private messages

hey i have something for you

hit send on another picture of a dog in a fedora i hit end on our friendship

i don't have anything for you

speaking of gifts though

tom no for the last time i'm not buying you that glitter gun

it shoots glitter mel

why do you hate fun

hey i said i'm not buying you one

i never said you weren't getting one

are you implying theivery????

not a word

that's illegal mel!

what you've never stolen?

only the show as billy elliott

we're very different people

no kidding

you call knives people openers

you thought bdsm meant bible discussion and service meeting

tushié

what

did you mean touché

...

we will never speak of this again

i have to take an unexpected trip to paraguay

i'll be back sometime between 3 days and 11 years

take your time

hey i actually have to go i have a decathlon meeting

okay no biggie

i'll talk to you some other time

you say that like we don't both know you're going to text me a picture of tessa at 6 am tomorrow like you do every day

it's the best way to start the day

read 3:12 pm

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um wow i didn't get a tessa text today

i was off all day

oh my god i'm so sorry

i was shooting late last night and i slept right through tessa text time

i wanted to get cute dog pics

instead i got depressed

i'm so sorry i'll do everything in my power to gain your forgiveness

no this is a wound not even time will heal

i'll give you anything you want

what i want is your absence

well today is your lucky day i'm gone

i mean i wasn't really serious

no i actually have to go to set

but we'll talk soon

okay

read 5:44 pm

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hey i have kind of a weird question for you

this can't be good

what do you mean

last week you texted me at 3 am to ask if axe body spray could be used as a deterrent against a large bird

that was a time sensitive question

you did not answer in time

see this is what i'm talking about

if even you think it's a weird question that's a very bad sign

whatever weird was the wrong word to use

anyway forget about it

but now i'm intrigued

it's not a big deal

are you sure

let's just drop it

okay i guess

read 1:15 pm

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hey chaMELeon

sorry can't talk right now

you didn't even send me a death threat in response to that text

are you okay

yes just busy

i'll text you later

it's later. want to talk?

read 9:19 pm

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hey mel!

want to facetime?

i'm studying for midterms sorry

oh okay

read 12:31 am

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hey i know this is kind of out of the blue but i was thinking maybe i could come up some weekend and visit you again?

we could have a picnic in golden gate park like you talked about

i'm sorry tom i don't think that's going to work

is typing...

are you avoiding me?

no

really? because you've ignored every text i've sent you this month

seriously if you're mad or if i did something wrong just tell me

nothing is wrong i'm just busy

but you don't want to see me

i don't think i should see you

it's different

did i do something?

jesus christ

no tom

melanoma

i'm literally just busy

i have school and midterms and decathlon meetings and applications for graduate school

it's a lot to fucking handle okay?

i'm sorry i didn't know

i never know with you

what's that supposed to mean

you're just not a big sharer

and i can never tell what you're thinking

well good

i'm allowed privacy

is typing...

sometimes you make it really hard to be your friend

do i

wow

that's really sweet of you tom

come on mel i didn't mean it like that

no you're right

i'm sorry i'm a huge bitch and an awful person and i'm just ruining your career

what are you talking about?

it might be hard to be my friend sometimes tom but it's so much fucking harder to be yours

did you know i wake up to dozens of people saying things like that to me every day?

i've read so many tweets and dms and posts about me and how horrible i am

someone told me to kill myself yesterday

someone i've never even met

i mean how shitty must i be for a total stranger to hate me that much

is typing...

don't bother

if you think it's so hard to be my friend then don't

i'm sorry this chapter is such a mess i'm not a fan. i just wanted to show mel slowly pushing tom away so we'll pretend this chapter spans at least a month (hey sometimes our girl gets moody and stressed and sad because people are mean and school is hard. no one is allowed to be mad at her for telling tom off)

i just read sonata for the first time and it's so cringy and annoying?? y'all are FAKE for hyping me up this whole time. also mel is a completely different person it's so funny like