Cravings are tough and what I am craving I can't just go buy at the market. Well, I guess some people do but gross!

No, my craving is one thing very specific and that is Jack. His lips are my own personal craving but everytime we get close enough something happens and we don't get the chance. We have both not said anything to Nicolas but he is a smart little man and may figure we like it each other at the least.

I put my car in park and grab all the bags from the trunk that has been in there since I went shopping after gettting off work. Reaching home after work, I changed clothes and freshed up then went on my one time a year shopping spree.

After getting gifts for my parents and Jewels. I found an item for Massie, since we exchange a gift each at Christmas time. Then I passed the toy section and couldn't help myself, so Nicolas has several little items from me that I am excited to give him Christmas morning. Along with a gift for Jack I found by accident but fits him perfectly from hearing him talk with Tony, who I found at the Jack's Photography.

Tony is sworn to secrecy right now until Jack gets his Christmas gift, and it may have been a pretty penny but I couldn't pass up the deal when the store actually had it. There is a particular lens Jack has been wanting to get for his camera but it has not been in stock then with Nicolas getting sick he just forgot about it really. Not anymore though because I picked it up for him.

With a flip of my lights, I put the bags down and place the rolls of wrapping paper next to them. I love to wrap up the gifts because it is so much fun seeing everyone's face like little kids again themselves.

Sitting on the floor, I get set on wrapping up the gifts. First was getting my parents and sisters done up first, my parents are still home from their last trip but we are doing Christmas a bit early because they got tickets to go somewhere on Christmas day.

Having theirs wrapped and put on the table, I get set on Massie's next which is a cute little charm for her bracelet with our doctor symbol along with one for OB since it is the field she is going into.

My heart flutters and burst with joy looking to Nicolas's gifts along with Jacks item. I get Jack's done up and start on Nicolas's. I got him a tin lunch box with scooby on it along with a new large pack of crayons and some scooby-doo coloring books. I was shocked they even had those around nowdays, but with the new movie coming out guess they brought back the oldies which is amazing for Nicolas to experience.

Then I got him a few match box cars and my personal favorite a doctor care set. It has a little lab coat along with a stethoscope and other odds and ends.

My door bell goes off and I jump off the floor, looking to the clock to see it is almost nine. I walk to the door and there stands Massie and Jewels. I open the door to let them in from the cold and Massie has her books with her.

"We barely have two weeks until boards. So, both of us need to study." Massie smiles.

"I am here to quiz you both." Jewels rubs her hands together.

"Oh, you got to shop?" Jewels smiles over the gifts.

"Yes I did right after work." I giggle, leaving out that I visited the guys before I came home.

"Could I just have mine now?" Jewels gives me the puppy face.

"Uh, no you know Mom and Dad will get us if we exchange gifts early." I laugh.

"True." Jewels joins me.

Massie sits on the floor and I move over the wrapping things that are not finished to join her. Jewels takes the couch and opens the first book. Best way to sit and go over quizzing makes it easier to not look and have to actually think out the answers instead of glancing while Jewels holds the answer.

Jewels smirks when she sees the gifts but doesn't say anything. I am not worried if she does though, because Massie knows how I feel about Nicolas and Jack both and has encouraged me to follow my heart. She has even met with a nurse on her floor and they have been seeing each other.

Jewels starts popping off questions and at times we loose focus for laughing when we blurt it out together at the same time. Time seems to fly by and it is already passed midnight by time the books are closed and Jewels smiles to both of us.

"You guys have this down. Just don't freeze up."

"That is what I am worried about. Unlike Holly here I am not a good test taker because my anxiety flares." Massie sighs.

"You got this Massie." I pat her leg.

We all start yawning.

"I got my alarm set and we all have the same shifts. I could bring out some pajamas for us all and just slumber it." I suggest.

They both nod and I walk to my dresser pulling out pj sets for the three of us. Of course all of them are Christmas themed making them snicker. They don't know it but I will wear these all year long and not feel one ounce of guilt or sorry for it because I just love this season.

We split up between the two bathrooms and then Massie takes the spare bed I have while Jewels pulls out the bottom piece under my bed which is another small bed. I bought my bed purposely for when the three of us just crash here at mine, especially with me being the closest to the hospital.

The last thoughts that drift through my mind are of Jack and Nicolas. I am so happy the transplant has been seeming to take and his numbers are finally starting to show better. It is hard to believe I have only known them for almost three months because it feels so much longer. Part of me knows he will be going home soon and it makes me sad but at the same time happy because then he will be in the environment he knows and needs to be in his home.

I just wish for one more kiss before they are discharged and leave. I can only hope my heart doesn't break because right now my heart will be going with them both.