"She's so beautiful." I hear Blake's soft voice say as we both stare down at our little girl that rests in her arms. She's so small it makes my heart ache, but watching her flutter her eyes open has to be my favorite thing.

Eyes identical to her mother's, stare back up at me. Long lashes, a button nose, and full small lips stare back at me.

As I move to place my finger inside of hers I watch her face turn purple once again as her eyes shut.

"Someone help!" I scream as I watch the air leave her tiny body. As I look up no one is in sight.

"Someone help us, our daughter isn't breathing!" I scream as tears rush down my face.

"Y/N."

"Please, please!" I scream as I feel my heart feel like it's getting squeezed within my chest.

"Y/N!"

I scream as I shut my eyes before opening them again.

I'm in my bedroom, it's completely dark beside my bedside lamp that's turned on. My mom sits on the side of my bed as my dad stands behind her.

Tears are rushing down my moms face and my dad looks like he's ready to burst into tears.

"It was only a dream." I say with a relieved sigh and I watch my mom take a shaky breath as she looks at her lap. Her eyes slowly meet mine and I feel that pain, it's excruciating, it's consuming. I look past her and up at my dad who has finally let the tears leave his eyes.

"No!" I yell as I push my mother's hands away.

"It was just a dream!" I plead with them as the tears fill my eyes. They run down my cheeks as I stand up from my bed.

"It was a dream, please!" I beg as I begin to sob uncontrollably. My dad rushes around the bed and catches me as I fall to my knees. He falls with me as his big strong arms wrap around my body.

"She can't be..she just can't." I sob into his chest and I hear him sniffling as one of his large hands cups the back of my head.

I hear my mother begin to cry as she moves around the bed towards us.

"Why?" I cry even harder and I continue to sob into my dad's chest until the darkness takes over.

Each day that passes by only seems like a blur. And each day only seems like a test to me.

The summer has been and gone. It's time for everyone to go off to college.

My friends have been by my side this whole summer. I don't think there was a single day that I was able to be by myself. If I was home alone someone was always with me.

I lost my daughter and I've come to terms that there was nothing I could have done about it. There was nothing I could have done to save her.

But it doesn't make it hurt any less. That day was supposed to be the best day of my life. But it quickly turned into the worst.

"Y/N, you sure you don't want to come check out our dorms with us?" Colton says as he looks at me with worried eyes.

I look at each of my friends and every single one of them have sympathetic gazes along with worried eyes.

"Nah, I'm good. I have to get started at the shop with my Dad."

"Y/N.." Dylan starts but stops as my eyes meet his.

"I'm gonna miss you." He says and he steps forward, wrapping me up in a hug. I hug my best friend back and soon enough each of my friends give me goodbye hug.

I watch Colton and Thomas climb into the same SUV and they wave at us as they drive off. Dylan moves to get into his Jeep and leaves Cara and myself.

"Are you going to go and see her?" Cara asks and I sigh while shrugging my shoulders.

"She doesn't want to see me Car."

"I think you should go. I really do." She softly says as she pulls me into a hug.

"Take care of yourself." She says as she pulls back and I nod my head as I watch her climb into Dylan's Jeep with him.

They give me one last look and a wave before heading down the road.

I find myself standing on my front drive with my hands stuffed inside my pockets.

Should I go see her? Should I say goodbye?

Our last conversation didn't end well. It really never got anywhere either.

I run my hand through my longer hair as I decide to just do it.

I climb inside my car and find myself taking off down the road and towards a familiar house.

As I pull in I notice a group of four girls and I frown instantly as I step out of the car.

All of their eyes land on me and once again sympathetic eyes stare back at me. I stuff my hands inside my pockets as I move towards the girls I once called really good friends.

Once I'm in reaching distance I'm wrapped up into a hug by Alexis.

No words are spoken and I eventually hug her back. When she pulls away she gives me a sad smile.

"Is she here?" I ask and they all look at me with confused eyes.

"You didn't know?" Aspen asks with shock written all over her face as she looks at her other friends before meeting my confused face.

I'm pulled into a hug by Aspen, then Jordana. They both wish me well and Alexis joins them in a car. They drive away leaving Megan and myself.

She gives me the most sympathetic look I've ever seen her give anyone. She pulls me into a hug before leading me to her bench on her front porch.

I take a seat next to her and she leans towards me, giving me her full attention.

"She left for Yale two days ago." Megan says and I swallow harshly as my eyes look down at my lap.

"Her dad pulled strings for her so she could still attend Yale."

"Oh."

"Y/N.."

"No, it's okay. You're her best friend, I understand you have her back." I say as I stand up quickly as I make my way down her sidewalk.

"Y/N you're my friend too, I care about you!" She yells as she rushes to catch up with me.

"You both are hurting right now and I wish there was something I could do to fix this all. But I can't." She says as tears leave her eyes.

"You being there for Blake is enough. It's enough for us both." I softly say as I look at the girl sadly.

"Can you do two things for me?" I ask the green eyed girl who nods her head yes as she wipes at her eyes.

"Don't break my best friend's heart." I say making the girl slightly smile.

"And take care of Blake. Call her everyday, make her talk to you. Make sure she falls in love again. Her heart is so special and the world deserves to see it, someone deserves to experience it."

Tears quickly leave her eyes once again as she nods her head and she wraps her arms around my neck. I hug Megan back until I pull away to climb inside my car.

I take off down the road as I feel all the heartbreak, heartache, and sadness eat away at me.

"I'm gonna be okay." I whisper to myself as I continue to drive.

"Faster!" I hear Coach yell and I run down the court dribbling the ball in my hand. I pull up for a jumper and it swishes through the net.

"Good work Y/LN. I think this is your fastest time yet."

"Thanks Coach."

"Go grab your things and meet me in my office." He says and I nod my head.

I head into the locker room and grab my bag. I change my shoes and pull on a sweatshirt before walking into his office.

And my eyes widen at the person sitting beside him.

"Y/N, meet Geno Auriemma." Coach says and I blink my eyes to make sure I'm not dreaming.

"It's great to finally meet you Y/N." Geno says with a genuine smile as he extends his hand. I grab it within mine and I shake it.

I'm not fucking dreaming.

"Geno here has been watching you work out with me all day." Coach says and I look to Geno who nods his head with a bright smile.

"I have to say, I'm really impressed. Especially with the odds you were given after having your surgery."

"Thank you." I say as I still look between the two.

"How would you like to become a Huskie?"

"I would love to, but I can't afford school without a scholarship. And I don't have any scholarships." I say sadly as I run my hand through my short hair.

"I have a full ride, right here." He says as he pulls the folder off of Coach's desk.

I swallow harshly as I stare at the two in bewilderment.

"So what do you say Y/N? Do you want to help lead this team to a NCAA championship?"

"I.." my mind immediately goes to my parents and it's like right on cue they appear from the doorway.

My eyes meet my parents and I can see the hope and happiness shine in their eyes. My mother nods her head yes and my dad has a bright smile on his face.

"Yes." I say as I look at both of my Coach's now.

"I'll be a Huskie and I'll help lead this team to another title."

I've been settled into my dorm since the day I signed my letter of commitment. Coach Auriemma wanted me at the school immediately so I could learn all of the plays and get to know my teammates.

My teammates accepted me with open arms and I've been busting my ass everyday. I've shown my worth to Coach Auriemma and my teammates.

Our first game of the season is tonight and as a Freshmen I'll be starting at shooting guard. My friends are all so happy for me. But I could hear the worry also laced within their voice.

49 miles.

That's the amount of distance that separates us. I really wish things with us would have worked out. I wish that losing our daughter didn't cause us to lose each other in the process. But I understand why she pushed me away, and I can't hate her. No matter what, I'll always love her.

As I stand here in this locker room and pull my jersey over my fitted Nike sleeveless shirt I can't help but look at my arm that now contains a sleeve of tattoos.

The most important one rests on my bicep. A detailed image of a pocket watch with the time she was born rests on my arm along with her footprint. Around it all is what looks like a sky full of stars along with a full moon.

Her name rests in the sky surrounded by all the stars. I know my daughter is looking down on me. I know she's now an angel in the sky.

Every night that I look at the sky full of stars I can only imagine her being one of those bright stars. It gives me hope and has helped me get through the days where I didn't want to be alive.

Through it all, I've learned to take advantage of every opportunity, to love harder, and to be grateful.

Mya Hope Y/LN

Forever my baby girl.