The past few months have been great me and Alex have had the best sex and he even helps with many schemes, mom and dad caught Ryder and got him in jail for "tax fraud" even though it was for rap dad paid them off to put tax fraud instead of rap and since he is a minor the case is sealed, and me and Chloe have narrowed it down 3 people that could have done it. What makes today better is its the Snow Flake Ball today.

"Good morning my wonderful family," I tell them as I take a place at the dining room table. "Ok someone call 911 last time my sister was this happy someone got banished from New York the state not the city." Henry tells my mom and dad. "Don't worry Henry I'm just happy because its the Snow Flake Ball." I tell them. "Do you have a date yet?" my mother asked. "No actually I'm going alone like the powerful women I am." I tell her even. "Good for you hunny not to spoil you whole day of preparing for the ball but you and me need to be at the hotel to look at the basement for sizing for the bar, gambling tables, and stage." my father tells me. "When do we leave?" I ask him. "We need to leave soon." my father tells me. "Ok let me go get my purse then we can go." I tell him as I walk up the stairs.

As I was trying to find a purse that went with the skirt and blouse I had on my phone started to ring.

Maybe I do want to go to him but I can't fall for him. "Kourtnie let's go." my dad yells from down the stairs. "Coming" I yell as I grab my Gucci bag and rush downstairs.

After I got down at the hotel I made my way back to the penthouse. When genius stuck me.

"Your going down Alex Reed." I say before yelling at Dorota to get the hairdresser here. I was in the middle of getting my hair done and Dorota inturrpted me alerting me that I had a phone call since she had my phone. "What do you want I'm very busy right now," I yell into my phone annoyance raising by the minute due to the hairdresser who can't do hair right and currently poking every inch of my scalp. "Oh C what is it." I ask as C was rambling on about something. "C I don't have time to hear about your guy asking you out when you're gay. Just go with him and then tell him sorry you're not interested. Yeah I know I'm the best now bye see you at the ball." I tell her as I hang up the phone. "Ow." I yelp as I give the death stare.

After I get dressed in a beautiful costume royal blue gown made just for me and a scrappy pair of black heels I'm ready to leave for the Snow Ball. Not to mention while I was getting my scalp massacred I found the perfect date for Alex skinny, brunette, blue eyes, and great taste. The only downside is she lives on the Upper West Side.

"Dorota is the car down stairs." I ask as I walk down the stairs. "Yes Miss. Kourtnie and you look very beautiful. I'm sure your Alex Reed will think the same." she tells me. "What do you mean me and Alex are just friends not even friends more like frenemies." I tell her as I get my Chanel Clutch. "Then who was that on phone." she asked. "That was him but we where discussing a scheme for taking a girl down from school that's all," I tell her. "Sure Mrs.Blair and Mr.Chuck was the same way when they where your and Mr. Alex's age." Dorota says. "Dorota I got to go," I tell her before I have to talk about this any longer.

"Hey K. I was wondering when you where going to come," Chloe came up to me with some guy who looked out of place. "Yeah my hairdresser couldn't do hair to save her life my bet is she'll be fired by new year if I have anything to do with it since she murdered my scalp. And who is this," I ask her as I stare down a guy who " looks just as broke as Dan Humphrey before he moved to the Upper East Side. "This is my cousin Brendon Humphrey I would say he's my date but then we realized we are cousins so now where just friends," she said. "Thank god, no offense, but you're not her type," Chloe eyed me once I said that, "she deserves someone from the upper east side." I tell him. "None taken," Brendan or Brandon said. "Ok well I have to go find someone and then I'll be back," I say. "Who," Chloe asked. "Alex. Now if you excuse me I have a game to win." I say as I turn my heels to find the devil in carnage. "Great dress by the way," she tells me. "Thanks." I tell her. "Don't mind her and her twisted ways." I hear Chloe tell Humphrey.

I made a walk through of the whole party to find Alex no where in site. "Ha he gave up because he knew he couldn't beat me." I say. "Now I need to find Clara and tell her Alex's a no show." I say out loud by accident. "Not so fast Bass," I hear the dreaded voice say. "Aww I thought you got to chicken to show your face when I know Clara here can make a perfect date." I say as I drag Clara in front of me. "No way I'm going to win with my date for you Luke." he tells me pulling over a guy who looks almost just like Alex. "Oh god I can't believe this happened again," I sigh in disappointment remembering the story about how my parents did the same thing and it turned out the exact same way. "What are you talking about?" Alex asked me. "Just meet me on the roof. Since I know how this goes Clara and Luke why don't you mingle." I tell the two doppelgängers while pulling the two closer together.

I go through the crowds to the bar and order a martini and make my way to the roof. "Do you want to explain to me," Alex asked me as I opened the door to the roof. "My parents are Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass," I tell him. "Yeah I know but what does this have to do with tonight," he asked me. "Do you not know their story. They didn't admit they had feelings and they played all kinds of games this is one of them and they had the same results with the doppelgängers."I say. "Of course I know the story of your parents and that is why I'm going to do this. We have been sleeping together for 5 months now and you can't tell me you don't have feeling and I know we both love the game but we both now we can make our own games. So, if you don't want me to leave you need to say it." he tells me. "Say what Alex?" I ask him. "What Blair said all those years ago 3 words 8 letters say them and I'm yours and if you don't then what ever is going on here is over." he tells me knowing exactly what he's taking about. "I-I-I," I start badgering on. "That's all I needed to hear bye Kourtnie Bass," Alex says as he turns around and walks out. I didn't even notice I was crying until a salty tear slipped onto my lip. I came crashing down on my knees. I wanted to say it but I couldn't because no one can have my heart ever again. Now I just have to get over him and there's only one way to do it.

Looks like history is repeating itself after all but looks like your the one who couldn't say the words this time. Is it time to go back to your old ways or are you going to take charge and admit how you really feel.

~xoxo, gossip girl