I wake up due to the cold I'm feeling right now, holding my head tightly as It's aching badly. I sit up and look around till I realize that I fell asleep on the floor last night.

I groan in pain while holding my head as now again fever hit me hard, "shit" I curse under my breath and stand up from the place.

Sitting on the bed, I open the drawer of the night stand to take out the medicine but for my surprise my all the medicines are over.

I lay on the bed flat on my back and look at ceiling as again those words start to repeat in my mind which he said last night in his sleep.

'Taking care or making your own husband feel happy makes you slut? bitch?... and moreover he hates me? even now?'

Warm tears start to fall down from my eyes, making my condition worse but no pain I'm feeling more than the words he said yesterday.

I feel like they are stabbing my heart with a sharp knife.

I know he is waiting patiently for the day to arrive when we both will separate our ways, but I don't want that day to arrive.

I loudly wanna express my feeling to someone, I wanna tell someone how much hurt and broke I am today.

But, soon my thoughts get interrupt when someone bang on my door. I flinch and quickly stand up from my bed.

I wipe my tears off from my eyes "OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR Y/N" a loud voice reach my ears.

I open the door "J-jungkook?" I look at him surprise as It's the first time in this several month when he himself come to my room.

He clench his jaw and look at me with his furious look "why did you enter in my room yesterday?" he ask while gritting his teeth.

I gulp "I-I- wa-" he cut me off in between by throwing my phone harshly on the ground, which I forgot in his room last night.

I flinch with the sudden sound as my phone break into pieces "WHY THE FUCK YOU ENTERED HUH?!" he yell loudly.

Before I could reply, he grip my jaw harshly and step closer to my face with his dangerous cold look.

Tears start to flow down from my eyes as I'm unable to push his strong body away from me. Right now, I'm so weak; mentally and physically both.

"this is the last time I'm warning you, next time, you'll be thrown out of the house" he glare and harshly push me aside before going back downstairs.

I fall on my knees while crying and regretting my whole to see this day. This the first time he yell at me, it's his daily routine from some past months and I'm still bearing it why?

because I love him and by doing this, he makes me feel regret loving him. He makes me regret loving my own husband.

Falling in love is not in our hands whether it's with soft person or with cold person.

Keeping all of the things aside, I always choose him over anything or anyone and I always will because I love him and I understand how hurt we feel when we love someone but it's not enough.

Sitting in my living room since after Jungkook went to office. No expression on my face, just all blank, I'm feeling nothing but just broke and broke.

I always listen to people about how broke they feel when they love someone and in the end they become the reason behind your all the pain and worries and now today, I can feel it.

No one in my whole life dared to say or do hurtful things to me but, the person whom I love with my whole heart did!

He is breaking me.. At one moment I feels like he love me or he start to feel something but, on the another second he make me feel regret to think that he love me.

Because no!! he is jeon Jungkook and he'll never love me.

"Y/N!!" I flinch on my place as a sudden voice reach my ear which make me startle on my position, I snap back to reality and blink my eyes before looking up to the owner of the voice.

"N-namjoon" I call his name out and stand up from my place "I've been calling you since two minutes where are you los- wait! you're crying?" He ask.

His eyes widen as he cup my cheeks while looking at me with full concern,"y/n, tell me is everything alright?" I quickly wipe my tears off my eyes which I didn't even realize that fell down.

"N-no it's just n-nothing, I was just thinking about something. I'm okay" I stutter and wipe them quickly and smile but;

He doesn't smile back instead he just suspiciously look at me and watch my every move.

"Sit please" I said, we both take our seat. "You're here so suddenly? without mom dad? Is everything alright?" I ask, he shake his head.

"first tell me are you fine?" He ask, I gulp and forcefully smile, controlling my tears "y-yes! I'm all fine. Now answer my question" I ask to change the topic.

He sigh "mom dad went to Japan for some work and I'm here so suddenly because.." he take a pause to take out his phone.

He showed me the call history of how many time he's been calling me on my phone since morning. He raise his eyebrow,

"care to explain me y/n, why you aren't picking up my calls? do you know how much I worried I was, my car almost crashed while driving" He assert.

I gulp as I can't tell him that Jungkook broke my phone today's morning.

On one hand he is my here, my brother who loves me more than anything and on other, jungkook who doesn't even know how to treat a woman.

He can't compare every girl with that Irene, not all are same but he never understand this.

"Umm.. actually I f-forgot to charge my phone today and that's why it's s-switched off" I lied, trying my best not to make him suspect.

He raise his eyebrow and then nod his head after a while.

I sigh in relief "do you want something, juices or something?" I ask, he shake his head "nothing, all I want is you to be safe" he said.

"Y/n" he call out my name softly, I look at him and nod "you're really fine right? You're happy with Jungkook? Tell me" he ask again and hold my shoulder with worries written on his face.

I smile "yes, I am fine and I- I'm h-happy with him, trust me" I reply, trying my best not to show my real emotions on my face, but still my voice hitch in between.

"I know you're lying sis.. look at your face, look at your body y/n, this is not the same girl I had some months before. My sister was happy, she was bright, definition of joy starts with her and look at you now; gloomy, dull, pale, thin, these eyebag- y/n what's the matter please tell me I'm getting so worried about you" he request, I can see in his eye if he speak on more word, he'll cry out.

I smile and hug him "no! it's nothing like that, you think too much It's just I got a fever last weak so that's why I'm looking like this" I said.

He hug me back and caress my hairs. Only I know how much good I'm feeling since after marriage.

"Today all I can say is you have really grown up so much.. You're a woman now, you're not my sister anymore who used to share her every problem with me, who only knows how to laugh because she never learnt to cry before because I never let her cry. But today you're different.. you're not my that sister anymore, you've changed, you're really the wife of Jeon Jungkook, who now hide things from me, from his brother" he state and pull away.

His each word touch my heart so deeply. Only I know, how I'm restraining myself not to cry my heart out in front of him, I know he'll take me away from here if he get to know about even any single thing about the things happening with me since the day of wedding.

Namjoon never let a single drop of tear left my eye and I know he'll beat the shit out of Jungkook if he get to know about it and I don't want it.

I love Jungkook and I won't be able to handle if something like that ever happened.

"You're just worrying about me too much namjoon. Don't worry I'm totally fine and who said I changed huh? no matter what, I'll always be your little sis and trust me It's nothing.. I'm happy with my life" I said with a smile

He nod "if you're saying then, it's okay by the way where is Jungkook? I haven't seen him" he ask, "he went to office" I reply, he nod.

He look at me and tale a deep breath "did you remember when I asked you to take our company's half shares and become a businesswoman?" He remind.

I nod "yeah I remember" I reply "I'm again telling you again if yo-"

He was about to say something but his phone ring in between "yeah what!?" He stand up from his place, I did that too "no!! no don't worry I'm coming, hold on! that deal is important" he said and give me apologetic look.

"Sis I'm sorry but an urgent meeting came up so, I have to go, I'll come back another time.. Take care" he said and kiss my forehead before rushing out hurriedly.

As soon as he disappear from my sight I fall down on the couch as tears start to roll down from my eyes, which I was controlling before.

"Y/n at least eat something.. you haven't ate anything since yesterday. You'll get sick again if you will not eat anything" ajumma request, in return I smile bitterly.

"It's fine and if I die in case, I'm sure he'll be happy" I reply in a low voice which was unable to reach ajumma's ears.