This chapter might be confusing. There will be random flashbacks between conversations I'll put a star * right before the sentences so it will make sense.

——Mikasa pov——

Tragic.

Such a simple word but has depth.

Tragic. Your love life maybe?

Tragic. Tragic car crash?

Tragic. Oh, it's tragic that your dad left.

Yeah, I've heard that line multiple times all from people I didn't know or care enough to know.

You have such a Tragic personality, Mikasa.

I've been called a lot of things, Bitch, whore, Slut and crazy. I don't care for it though because it's just words but my favourite thing I've been called is crazy.

Name one genius that isn't crazy.

I'll wait.

I remember I got into a fight with this girl-I didn't care enough to know her name- The moral of the story is that I won. She did pull my hair and bitch slap me but that's beside the point.

The point was she fought me because she was insecure. She fought me and gave me a bloody nose because I excelled at everything and she didn't.

Insecure is such a deep feeling. Most popular people are insecure they just don't show it because everyone puts them on a higher podium.

Bullies are insecure that's a fact they put people down to feel better about themselves.

I got bullied for my scar.

Scars have two different meanings, a scar on your body that you got from popping a pimple or falling off your board or a scar you get emotionally.

It's always there, always in the back of your mind you never really stop thinking about it.

Especially when someone close to you brings it up.

I don't hold it against Eren that he brought up my dad when he was mad.

Damn you should have seen me after I left his house. It was bad. I was crying I couldn't breathe I couldn't stop shaking hell I didn't come out of my room until the last box was packed and we were on the road.

Moving city's was hard and making new friends was already hard enough seeing that I thought everyone hated me and thought I was boring.

Eren fucked with my head. He didn't mean to but still.

He said those things to hurt me and he succeeded

After grade 10 I started talking more and finally made a friend. His name was Mark. He was a mix of Ymir and Connie. He was hilarious.

Mark and I became friends during the summer of grade 10 and he introduced me to Grayson.

And then Luke and I started dating but that was nothing, only lasted for a month I don't know why he bothered to even tell Eren about it. We still stayed close friends after the breakup.

Mark hated luke. They got into a fight one time. It was hilarious.

At the beginning of grade 12, I got the news that my dad died.

He got into a car crash apparently. He was drunk and swerved into a pole.

Levi and I went to his funeral.

We showed no emotion during the reception, no tears, no frown, no smile. Nothing. We were walking corpses.

Especially when he had a son that was crying in the Front with his mom.

Yeah.

We have a half-sibling we didn't know existed.

We didn't keep in touch with him and he didn't bother with us.

My dad died on November 1st.

It's a Tragic life.

But it's my life.

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November 1st

7:30 Am

1st period- Hanjis class.

Walking towards my desk I smiled a little seeing the cup of coffee on it "Hey Mika" Eren said with a small smile

"Thank you," I said while dropping my bag to the floor and taking a sip of the black coffee. Amazing.

Putting the coffee back down I rested my forehead on the desk and shut my eyes trying to get any sleep that I could before Hanji came in yelling.

"Why do you look like you didn't sleep?" Eren questioned from beside me

"I did sleep" I shortly said "I just didn't sleep enough"

Sleep enough I mean I didn't sleep at all because I woke up in a pool of sweat after dreaming about my Fathers funeral and the only sound was a woman weeping.

Eren nodded and turned his attention to the front once Hanji- that's not hanji

"Hello!" A new teacher came in "I'm the sub my name is Miss Jankers but call me Miss j"

*"your father passed away last night," The doctor said on the other line of the call*

No. That's her.

"I'll be doing attendance now so just say here!"

Fuck. Wait.

"Mikasa Ackerman?!" She yelled but I didn't respond.

"Mika" Eren whispered from beside me but I was frozen in place.

She looked up from her list and said the name again "Mikasa Ackerman...." She trailed off a look of realization hitting her.

I got up from my seat quickly and grabbed my bag, Leaving the coffee Eren got me on accident.

I left the classroom without speaking another word to the sub.

Shutting the door hard behind me I started walking through the empty hallway trying to get away from the classroom.

"Mikasa!" A woman shouted from behind me, I didn't bother turning around because I already knew who it was "Mikasa stop please"

* she shook hands with Levi and I "I'm your- I was your father's fiancé" she said while smoothing out wrinkles in her funeral dress*

Stopping in my tracks I glanced over my shoulder "Yeah?"

"Can we talk?" The sub asked which I shook my head 'no' in response.

"Uh I have to go," I said while pointing at the doors that lead to outside "I'll catch you around"

Walking faster than before, my hand hovered above the door handle and I was fully prepared to leave until she shouted again.

"He said he was sorry!" She yelled, desperate.

* walking around the weirdly quiet house I saw Levi sitting on the couch with his head in his hands "Levi? Wheres, dad?" I questioned *

I glanced over my shoulder yet again "what?" I questioned

"Your dad" she paused, "He said he was sorry for leaving you and Liam"

* Levi looked up at me and stood up "He left Mikasa. He ran off with some woman from his work" he sneered but there was sadness in his grey eyes *

"Levi" I corrected with I glare "I don't care if I'm going, to be honest. You don't know me you are simply the mother of my half-sibling and his ex-girlfriend"

"Fiancé"

* the priest stood in front of the church "We are gathered here to pay our respects to Mr

Ackerman" He said while looking over the room filled with quiet sobs *

"Whatever"

She brought a hand to her temple and looked back towards the classroom she completely abandoned "can we meet? For coffee?"

* Levi and I wanted to meet up with his fiancé to talk about what happened but she wasn't too friendly at the time "No. I don't think it would be best if we met up after the funeral" she said while picking up her weeping son from the chair. *

I shook my head 'no' once again "Have a good life" I gave her a sad smile before turning and walking out of the building leaving her to return to the class.

Stepping into the cold breeze I wrapped my arms around myself trying to get any type of warmth.

Did she really have to run out of the classroom and chase after me?

"Mikasa!" A voice called from behind me but I didn't bother turning around and quickened my pace "Mikasa slow the fuck down" Eren yelled while jogging up to me

"Hey," he said softly while pulling at my sleeve "why did you leave?"

I side glanced at him "Why did you?" I avoided the question making him raise his eyebrows "How did you even manage to leave?"

"I asked to go to the washroom" he shrugged while falling in step with me.

I nodded and stayed quiet while focusing on the sidewalks careful not to step on the cracks. Heh, it's funny cause I have no mom.

* "hey Eren," I said while walking into his house and following him up to his bedroom. I wanted to tell him I was moving. I know I shouldn't have waited so long. "*

"So why did you leave?" He asked again after fibres of minutes of silence.

* he started laughing historically thinking that me moving was a stupid prank I was playing on him "You are so funny, Mikasa!" He said sarcastically but his smirk dropped after he saw the deadpanned look on my face"*

" because I needed too" I simply said not giving him any more detail. To be honest I don't think I told him my dad died

"Why?" He pressed on

* "why the fuck are you leaving!" He yelled clearly angry making me flinch a little *

"Why so many questions" I snapped

He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows and stopped walking making me stop and turn to him. Fuck I didn't mean to snap but why the hell is he so hell-bent on knowing.

"Sorry" I mumbled while looking down at the ant crossing the sidewalk "I'm just tired"

He nodded and stared at my eyes, occasionally switching to the left then to the right, looking downright unconvinced that I was just 'tired'

"Are you sure?" He pressed on.

* pacing the room back and forth and running a hand through his short brown hair he stopped mid-pace and glared at me his brown eyes flashing with anger and betrayal "You sure you're leaving?" He seethed out" *

I looked up at the clear sky and dragged a hand over my face, tired of all the questions "I'm fine Eren" I breathed out.

He nodded repeatedly while running-trying-to runs his hands through his hair but stopped short at the hair tie "Let's go" He grabbed my wrist lightly and started pulling me down the sidewalk which I didn't have enough fight in me to argue with him.

"Where are we going?"

He shot me a smile and took out his car keys from his pocket "Hannes restaurant"

Hannes? Hannes is such a good fellow he would give Eren and me free food whenever we came to his diner, turning 15 I started working there with Reiner sure we would piss Hannes off to no end but it was fucking funny. We still did our work- well I did- Reiner flirted with every blonde that stepped through the door.

"Hannes restaurant?" I breathed out while wrapping my hand around the cold door handle, standing and waiting for Eren to Unlock the car which he was fumbling with the car keys "Any day now" I sarcastically said while giving him a lazy grin which he playfully glared in return.

Rolling his eyes he unlocked the car and opened the door, sliding in and buckling my seatbelt I turned my gaze towards Eren who was starting at the dashboard like it killed his puppy "You good?"

Glancing at me he smiled and nodded while he turned on the car "Of course" He gave me a tight-lipped smile "are you good?"

* "Are you out of your damn mind?!" Eren spat, every word sounding like poison which was ripping through My heart and leaving black tar in replace of it, grabbing my phone from the desk I gave him a pointed look "Stop fucking yelling" " *

Giving Eren a tight-lipped smile back I nodded and turned my gaze to the window watching the trees slowly go past us faster and faster before they became a blur that I couldn't keep up with.

Why does she want to talk to me now? Levi and I tried to talk to her after but she was too sad to even think about talking to the children of her dead fiancé.

I'm surprised she remembered me. But then again it was only a couple of years ago the last time she saw me and she was about to be An Ackerman after marrying my dad.

There are only a few names with Ackerman in it and unfortunately, I got my father's last name not that I was complaining it was a badass last name and it held power.

Shifting in my seat I looked over to the brunette who was focused on the road- looked like he was- his eyes were glazed over and if he was in some kind of daydream.

Taking advantage of his autopilot state my eyes danced around his features from the slight wrinkles on the side of his mouth from laughing loudly to the very faint freckles that adorned his nose. My hands itched to move the baby hair they fell from his bun so I could fully see his face. The hun itself was about to fall out but still made him look hot.

Turning his head slightly at me he grinned "Done starring?" He teased

Rolling my eyes I stuck out my tongue at him "you should be grateful" I scoffed and turned my gaze to the front

He chucked deeply "Grateful for?" He dragged on clearly playing around from the slight smirk plastered on his face "You starring at me creepily?"

"No" I crossed my arms and side glanced at him "Grateful that I would even take the time to look at you" I brought up my finger and started to bite my nails

"Oh really?"

Taking my finger out I peered at my cuticles and started to pick at them "frankly you should just be over the moon to have me looking at you" I grinned after he scoffed

bringing up his hand up he dramatically flicked his hair over his shoulder even though there was no hair "So I'm attractive" He side glanced

"You're not ugly"

"So I'm hot?"

Rolling my eyes I bite the side of my cheek to stop me from smiling "No I think you're adorable"

"Adorable?" He questioned

"Yeah!" I said excitedly "Like a cute little puppy" I turned my voice like I was swooning at a baby

He blushed while scoffing " I hate you Kasa"

I flicked his nose while he pulled up In front of the small diner "you love me" I grinned before opening the door and stepping out.

We walked side by side to the front door which Eren held for me, mumbling a thank you to him he smiled back at me and we walked in "Hey guys!" A chirpy blonde said from the front while taking her legs off the table "table for two?" She asked while grabbing menus

Eren and I nodded while following her to a table "Is Hannes here?" Eren asked while sitting across from me in the booth while I took off my jacket

"I think so," she said while grabbing a notepad and pen "what can I get you guys for drinks?" She asked while looking between Eren and I

I looked over at Eren who was already looking at me to order "Uh just a water please Hitch" I smiled which she nodded and wrote down and turned her attention to Eren

Eren took out his bun and rolled the ponytail with a flower down his wrist "Water Please" He smiled at her which she copied and wrote down on the notepad

"Great! I'll have that out in a minute" her chirpy voice said while walking away as disappearing into the back where all the other workers

I leaned over the table slightly which Eren did in return "is it just me" I pointed at myself "of is she nicer" I pointed at the door she disappeared in

Eren smiled while nodding "Definitely is" he glanced at the door "It's weird" which I nodded in agreement

Hitch has always been...A special lad. But she was never actually rude. She was just annoying to the point none of us wanted to be around her.

"Ackerman! Yeager!" A voice boomed throughout the empty diner causing me to turn around in a flash

I smiled deeply while looking at the ageing man "Hannes" I stood up with Eren and we walked towards him.

Giving him a quick hug and backing up so Eren could do the same he smiled at us "Ackerman! I haven't seen you in years" he put a dramatic drag on 'years'

"It's good to see you," I said while going up and giving him a side hug "How the kids?" I teased

Rolling his eyes he pushed me away "They are good"

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November 2

Lunch 3:30

"No"

"Why not Mikasa?" He pressed on

Rubbing my temple I glared "Because I don't want to Eren" I spat while looking away.

Why the hell did he even want me to go to class today? Hanji isn't here and the stupid sub is there. I know he doesn't any me to fail class and shit but we aren't so shit in class and going would just cause a whole lot of headaches. All I see while looking at that woman is the sad weeping fiancé.

"Mikasa please"

* "Mikasa please don't leave" His head was hung low and his hands formed fists by his side" *

Grabbing my stuff and putting it into my bed I glanced at Eren "No Eren I'll go next time" standing up I have him a small smile "I'll see you around"

"But-"

I turned around and glanced over my shoulder at him "Drop it"

And that was the end of the conversation.

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4:50

"Come in!" I yelled from my desk.

The dorm door opened and shut a man bun walking around my room "Here" he said while dropping papers on my desk which I gave him a questioning look at him

"The stuff you missed in class" he mumbled while flopping onto my bed

I nodded in response and mumbled a 'thanks' before going back to my homework.

"Why didn't you go to class?" He questioned while putting his arms behind his head and closing his eyes "The sub was looking for you"

Of course, she was.

Turning a page in the textbook I mumbled "I already told you" and glanced up at him before looking back down

"No," he says up and peered at me, "You said there was no point"

"Drop it Eren"

"Mikasa what's wrong," he said while getting up and walking over to me.

* "being your friend was the worst fucking decision I've ever made!!" He yelled angry at everything, me, Levi, fucking child services" *

Dropping the pencil from my hand "Nothing please drop it" bringing up my hands to massage my forehead because all this talk was making me have a headache

* "leave! You should be good at it!!" He yelled louder this time my heart felt a pang of hurt *

What the fuck are these flashbacks? I really don't need them right now they are just fucking with my head.

"You haven't slept in days" he leaned down and grabbed my chin so he could focus on the dark circles "It looks like you got into a fight and came out with two black eyes"

Rolling my eyes I swatted his hands away "Can you fuck off?" I scoffed while closing my textbook and standing up "Stop being so nosy Eren"

"Stop acting so bitchy" He glared while backing up and crossing his arms "what the fuck is wrong with you?"

Grabbing my car keys from my bedside table I stood straight and looked at him with an emotional face "Nothing"

* "No! Say it Eren! Finish your fucking sentence!" *

Trying to get out of the dorm Eren blocked my way out "Why are you leaving?" He asked while sidestepping me again

Looking up at the ceiling and taking a deep breath in trying to control my emotions I looked back at him "I'm going out"

"Don't leave"

* "leave! Leave as your fucking dad did!" He yelled while shoving his hand through his hair and pacing around the room. Right before I slapped him" *

"I can't stay here!" I yelled now losing control "I have to get out of this fucking dorm! I need to leave this fucking campus Eren!"

I need to leave I know it's not a big deal but I feel like I'm fucking suffocating right now and being anywhere near that woman is making me lose my mind.