"THEN GET LOST!....then get lost.....then.....get......lost."

Eren had made his way home and he headed strait to the freezer her took out a tub of cookies and cream Ice cream to drown his sorrows in, his anger at Jean had almost completely dissipated only to be replaced by that one line, haunting him with every breath he took. "I was planning on leaving anyway but I never expected to hear those words or for them to hurt so much." Eren was a walking mess of tears, snot and Ice cream. "Dam it an entire tub isn't near enough I need something stronger." Eren then walks over to his alcohol cabinet with a sad grin on his face, "a little under aged drinking won't hurt."

Around 10am Mikasa woke up to the sound of heavy rain with a splitting head ache after last nights party, she also had a weird a sense of loneliness.

"Dam it I knew I drank too much and why do I feel this way, why should I feel lonely. I have a boyfriend who loves me and the best friends any girl could ask for. Oh.....shit, Eren." Tears started to well up in Mikasa eyes as she recollected what she said the night before, "I need to see him now."

Hearing foot steps close by Jean woke from his slumber and realised that Marco somehow managed to be sleeping on top of him in nothing but his underwear, "ahhh that was one hectic night.... wait wtf us Marco doing ehhh get off shit face." Jean then pushed Marco off of him, only realising that they were on the top bunk when it was too late, "how is he still asleepafter that."

Mikasa then realised Jean was up and gave him a small wave.

"Mikasa, going out?"

"Yeah, I need to see Eren."

"Ahh really why not leave him be he doesn't deserve you in his life."

"He's my oldest friend I can't say stuff like that and not try make it better."

"Don't go!"

"I'm going Jean and you can't stop me." Mikasa replied her tone progressively becoming more annoyed.

"I SAID DON'T GO DAM IT!"

"Jean fuck off...ahh...im gonna let that slide coz I know how hung over you are now but I'm going to see him."

"Fine then go see the little fuckstick."

Mikasa walked out of her flat carefully trying hard not to step on anyone. As she got out she took her phone out and called Armin.

"Hey Mikasa wadaya want?"

"Have you talked to Eren since last night?"

"N.nnn.nope"

"What do you know, spill it." Mikasa asked in an almost threating voice.

"Well I haven't talked to him but I am at his place and there is something you should see here."

"Alright I'll be there in 20."

"Cool, see you then."

Mikasa took a deep breath as she stood outside Erens place, then her hand tightened on the door knob as she entered the house.

"Oh hey Mikasa come to see Eren?"

"How'd you know Reiner and why are you here I didn't see your car?"

"Well I know because reasons and I'm here because I came with Armin."

"Alright then, where are they?"

"Well Armins in the kitchen, wanna go see him."

"Sure"

As Armin saw Mikasa he went over and gave her a friendly hug.

"So did you hear about what I said to Eren last night?" Mikasa asks as see looks at her feet.

"Yeah I heard it from Connie"

"And what do you think?"

"Well.... honestly that was preety shitty of you Mikasa, not even second guessing that Eren, who is your oldest friend for crying out loud, might be telling the truth."

"I know, I was just already pissed at him for ignoring me, I know I hurt him, I know he and Jean dont always see eye to eye either, I just couldn't really fathom anyone saying those things about Carla and Grisha so I automatically didn't beleive them." The tears were now flowing down Mikasa face.

"Eren and Jean not always seeing eye to eye is a laugh, but reminiscing on what was and what should have been said won't get us anywhere, Armin show Mikasa the envelope." Reiner interjected sternly.

"The what?"

"Here Mikasa just read it then you'll understand."

Mikasa then took the envelope, her supple hands shaking fearing the worst.

It read, "Hey everyone Eren here, I've decided that I need to get out and find a new meaning to life. It just hurts too much to stay around and I don't want to upset anyone's happiness to I've decided it was best to leave. I don't know how long I will be gone for I may never return. Don't bother finding me I've made sure you can't follow. I'll miss 90% of you the 10% who I wont miss know who you are. As far as my belongings go I've done all the necessary paper work all you need to do is sign it. The things I'm giving to you guys are yours to do with as you wish. Connie you get my prized video game collection and my PS3. Sasha you get the key to my emergency food cellar, any food left in my house and my PS4 (don't get jealous Connie), Bert you can get all of the tool in my shed I know how you love making thing's, Annie honestly I don't knkw what to leave you so take my punching bag and anything else you find interesting, Marco you get my massive amp and can choose any two of my guitars execpt for my favourite one that baby's with me, Reiner you get the 80 series Armin and Mikasa you two both already have keys so you two each own 50% of the house as well as any of its belongings that haven't been given away. Also I've sold any assets left over in my parent name wgich just consisted of land and housing units. So with the money off that Armin im paying for medical school and Mikasa there is an account with $25,000 in it for you. Also Reiner next time you see horse face punch him in the face for me, it feels really good.

"Mikasa are you alright?"

"Yeah I just need to be alone for a bit", Mikasa then ran out the front door and into the rain. She keep on running aimlessly untill she found herself at their speical spot. Their special spot was singular tree in a meadow of flowers that was rarely visited by people. They had so may memories there, most of them now turing into bittersweet ones. As Mikasa sat there time seemed not to pass, the only thing that was real was the regret, the loneliness, the pain and betrayal she felt. She soon started punching the ground, digging her long nails into the dirt while screaming into nothing and to no one, knowing that Eren will never hear her. She wonders when she will see those emerald eye's again, will she ever again see the stupid grin he made when he was teasing her.

"When will I see hear your laugh, or you voice, will I ever hear you sing again. Will I ever be able to hug you again. Why Eren WHY, WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME. YOU SAID YOU WOULD WRAP THIS SCARF AROUND ME AS MANY TIMES AS I WANTED,

Armin walked up besides his grieving friend, umbrella in had. It hurt him to see her in this much pain but he knew she needed this, howerver if she stayed out in the rain any longer she would get sick.

"Mikasa it's time to go, you'll get sick out here. Come back and take a shower, come on now I'll stay with you all you need and you can cry as much as you want." Armin said and he enveloped his friend and tender embrace.

Mikasa nodded and tried in vain to wipe away her tears. She finally got up and feebly gripped onto Armins sleeve like a child holding onto their mothers skirt as they headed to Armins car.

Two weeks went by where Mikasa didn't talk to anyone but Armin and Sasha. She locked herself up in Erens room as it smelled of him (Eren smells of Mangoes according to me), she played his guitars, sleept in is bed and cried herself to sleep while cuddling and crying into his clothes. After another week of this Armin finally convinced her to come out of Erens room.

The two spent the next few months almost attached at the hips as they tried to aclimatise to life without their best friend.