"You know you didn't have to come today." Kelley says.

Today's our second SheBelieves game and it's against Italy.

"Kelley I have to...I can't dwell on it or I'm gonna go insane." I say.

"Alright." Kelley says and hugs me.

Kelley then leaves my office.

I take a minute to compose myself then head into the locker room. Once in the locker room I walk into the middle of the room and look around. When my eyes land on the empty locker in between Rose and Jane I have to look away and compose myself for a second then I go and sit in Tobin's locker.

"Where's her jersey?" I ask.

The kit person comes over and hands me Tobin's jersey.

"Thanks." I mumble.

I trace my fingers over the name on Tobin's jersey then I let out a shaky breath before I stand in front of the team.

"Bring it in." I say then everyone gets into our team huddle.

As I look around the huddle I can tell we are all thinking the same thing.

Fuck this game.

"Alright." I say then let out a shaky breath. "First off Lindsey I'm sorry we had to push back your hundredth cap celebration but I wanted it to be a happy day for you."

"I get it." Lindsey says and everyone nods.

"I know none of us want to play this game. Hell I don't even want to fucking be here" I admit. "...but we all know there's nothing we can do for Tobin right now. All we can do now is hope and pray and beat the shit out of Italy.........."

I try to keep going, but nothing comes out so I look to Ali.

"Alright." Ali says and everyone looks at the former right back. "Every one get your warm ups on then head to the pitch"

Everyone nods and returns to their lockers so I grab Tobin's jersey then head onto the field. Once on the field I keep my eyes down and make my way to the bench then I sit in my normal spot.

As I'm sitting on the bench, for some reason, I take out my phone and open instagram and start typing out my feelings.

After I've posted I put my phone back in my sweat pants pocket and decide to take a walk around the stadium to keep my mind clear.

I didn't really want to put a suit on today.

While I'm walking around I see a lot of posters about Tobin which warms my heart.

"Hey Astrid." Kate Abdo, the Fox Sports host, says getting my attention. "Do you have time for a quick word?"

Fuck it.

"Sure." I say then they mic me up.

"We have a couple minutes until we are back." One of the producers says.

A chair is then brought in and placed between Amy Rodriguez and Lauren Holiday, who are now apart of the pregame, halftime, and post game show. When I sit in the chair I place Tobin's jersey on my lap then Amy and Lauren each grab one of my hands.

Tobin introduced me to Lauren during the 2019 victory tour.

"How are you?" Amy asks.

"Trying not to think about it." I admit.

"Astrid really." Lauren says and squeezes my hand. "How are you?"

"Scared. Terrified. Sad. Nervous. Depressed. Take your pick."

"She'll be okay." Amy says.

"And we are back with the second game of our double header today, the US Women's National Team taking on Italy." Kate Abdo says. "Welcome everyone to FS1's coverage of the SheBelieves Cup and we are lucky enough to be joined by the coach of the US Women's National Team Astrid Heath. Astrid welcome."

"Thanks for having me." I say.

"So before we get to the question everybody is wondering why don't we get your ideas behind the lineup." Kate says then the lineup pops up on the monitors in front of us.

"I'm going to be real honest here, today is the first time I've left the hospital since the accident so my coaching staff has been in control the last couple of days." I say as I look over the lineup. "That's a pretty strong line up."

"Speaking of the past few days..." Amy says then she and Lauren squeeze my hands. "How have you been?"

"I haven't slept since the accident and I'm just trying to make it 90 minutes then I can head back to the hospital."

"Any word on Tobin's condition?" Lauren asks.

"When I left an hour ago Tobin was still in a coma, but other than that she's fine." I say then look down at the jersey in my lap. "It's up to her to wake up."

"We'll be right back for the Kick off between the USA and Italy." Kate says.

"And we're clear." A producer says.

I remove my hands from the girls grips then grab Tobin's Jersey and bury my face in it. Amy and Lauren rub my back until I get a grip on my emotions then I stand up, pull my mic off, and leave it in the chair. I then start walking back to the bench.

"Astrid." A little voice from the crowd says getting my attention.

I look for the person with the voice and finally see someone waving at me so I walk over to them.

"Hi sweetie." I say.

The little girl smiles at me then wraps her little arms around me. I let out a very shaky breath and hug her back.

"I needed that. Thank you." I admit. "What's your name sweetie?"

"Kayla...Is Tobin okay?"

"Yes sweetie. She's just taking a very long nap."

"Well she needs to wake up." The little girl says.

"Yes she does." I say with a laugh.

"She's my favorite player." Kayla mumbles.

"Can I tell you a secret?" I say

"Yeah." The little girl enthusiastically says.

"Tobin's my favorite too." I say making everyone around us laugh.

"She's supposed to be silly." Kayla says and giggles. "She's your wife."

"Silly me." I say with a smile. "Hey would you like this?"

I hold out Tobin's jersey.

"This is the jersey Tobin was gonna wear today."

"Really?" Kayla asks.

"Of course." I say then help her slip it on. "There we go."

"Thank you." Kayla says and hugs me.

"Of course." I say then look at her parents. "Would you three be able to come to Baltimore for the last game on Sunday?"

"Yeah." Kayla's Mom says. "We tried to get ticket's, but they were sold out.

I then whisper my plan I have to surprise Kayla

"Oh we can definitely do that." Kayla's Mom says and hands me their info.

"Great. Just tell them your names at the ticket booth and they'll get you situated."

"Sounds good."

I then lean down towards Kayla.

"Bye sweetie."

"Bye Astrid." She says with a smile and hugs me.

I walk back to the bench then stand for the anthems. Once the anthems are over I shake hands with the Italian coach then I sit in my seat and wait for the game to start.

Suddenly I feel my pocket vibrate so I take out my phone and see it's the hospital.

"KICK IT OUT." Someone yells, but I don't pay attention to anything else except my phone.

I guess I tuned out the game.

"Hello?" I say after answering the phone.

"Hi is This Astrid Heath?"

"Yes it is."

"I'm calling to update you on your wife Tobin."

"Yes ma'am."

"Well I can happily say she is out of her coma and is resting comfortably."

"And she'll be okay?"

"She'll make a full recovery. She also wanted me to deliver a message to you."

"Okay?" I say with a bit of a smile.

"Umm.......Let's just say you need to win the game."

"Oh god." I say while chuckling. "I'm sorry you had to hear that."

"It's fine. Just win for her."

"Yes Ma'am." I say then hang up.

When I look up I see both teams and the refs are huddled around me. I then see myself on the video board.

"Sis?" Kelley questions.

I open my mouth to say something, but nothing comes out so I smile and nod my head.

"She's awake?" Alex asks.

I nod.

Kelley then runs over to the PA mic and grabs it.

"MY SISTER-IN-LAW IS AWAKE." Kelley screams into the mic causing everyone to cheer.

My twin's so extra.

"Are you leaving?" Ali asks after Italy leave and huddle up.

"No." I say and chuckle. "Let's just say we need to win this game."

"You heard my twin." Kelley says and motions to the field. "Let's fucking go."

The team head back onto the field so I look up at the scoreboard and see it's 2-0 in the 40th minute with Ashley Hatch and Crystal getting our two goals.

Five long minutes later the whistle blows so I head into the tunnel, go to my office, pull out my phone, and call my wife.

"Baby?" I questions.

"Hello beautiful." My favorite voice in the world says.

"You don't know how good it is to hear your voice."

"I love you Astrid."

"Again please." I whisper.

"Astrid Grace Heath I love you more than anything in the world."

"I love you too...Can I come to the hospital now?"

"Baby you have a game to coach."

"Yeah I know." I mumble. "Can I see you after?"

"As long as you bring pizza yes you can."

"Anything else?"

"Some new clothes."

"Ummmm." I say.

"What?"

"Your clothes are already up there. They're in a drawer. I had Kelley pack up our stuff and bring it to the hospital." I say and try not to cry. "I couldn't be away from you."

"Oh baby."

"I-I-I'm sorry Toby. I...I...I...I."

"Hey it's okay baby. Shh. It's okay." My beautiful wife says. "I'm not mad. I just hate that you had to go through that alone."

"Don't be." I say and choke back a sob. "You're awake and that's all that matters...I'll see you after the game."

"Okay baby." Tobin says. "I love you Astrid."

"I love you Tobin." I say then we hang up.

Once I've finished calling my wife I head back out to the field, sit in my seat, and watch the second half.

When the second half ends I shake hands with the Italy coach then I head to my office, order a pizza for myself and Tobin, and collect my things. I then make my way out of the stadium and get in my rental. Once in the rental I leave the stadium and head to the pizza place where I pick up Tobin and I's pizza then I head to the hospital.

When I get to the hospital I park my car, grab my things, then rush up to Tobin's hospital room.

"Hi baby." Tobin says when I enter the room.

I sniffle a bit, set the pizza on one of the table then sit down next to my wife.

"Hi Boo Bear." I whisper then I kiss my wife for a very long time.

"As much as I love your lips." Tobin mumbles against my lips. "I smell pizza."

"Here." I say and grab the pizza's then hand Tobin hers.

The two of us sit next to each other in silence and eat our pizza's until the team come into the room.

"Hey guys." Tobin says and smiles.

The whole team hug my wife while I check my phone since it's been blowing up ever since I took it off do not disturb mode.

"Woah." I say when I open instagram.

"What?" Christen says.

"That's a lot of likes." I say and show her the phone

"Two million and 39 likes." Christen reads. "Damn."

"Mal can I talk to you for a second?" I ask and hold my hand out to the youngster.

"Sure." Mal says and grabs my hand.

The two of us walk out of Tobin's room and head down to the vending machine. The two of us get snacks and drinks then we walk back to Tobin's room

"So what's up?" Mal asks as we slowly walk.

"I have a question to ask you." I say.

"Okay?"

"Mal will you be a bridesmaid in my wedding?"

"Of course." Mal says with a smile then she hugs me. "Thank you for asking me."

"Of course." I say then I kiss Mal's head. "After SheBelieves you, me, Erin, Christen, and Kelley are going dress shopping"

"Okay." Mal says with a smile.

"Now come on." I say and we start walking back down to Tobin's room. "I'm hungry, thirsty, and I need some Mal cuddles."