Their lips finally met. Sanskar softly kissed her keeping it slow. He sucks her lips slowly ruffling her hair and move his hand on her waist turning the soft kiss into a deep and passionate kiss. Swara who was melting each and every second, started responding slowly. She gripped his shirt in her tight fist. They were lost in kiss.

After few min, Sanskar broke the kiss slowly parted their lips. Their breathe were uneven. He opened his eyes and look at Swara, who was still closing her eyes. She slowly opened her eyes.

Swara opened her eyes and looked at him. All of the sudden reality stuck her.What just happened? Her face which was till now calm started getting tensed. Sanskar also realized what he just did. His hold around waist loosen. Swara loosen her tight fist on his collar and she just turned around swiftly jerking his other hand which was still on her face.

Looking away from him, she was shocked will be understatement because she also didn't know what she was feeling. She couldn't gain the courage to turned back and look into his eyes.

Sanskar look at her. Facing her back, he was also going through same situation. An unknown feeling and confusion. He wanted to say something but don't know what? So, he just walked towards car passing by Swara. He stop for a second and say.

Sanskar: Let's go swara

Saying this he walk to car.

Swara who was all lost, nods and just walk behind him. But her eyes were down and mind was lost somewhere else. They sat in the car. Sanskar started the car.

Swara was looking outside through the glass window and continuously thinking about their first kiss. Her body was totally wet and her saree was stick to her body. The water droplets were falling from her hair to soft skin of her neck. Her face was too having few water droplets. Her breath was still heavy. She was looking so tempting.

Suddenly, she felt a heated gaze on her and she was well aware who it was. Firstly, there was no one else other than both of them and secondly only he has the power to make her shiver just with his eyes.

Sanskar who was driving the car looking straight, felt a sudden urge to look at her. His mind was continuously stopping him but his heart was forcing him to see her and finally he shift his eyes from road to her defeated by his heart just to see her tempting and desirous look. Swara who was nervous with his gaze, clutched her saree and started fidgeting her fingers. Sanskar easily sensed her nervousness. He looked straight and stopped the car as they reached mm.

Swara instantly opened the door and rushed inside without giving a single look to Sanskar. Sanskar sees her going. He sighed and also come out of the car and move inside.

Swara goes to her room and rushed to washroom taking her clothes to change herself. She closed the door and took a deep breathe like she was holding it since long squeezing her eyes shut. A couple of minutes later, She opened her eyes and look at herself in the mirror. Unknowingly a blushed crept on her cheeks. Her mind replayed that moment, the kiss again. Their lips met, her lips touched with his lips, that sudden effect, that shiver. She touched her lips to realize that it wasn't a dream. It was really special as it was her first kiss. She thinks about the moment. The way he kissed her neck pulling her closer to him, kissing her eyes, caressing her face and finally their kiss. She blushed profusely to think how she melt with his touch nd gave up into kiss.

Her mind diverted toward about her condition what she was going through in car, with his heated gaze. She bite her lips shyly and smiled to herself.

Lowering her eyes she was still thinking, was it a dream? Because she still can't believe it. But suddenly her smile faded thinking something. A fear that started breaking her. A fear of what if this was mistake, Mistake was it?" It was not her who took the first step but she didn't stop also. She responded it equally. But was it true? Is kissing your love is a mistake? Responding to his touch is mistake? No it can't be! It can't be mistake for her but for Sanskar?? What does he thinks? What does all that means to him? a mistake or something else? She close her eyes as she felt pain to think all these.

Sanskar entered the room all lost. He sees the washroom door closed and understood that Swara was inside. He went to balcony and closed his eyes thinking everything. He was getting flashes of thst moment. He ran his fingers through his hairs getting frustrated.

Sanskar (talk to himself): How can I do it? How could I ?? I can't just loose control over myself. What she might be thinking right now? I just don't know why I always get attracted toward Swara. Why I just get pulled toward her when I know that I love Kavita? I know whatever she did was not forgivable but still when Swara has forgiven her then I also forgiven her. Even though Kavita did wrong, I can't deny the fact that I loved her. And I still love her. May be she is not with me now but I can't betray her. Then how can I get so close to Swara? She is just like my friend, my best friend. I can't feel more that that. Swara thinks me as her friend and whatever I did was wrong. She must be feeling bad. It was a MISTAKE. I shouldn't have done that!!

Sanskar talk to himself unknown of the fact that someone had heard it and his words were stabbing her heart that was already broken few times. She was trying to mend it everytime but this time she was shattered once again. Yes, Swara had heard him as she came out of washroom. Sanskar being unaware of the fact blurt out everything in frustration.

She was shattered. Her dreams are shattered once again which is natural. What will you feel when the one whom you loved immensely and unconditionally, approach you and kiss you and later he regret it and call it a MISTAKE. Mistake !!! Really? Was it really a mistake for him? It meant nothing to him? He was regretting that moment what she thought a bliss. what was her fault? Why Everytime God punish her only? She never had any expectation with him. She knew that this relationship is nothing like normal husband wife relationship. She will always be her friend and she had compromised with this fact. She was happy at least Sanskar was in her life. She never expected him to go beyond friendship as she knew that he can never love her. It him only who approached first and she gave in being lost. Everything was going good but all of the sudden her life again took a turn. She was heartbroken again. Yes, it was her mistake only that she gave in. She should have remembered that Sanskar can never be hers. She should have stopped him. She should not have given up into that kiss. The word " MISTAKE" broke her. The word that he love Kavita broke her. The word that she is just a mere friend to him broke her. How much has her life still stored for her? How much pain still left for her to bear, to hurt her, to kill her?

Swara sees Sanskar coming inside room. So, she quickly hide herself behind cupboard. Sanskar sees washroom door open and thinks Swara has gone downstairs. He just take his clothes and goes to washroom.

Swara closed her eyes feeling a deep pain in her heart and a lone tear escaped from her eyes. She breaks down. The tears kept falling one after the other. Her fear came true. It was just a dream which broke once it strike with reality. She runs out of the room not able to stop her tears. She runs to terrace and broke down completely. It was dark night, No one noticed her as everyone were in there rooms. As Sanskar already messaged them that they may get late, so not to wait for them and sleep.

Swara looked at sky cryingly. She fell on her knees feeling nothing in herself, feeling so hopeless, helpless, lifeless. She cried for hours. The rain has stopped but the tears didn't stopped. It was her life, Pain, hurt, broken and tears. Is she abandoned to get her love ? Is loving someone is such a big crime that can only give pain to her?

After don't know how much time, Swara got tired of crying. Her tears dried but still her beautiful eyes were holding fresh tears that may fall any moment. Her eyes shows blank expression but it was holding a pain behind it. She wipes her face and gulping her tears, Compromising of the fact that she is not for love yet again and God had made her only for pain and tears. She is not perfect to love. She chuckled sadly at her thought that she is dumb. Someone can feel pity on her but love? No, anyone can't love her then why Sanskar will love her? She remembered the word " mistake" and chuckled at her fate. She put the mask of smile hiding the fact how broken she was from inside. She got up and went downstairs.

She went to her room only to saw Sanskar had changed and was sleeping. Her eyes started getting wet but she pressed her lips to stop her tears. She lie down on her side but sleep was far away from her eyes. A tear fell from her closed eyes.

Morning;

Swara was already awake. She saw Sanskar then get up from the bed and went to fresh n up. She just got ready hurriedly and went downstairs as she doesn't want to face Sanskar because she don't want to break in front of him feeling week.

She went downstairs and perform morning prayer. No one was awake till now. Ap was the first who sees her coming out of in-house temple.

Ap: Swara beta.

Swara also sees her and smiles fakely.

Ap: When did you both come? Sanskar had informed us that you may get late but you could have told us.

Swara (sign): It's ok maa. You might be sleeping. So, I thought not to disturb you.

Ap: Are you fine beta? Your eyes are red?

Swara: Nothing maa, just got tired but I m fine.

Ap: Are you sure?

Swara nodded at her.

Ap: ok, Arshit is sleeping in my room. Go to him. He may need you now.

Swara nodded and left.

After sometime;

Sanskar woke up and didn't find Swara. He remembered last night and sighed. He got ready and also went downstairs.

Everyone were sitting for breakfast. Swara was sitting with Arshit and feeding him. She was well aware of his presence but didn't lift her gaze to see him. Sanskar also sit and have his breakfast silently and left for office hurriedly. Laksh noticed this and got confused.

Two days later;

It has been two days. In these two days, a lot of things have changed between Swasan and the most basic was their talk. They always avoid each other and this time Sanskar also didn't do anything. He was avoiding her. Swara sometime want to talk to him on other matters but couldn't. She was getting more hurt by Sanskar ignorance. Laksh was observing all this. He can easily sense that something happened between them but what?? He thought to confront Sanskar.

It was 9;30 at night, Sanskar was working on laptop in his room. Swara was downstairs and Arshit was sleeping on the bed. Laksh came inside room.

Laksh: Bhai.

Sanskar: Yes Laksh come in.

Laksh came and sat on the couch.

Sanskar: It's good that you came. I wanted to discuss about mittal's project.

Laksh (confused): What? But why?

Sanskar: I just got to know today that we lost that project. I mean we had won it right? Then how can they give it to someone else.

Laksh: Hmm, I was going to tell you this. Actually when your accident happened, then only we lost it. That time everyone of us were worried for you. About three four days, I couldn't go office too. Then our rival singhania's snatch the contract from us. He claimed that our company is not able to do this project as head of the project, who was you is not in condition to do it and mittal's gave him the contract. I know it was important for us and I couldn't do anything. For a second, I got doubt on him.

Sanskar: What doubt?

Laksh: I mean your accident and his getting contract. I was suspicious that he might done something like that to you as he told that he can go to any extent for the contract. But police told that it was your accident. No one has done it so I kept quiet.

Sanskar get lost in his thinking. He remembered about singhania's word during the contract time that he can do anything for this contract. He started to think everything from start. Every details of his accident case. He was lost when Laksh jerk him.

Laksh: Bhai?

Sanskar (coming to his sense): ha.. Hm?

Laksh: Bhai, I want to talk to you about something.

Sanskar: Hmm say.

Laksh: What is happening Bhai?

Sanskar: (Confused) What are you talking Laksh?

Laksh: You know Bhai. Still, I m asking straight What is happening between you and Swara?

Sanskar look at him being shocked.

To be continued...