Hey" Jacob greeted nonchalantly. Bella and I stood there waiting for him to say something. He looked at me softly then at Bella, "Look Bella I'm sorry-" He came forward but Bella stopped him by putting a fist to his stomach.

Bella sighed, "For what?" Before pushing Jacob a little.

He was here to talk to her, to help her figure things out.

"I'll give you two some time to talk. " I announced to them, I could feel Jacob's eyes following me as I walked to the door. Before I left the room I looked back at Jacob,

Jacob nodded then I left, closing the door.

I went down into the living room, thankful that Charlie wasn't home yet. Since I'm supernatural, I could still hear them upstairs.

"I wish I could explain, but I literally can't" Jacob huffed out.

"Have you ever had a secret, that you couldn't tell anyone? One that wasn't yours to share?" Of course she has, heck I had the same secret and more!

"Well that's what its like for me. But worse. You have no idea how tight I'm bound" You and me both buddy. You and me both.

"I hate this. I hate what they've done to you." Bella said. Then there was a slight pause.

I peeked into Jacob's mind to see what was happening. He was looking down at her bite mark on her wrist. The one from James. I still have mine too. Though, I wear my hair down a lot that it's always covered up.

I felt Jacob tense up a bit, thinking about how vampires are such leeches and everything is their fault. I would be mad at him at that but to be honest, everything did involve a vampire.

"I mean the killer part is that you already know" Jacob exclaimed a little annoyed.

I let a wave of calmness towards him, I heard him breathe in deeply, "Bella, do you remember when we walked on the beach at La Push? The sto- ughhh" I was unsure what he was talking about but thanks to his mind, He was thinking of when he actually told Bella about the tribe secret. That was way before he knew any of it was true so he's safe from Sam.

That's it Jake, give her hints. She'll get it eventually.

"The story. The story about- The Cold ones." I mentally smacked myself on the head. Come on Bella!

"I guess I understand why that's the only part you remember" Jacob said softly, feeling the pain he felt when he found out about Bella loving a vampire.

"There's gotta be something that you can do-"

"No. I'm in it for life."

"Maybe we can just get out of here for awhile. We'll just leave. Just you and me" Leave? And Hey! Where am I in this? Am I invisible?

"You would do that? What about Avalei?" Hmmm at least he remembers me.

"I would do it for you." She said, only answering his first question. Hello! Am I not a part of this? Do they seriously not consider me?

"Its not something I can just runaway from Bella. But I would, run away with you. If I could." Ouch. Okay that one stung.

"I gotta go. The others will start wondering where I am." It was quiet again, I think they were hugging to say goodbye.

"Please try to remember. It'd be so much easier if you knew" Jacob whispered. Yes, it'd be sooooo much easier and less secretive.

"I'll try-Wait, Jake what are you doing? Wait Jake-" I heard a thump outside. He must've jumped out.

Before I went back into Bella's room, I mind spoke to Jake, knowing he was still close,

I saw him stop in his tracks, a little surprised to hear me, "Avalei? This is going to take time to get used to...You heard the whole thing?" he said aloud.

"Look about what I said, I didn't mean-" He started but I stopped him,