Lonely. A feeling that I thought I had strangely gotten used to but these days I felt a strong sense of pain in my heart attached with it. A few months had passed and not one call from Minho came. We hadn't had any overlapping schedules so I hadn't seen a trace of him at all in the past few months. I understand that he his no dating contract only ended a few weeks ago and he must be careful which is why I never tried to get in contact with him.

Just as I sit on my bed one day, my phone begins to ring with an unknown number. I pick it up and hear the voice I have been missing for months.

"Jina?" he asks

"yeh" I respond

I hear him laughing on the other side of the phone.

"I was afraid you had forgotten" he says

"Well I think we both know that you aren't that easily forgotten." I say smiling

"Especially after what you did for me the last time we met. I never got to thank you properly."

"Do it now" he says

I begin thanking him and he says "no, no, not like that"

"Come meet me in person" he says "Can you come meet me please?"

I know that meeting him is dangerous and it could put both of our careers at risk but I decide to do it anyways. I've never had the ability to miss anyone and now that I am I want to see him as soon as I can. I put on a black outfit with a hoodie and cover my face with a mask.

(Jina's escape outfit)

I exit my room as secretly and quietly as possible not to wake anyone in the process of sneaking out. It's the first time I'm ever leaving at this time of the night so I want to be sure I'm not caught.

"Jina, where you off too?" asks Hawon in a quiet voice

I turn around as casually as I can and say "Just wanted to take a quick walk to clear my thoughts"

"Let's have a drink together to clear our thoughts" he says "It's been a while since we've talked"

I nod guiltily thinking about Minho. I quickly text him a sorry with a quick excuse and he replies saying it's fine. Before I can say anything else Hawon calls me over and I put my phone in my pocket and walk over to him.

I decided to say yes to Hawon not only because I felt guilty for sneaking out, but also because I will always put my members in front of my own desires. They will always be my first priority. "I won't let my selfishness get in the way" is something I decided when we first came to Korea to work on music here.

"It's been a while since it's been just the two of us" Hawon says as he pours me a drink

"Yeh" I say "We've been pretty busy"

I look up at him as he pours the drinks and begin to reminisce the childhood friendship that spans over many years.