After making sure I wasn't hurt for the billionth time, Idris walked me to my car, and I drove straight home. My mind was filled with crazy thoughts and what if's but when I opened the front door everything in my mind stopped.

The living room was lit with beautiful candles that led all the way to the dinning room. Soft music played, and on the table, lay a mouthwatering plate of chicken, rice and asparagus.

"Like it?" Henry came up behind me.

I turned to find him finely dressed in a dark blue suit and gray tie. His hair was styled to the side, and his facial hair was trimmed. He smirked at me with those big plump lips and rose a dark brow as he leaned against the entrance.

I nodded my head, enthralled by him. "What's the occasion?"

Henry's brown eyes lit up, he opened his arms for me. I set my bag down and went to him. He wrapped his arms around me, enveloping me in his rich aroma. He was wearing his good cologne.

"I got the job at Smith LP Inc. Full time, twenty-five dollars an hour. I know that's not much bu—"

 I shut him up with a kiss to his lips. I don't know what came over me, but as I kissed Henry, I felt as if something within me wanted to prove Idris was wrong, and I acted. I wanted to feel the sparks I had felt with Idris vanish by the magic of Henry's lips.

Henry chuckled as I kissed him and to my surprise, he returned it as he wrapped me tighter around him and mashed my lips against his before pulling away. 

"I take it you like the news." Henry smiled.

It took me a moment to respond, to realize that I should say something before Henry thought something was wrong. "I'm so happy for you, Henry. You deserve this!"

"We deserve this." He corrected. "This is all for us."

I smiled at Henry's thoughtfulness. He always said everything he did was with me in thought. However, I couldn't help but think about what this would really mean for us. Henry had already been so occupied as a full-time student and an intern at that company. What would that mean now that he was full time at both?

"Baby what's wrong?" He lifted my chin up. "You're clenching your fists again."

I looked down and sure enough my hands were balled up. Henry knew all my cues when I was upset. Like when I tapped my foot, ground my teeth or balled my hands into fists. All things I didn't notice I did when I was upset except him.

I looked up at Henry and decided to be honest. "What does this mean for us? I feel like we hardly spent time together when you were an intern."

Henry smiled, "Aww baby," he kissed my forehead. "I have weekends off now. Which means I'll actually be able to take you out and spend more time with you." He chuckled.

The thought of that made me smile. Although deep down I knew he'd spent his weekends catching up on homework or completing assignments, at least I'd have a little more of his time. Once we were done with school, we would have all the time.

Henry led us to the table as we enjoyed the delicious meal he had made. As we sat and had dinner and laughed and planned for our future, I couldn't help but feel as though my life were back on track. It was exactly where I wanted to be and where I wanted to head and yet a small part of me kept going back to Idris.

Perhaps if he had found me sooner...

"Alix,"

"Huh?" I looked back up to see Henry putting our dishes away.

"I said what movie do you want to watch?

"Oh," I shook the thoughts of Idris away and instead focused on Henry. This was the man that deserved my attention, my thoughts, and yet...

"You're really distracted tonight. Everything alright?" He stood closer to me, eyeing me carefully.

I stood up and made my way towards the couch. "Just trying to remember when the last time we saw a movie was."

Henry chuckled and joined me on the couch. "It's been a while," he looked ashamed, "maybe we could work on that, starting tonight?"

"Yeah...that sounds nice."

Henry's arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me towards his chest. The screen on the television went momentarily dark as the movie started and I felt Henry's lips by my ear, my heart sped up like it hadn't for a long time.

For a moment I thought he was going to kiss me, but instead he asked me to grab him the bag of chips beside my leg.

As I handed the bag to him, I laid back on his chest and tried to quell the feeling of disappointment I felt anchor in my chest. Afterall, Henry had already kissed me when he'd told me the good news... or rather, I had kissed him, nonetheless, he had reciprocated, and I couldn't help but wonder if he had enjoyed it, if he had wanted to kiss me? Because as I closed my eyes and stroked my lips, as I replayed the way Henry had kissed me, my heart sped and my body hummed...but at the thought of Idris.

I couldn't let this happen...after everything I had been through with Henry, I couldn't.