" have you done boy, my wolf smells pain and death on you." The alpha asked his son as he stood on the stairs that led to the entrance of their large home. "I haven't done anything father, only what is necessary." Renallo replied with such ease, with no remorse or anguish because of what he had done, it was a sin not easily forgiven but he had committed it and there was no remorse in his heart at all, the silent beast inside of him, was just that, silent.

"Often we make mistakes we later regret boy, don't let it be you, who regrets it." The alpha spoke wisely as he turned on his heels and headed inside, ofcourse Renallo had taken to heart what his father had said, but what was done was done, there was no going back, he only now looked forward to being with a mate who was equal to him and deserved him in every way, that was the goal after all. As he turned to look at the morning sun in all it's beauty, it signalled a new day, and a new life to live.

"Mother can I help?" Renallo asked the woman with a dashing smile, no matter what he'd do, he knew she would be there, but if ever she found out about his mate, she would surely murder him herself. "Ofcourse, come my boy." She responded waving for him to come closer,

Renallo Hunt.

Sitting by the cliff my mind was clear, there was a sense of peace in between the chaos and anguish this place brought me, I couldn't place it, only that there was serenity in the darkness, and as the sun set my wolf stirred in my mind and watched through my eyes how the sky changed with so many colours, the sharp yellow tinge stood out most, the colour of his eyes in a well of obsidian.

How I wish I could see him one last time, breathe in his scent and beg him not to go like he does in the dreams of him that haunt me, beautiful torture I guess, I was a foolish boy and when I finally grew up and learnt that having everything in the world could never compare to having a mate who truly loved you without anything to show for it, a mate whose only possession was their love for you but instead of cherishing it, you destroy it, and nothing could fill the void.

"I thought I'd find you here." He whispered behind me with a smile that brought a little healing to my wolf, he had loved us, despite our flaws, despite him being forced to love me, he learnt to do so even if I couldn't reciprocate it, but I respected him, I couldn't him love him like he did but I surely would die for him. Funny how death never scared me, maybe its because in death I hoped I would find him, my Saint. "Hello love." I replied with a welcoming smile as I helped him sit down, he was almost near his birthing date and it worried me a lot of times if he would be alright, whatever I touch, I seem to break.

"What did you run from this time?" He chortled making me chuckle. "Oh, a lot of things, my father, Edwards, the pack elders, the construction workers, the head of the pack nursery." I listed on making him laugh loudly, how I loved his laugh, I didn't deserve what I had now, I surely knew that and not a day goes by when I'm not tempted to drink the whole bottle of wolfsbane and get it over with. "All those people can be a lot but you've been handling everything pretty well, how did therapy go?" He commended and asked the one question I dreaded, Ofcourse I had a mental breakdown make it breakdowns over the course of my life, without even telling my mate I went to get help and at times I don't feel there is progress, yet there is.

"It was insightful and also frustrating." I replied rubbing his stomach, I wished my child wouldn't be like me,ever. "It's helping, and I'm glad it is, we have dinner with your parents tonight, I came to get you so we could get ready and go." I nodded without having words to say, I had a lot on my mind and dinner with my parents would be a welcome distraction, as I looked at the disappearing sun one last time my wolf whined, how we wished moments of peace never ended, maybe I wouldn't be such a mess and didn't have so many regrets.

A grunt escaped my lips as we walked toward home, I would never tell my mate but at times the pain isn't bearable, but I was getting better, for him, I had to. "Are you alright?" He asked with eyes full of concern and I nodded, I had no words to say. We got back to our house as the sun finally set, home, at times it didn't feel so. "I will go get your jacket." Carson stated placing a kiss on my cheek, I turned to the fridge wanting to find a snack.

The doorbell rang as I opened my yoghurt, so I ate as I went to open it, call it bad manners, I didn't care. "Leeland." I mumbled in surprise as I looked at my friend, he looked more like a bat out of hell. "What in the world happened to you?" I demanded ushering him in, he seemed unsettled, as if he'd seen the world ending.

"Drink some water." I offered as he sat on the couch, his hair was a spiky mess and everything about him seemed spooked. "Fuck that Dante." He cursed shocking me, but I also connected my own dots, he had gone with a proposal to Louisville where the Dante clan was found, the powerful and rich wolves of the Dante clan to be precise, it seemed my friend had been shot down, ever since his father gave him the reigns of their business, it hasn't worked out as he thought it would.

"What happned?" I demanded as he finally seemed to have calmed down. "They wouldn't accept my terms of the deal, so I thought we would renegotiate then this— I don't even know what he is but he was a wolf, showed up and shot me down, both the patriarch and his son didn't even hesitate to do as he said, but that's not what got to me, the project name is called the Saint Foundation, its being built here by the Dante's." Leeland explained making my wolf and I stand up is shock, it couldn't be, no one knew, what exactly did this mean.

"Leeland what are you telling me." I whispered as Leeland's face finally seemed to be sullen and overcome with sadness. "Our past maybe about to haunt us." He replied as he looked at the floor. "Kyro Dante has been invited to the new moon festival, his family should be coming, you'll get a chance to propose your deal again and we'll get another chance to look into what the hell is going on, because I have a feeling this isn't just coincidence." I relayed everything to Leland and he nodded right then, something was definitely going on and we had to find out.

"What's not coincidence?" Carson asked coming down the stairs, I didn't want to worry him and I definitely couldn't tell him any of this, it would ruin us. "A pack incident babe." I replied nodding to Leeland who nodded in response and walked away. "I'm not prodding further because dinner with your parents is exhausting but I know you're not telling me everything." Carson confessed my fears but I was glad he was letting it go,something was going on, why would the Dante's suddenly want to build a facility in Sandton named after a dead person, and that person being my deceased mate Saint Drake, even his name hurt to think about.

I knew I had to find out what was going on before the truth came out and it unraveled like I did, I was responsible for the actions of my friends, I was their alpha and I led them, and even though they had a hand in his killing, I was the one who placed the deciding blow, so I knew I had to fix it all.

As I walked with Carson to my parent's home I suddenly felt a flood of memories hit me, I

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