"Y/n just be confident, don't let anything or anyone in meeting or conference affects your presentation. Even if you're feeling like you're lost then also, don't show it on your face.. That's what the entrepreneurs do" Jin explain.

Y/n nod confidently while looking straight "yes!"

"Be smart. be confident" Jin look at her, "do you understand?" He ask, she nodded "yes, I understand" she assure, he smile "good".

"You improved lot in this one month, I'm impress" jin appreciate her, "thank you, it's all because of the way you teach me" she reply.

"I'm teaching you because you're my bestfriend's sister or else I would have never trained anyone" he admit.

"I'm glad he have best friend like you" she said and smile, he smile back and nod "now, listen to me very carefully" his expression are serious.

She nod, indicating him to continue. He take deep breath;

"after a week namjoon is going to Amsterdam for business purpose and on the next day he is having a meeting in Shanghai, where his company and some other big companies will be proposing bid for the government project, which is very important for everyone".

He explain as she listen his each word carefully, "and namjoon decide to send you there in place of him to take that government project" he said. Y/n widen, her eyes "b-but how c-can I?" She ask.

"I know you can! basic manual will be provided to you later. Just, be confident okay?" he said, she nod "okay".

Jungkook is sitting in the study room of his house, watching all the CCTV footages of previous days when y/n used to live here with him.

All he can feel is regret, how much she worked for him but all he just did was to push her away.

He always told her that he'll never love her but, it was all just to make her feel bad. He never meant any of his word.

He close his laptop and throw his head back, while tears fall down from his eyes. One by one, non stop.

In this one month since she left, he is alone. He is all alone, his body is now thin and pale.

He stopped going to his office as now he feel like, his world has stop, his heartbeat is stop.

Nothing can be felt by him, all he just want is to be with y/n or else he rather prefer to leave this world.

His eyes are totally red and puffy as from one month straight, his tears are not leaving his eyes. No matter how many times he tried to get over her, but can not.

All of the above, he is regretting the most to push his feelings away even when hoseok told him, that he'll regret these things later but he never listened to him or anyone.

'Please come back y/n please. I beg you love.. I'll surely die if you did not come back'.

He lifeless(ly) stood up from his place and walk inside her room to feels her smell which is still present on the bedsheets.

He lay down on her bed and pull those sheets towards him to hug them tightly while crying his heart out.

"y/n-ah" he start sobbing and crying loudly.

He shuffle onto the bed, but soon his eyes fall on the dairy place beneath her pillow, which he never noticed before.

Wiping his tears, he quickly pick up that diary and look at the brownish hard cover on which is written, bold.

He hesitantly open the dairy and flip the cover. It's not good to go through someone's privacy, but he can't do anything.

He look at the words written in the most beautiful handwriting he have ever seen in his entire life. Even he is surprise to see her writing skills.

The first time she wrote her diary was on the day when she graduated; how much she was happy that day and lot of things she had written about it and also discussed about her friends and all.

But after that she wrote it a day before namjoon took her away, a day before when he took away the part of jungkook's heart.

A painful chuckle leave his mouth as read the words written in the centre of the page;

‘do not dare to open, If you're not Jeon Jungkook’.

Dear Jungkook, my love;

Each day, I think, it can’t get worse than this. I’ve gotten as low as I could. But then the ground opens up again and swallows me further. You put me there. You dug my grave, you buried me alive. You keep throwing your bullshit at me.

I’ve been screaming for a long time. I found anger that I never knew I had. An anger that I learned from you. I felt like nothing could make it better. There was no explanation, nothing to help me understand how and why you did all of this.

You chose this. You chose to hurt me every day, with your words, with your actions, with this marriage contract. Each day you tell me of how much you hate me to be your wife, how much you regret this marriage.

Seven months of my life based on an illusion. I felt robbed. Like someone had stolen my time and energy, stolen my love.

I gave you my best to be accepted as your wife but I forget one thing; You were never mine, not for a moment and I realized this on the day when you said 'bitch and slut' to me even in your dream.

you said you love her. Obviously, Irene. Your ex.

You made me look past the moon at night, and take in all of the stars. My universe shifted when you came into orbit. I didn’t want you at first, but I fell in love with you.

Lot of fantasies I had before my marriage.. But now, It all feel like broken. I'm broke Jungkook, you broke me this badly that I'm not even able to look at myself in the mirror.

Each and every time I see myself in the mirror, all I could feel is regret; why I am living in this world? Am I that ugly or worst to be love by you? I know that Irene is so much better than me but still..

You can at least treat me good.. I'm your wife Jungkook

Was it my mistake to be in love with my husband? Or am I that bad?

I cried whole nights to sleep myself. Those words which you says to me keeps ringing in my ear.. It feels like someone is stabbing my heart with the sharp knife.

When I fell in love with you, I saw dream with you... to be with you forever together, to have a kids with you, to grow old and grey with you.. But, you broke all those dreams into pieces.

I've cried over you every night these past few months, I've let my own thoughts make me surrender and believe what they've been telling me.

I believed your those fake beautiful wedding vows hoping they're true but,The worst part is, you don't even care. I stare at my ceiling hoping you will text me or call me but, all of the above you blocked me.

The day I was sick, I needed you here by my side. I even fainted but no! You don't even care.

I called you, tried to text you but my dearest husband blocked me from his contact list, What more?

I'm crying over you so hard that it's not only emotionally painful but it's physically painful, I fall to the ground grabbing my stomach to contain my sobs. I don't want to let anyone else hear me.

I wanna know if you miss me as much as I miss you? you don't even care Jungkook, I'm just a burden to you And it hurts so freakin bad when you love someone but It's not enough.

I don't want to cry over you. But I can't stop these tears. I'm getting to the point where I can't see these pages while writing this.

My vision is so blurry. what did i do wrong, where did i mess up? Am I that unloving or ugly? Or is it because of Irene?

Now, I'm stopping writing this as my eyes are not supporting me to write more but I wish you the best life Jungkook, I love you so much and trust me, I'll forever will.

Jungkook close the diary and let his tears fall down from his eyes. His heart is aching like one of it's major piece is missing and he need it.

He feel like someone has stole his breathe away and now, he want it back.

His each passing day by, is getting harder and harder for him. His house feel cold, dark and lonely without her.

Jungkook is not blaming anyone about this, he is blaming himself and that's the thing which is making hard for him to survive, to take breath.

He is struggling to live.

She fell in love with me and I just pushed her away but why? What did she had ever done to me? She is an angel and I'm heartless man.

Thay day I didn't called her bitch or slut, I called that to Irene as because of that argument happened before, I also said I love her and that was for y/n. She misunderstood me.

Jungkook grip his hair in frustration and let out a loud groan to ease his pain but nothing is working. The only remedy he need is y/n.

His whole body is aching in pain, his each bone is feeling pain. His under eyes are having dark circles, he stopped taking proper meals, he stopped going to his work.

'please come back y/n.. I promise, I won't speak a single word to you but just come back baby.. come back. I need you so bad'.

Nothing he wants to do, except to see y/n back in home, with him. He want to start everything again, he wants to clear lot of misunderstandings with her but for that,

He need one chance to start over, will he get it?