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Yuki's Pov

"When are you going to wake up? My neck is getting stiff from not being able to move for apparently who knows how long already." I mutter under my breath so I won't wake this devil up by any chance. Who can sleep so peacefully with someone sitting on their lap?

Someone please wake him up!!! I don't want to do it because I don't want to get thrown over his shoulder again. Being thrown over his shoulder once is enough for the day!! He's not even gentle when he throws me over his shoulder. Just like I said, he's the devil himself. Where is Jaken when I need him for something like this?

I glance around my room, staring at everything slowly, trying to distract myself from noticing how sore my shoulders are becoming. But no matter how hard I try, I failed. So I thought of something 'fun' to do. I grab a few strands of Sesshomaru's hair and began to braid. And it's actually pretty fun braiding his hair without him noticing.

Yep, Sesshomaru's better when he's asleep than awake.

And exactly when I thought I was enjoying myself, that stupid, ugly,green, gooey, midget, gay, single, sissy, hater, loud mouth, helpless imp just had to come breaking in. He slide open the door so loud that it made contact with the door frame with a loud thud! I jumped out of my skin at the sudden intrusion. And of course...with that loud noise and me jumping...the devil himself woke up from his little nap, slightly irritated.

"Lord Sesshomaru!! The servants have completed your order!! What's is your next command?!" Jaken ask.

To me, it was more like he screamed at the top of his lungs. =.=

"Jaken. How many times did I tell you not to interrupt?!" Sesshomaru growled as he tighten his grip around my waist even more.

Oh, how great. Now the devil's up and angry. I'm going to be in hell in a few minutes.

"M-my apologies, Lord Sesshomaru. I won't do it again ever!" Jaken stutter as he bowed.

Too be honest, I can't see that happening anytime soon or in the future. But hey, he did wake Sesshomaru up, meaning I get to move around now!! Yay me!! But before anything...

"Sesshomaru...I can't breath properly if your going to tighten your grip on my waist that much." I groan, as I try to loosen his grip as much as possible.

"Jaken, get out. And don't interrupt again." Sesshomaru command in a threatening tone. Jaken nods and like, ran out the room, closing the door.

Okay....I have to find a way to unbraid his hair without him noticing or I'm dead meat. On top of that his grip didn't loosen at all.

"Yuki."

"Y-yes?" I flinch a bit, sweat forming on my forehead.

"Play with your own hair next time. Or else.." He said in annoyance. Or else what? He turn me around so I'm facing him. Then he lean down on my collarbone and bury his face in my neck.

"Ah...Um...Are you okay, Sesshomaru?" I ask, freezing there on the spot. I've never seen him like this before and honestly, he's scaring the living daylights out of me right now.

I felt a shiver went down my spine along with the same tingling feeling from earlier as he touch the spot where he had bit. "Sesshomaru? Say something, you're really scaring me right now."

"Hm." Then he bite me on the exact same area again. Some weird noise left my mouth as the tingling feeling get much more stronger than before.

"Sesshomaru, stop biting me. Go get something to eat if you're hungry. I'm not your food." I said as I finally manage to push his face away from my neck. Which may not be such a good idea after all. 

Dammit, Jaken!!! Next time I see you, I swear I will freaking murder you.

"Are you okay?" I ask cautiously as I bit my lower lip nervously. My stomach is turning in fear. I've never been this afraid of Sesshomaru before. What's gotten into him?

So instead of giving me a reply, I recieve a death glare from him. I took a deep breath before saying anything again.

"Okay...This isn't going to work but...what are you glaring at me for? I wasn't the one who woke you up, although I wanted to cause my neck was getting pretty stiff but the point is I didn't wake you up so stop glaring at me like you're about to do something crazy! And what did I do to deserve this again? I didn't do anything except braid your hair cause I'm pretty much sure I'll wake you up if I try to move my hair over my shoulder so I braided your hair instead. And it's more fun braiding someone else's hair instead of my own. And stop glaring at me already, I told you it's scary enough that you're not even telling me why you're so irritated." I ramble on and on, completely losing myself as I allow my eyes to wonder around the room instead of on him.

This isn't working!!! I'm more afraid of looking at and talking to him right now more than anything. Wahh!!! Someone help me already!!

"Shut up. Don't say anymore." I tense up immediately as I mentally zip my lips shut. "I'm just tired, that's all."

"That's why I told you to sleep earlier." I sigh, recieving a glare at him. I quickly covered my mouth with my hand.

"I thought I said shut up?"

"Sorry...I didn't know you can be in a terrible mood if you get woke up in the middle of your sleep." I said, looking straight into his eyes. I mentally slap myself twice when I notice that I made him angrier than he already is. On top of that, there's something different about the look in his eyes. Something that I've never seen before. "Did I talk a little too much?"

Isn't that just so obvious, you big idiot!!!

"No. It's fine." He said as he plant a kiss on my forehead. Then he stood up and pull me up with him. "I have some business to finish, so I'd be back shortly."

"Is it that important?" I ask, feeling slightly upset.

Sesshomaru stare at me for a minute before answering. "Not really, I just want to get it done now."

"Oh..." I have a feeling that he's hiding something from me. This isn't the normal Sesshomaru that I know.

"I will be back soon, if not, go to sleep without me. Got it?" I nodded in response, feeling deep down in the bottom of the pits depressed. I watched as he left the room then walk over to the table and sat on the edge of it.

"I feel like he's avoiding me for some reason." I mumble to myself.

Did I do something wrong? Or could it be that he really hates when people touch his hair? I've never seen him like that before and it's not very pleasing to see him like that.

......(Time skip, a few days later)

"Okay, I'm getting slightly paranoid now." I sighed, burying my face in my knees. I might be just over reacting now.

I haven't seen Sesshomaru the day before, or the day before that, nor the day before that, nor the days before. Basically I haven't seen him ever since Jaken came busting into my room!! So I'm getting very, very, very annoyed right now. Yes, that's it. I'm annoyed. I'm just annoyed that's it. It's not like he's ignoring or avoiding me at all cost.

.....Who the heck am I lying to?! Okay, calm down, I'm just paranoid, just paranoid, and annoyed, and worried sick. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less. Sesshomaru probably have some important matters at hand, that's why he haven't seen appearing for the past few... But it really feels like he don't want to see me ever since that day though. 

Is he angry with me? He could be. Maybe I should learn to control my mouth? Or maybe I should go find him? But then again...he don't want me to bother him for a bit was what Jaken told. Why does Jaken get to know what he's doing and I don't? It's not fair!!!! >X<

"What are you doing, rolling around on the grass, Yuki? You'll get your kimono dirty and I don't think Sesshomaru will be happy to see you covered in dirt either." A female voice asked.

I stop rolling or whatever the crap I was doing earlier as I sat up and saw Kimi (Sesshomaru's mother) with a smile. "Yeah...I don't know what I'm doing either...." I replied dryly.

She sat down next to me, still smiling. "Did you have a fight with Sesshomaru again?"

I wish I did. Only if I am currently having a fight or argument with him, it would make everything so perfect.

"No, we didn't fight. I'm just bored from having nothing to do." I sighed, staring at the clear sky.

"You're bored? What's wrong? Usually you would be bothering Sesshomaru by now if you're bored." She smiled.

I lay down on the grass as a breeze flew past. "I can't find him." I grumbled in a bit of a depressing tone.

"Oh. Did you and Sesshomaru sleep together yet?" She asked, her smile getting wider each second.

"Uh...What do you mean sleep together? We've been sleeping together almost every night." Until recently.... And for some reason I think I've heard that question in a different phrase somewhere before.

She let out a small laugh. "No, not that sleep. You're really innocent, Yuki. I guess that's why Sesshomaru is taking his time with you." I look at her with confusion written all over my face. "To simply put it. Did you and Sesshomaru mate yet?"

"Mate? Does only being marked count?" I asked in returned.

"Of course it doesn't count!!!" 

I formed an 'O' with my mouth but said nothing else. For some reason, I feel like she's holding back her anger with everything she's got and hiding it with her smile.

"Okay, I'll just ask again. Did you and Sesshomaru have sex yet?"

"Sex?...What is that? What does it even mean." I question as I sat up again, scratching my cheek with my index finger.

"How helpless are you?!!! Did you not learn about mating or having sex before?" Kimi asked, completely furious.

"Ah..Well you see, what happened was I tend to throw the books out the window, or rip them apart then burn it, or just doodle in it. And when they try to talk to me about it after getting tired of me destroying the books, I simply go to sleep instead or run off somewhere and play all day." I said, thinking back to the days where Aiko or Aya was suppose to teach me everything I'm suppose when it comes to being a woman and after marrying and many other stuff. The only thing I didn't bother to listen to was mating, sex, and something else.

"I see why Sesshomaru is taking it slow with you now." She sighs then reach into her sleeve and pass me a book. "In any case, read this and do NOT destroy it. You need to know these at this point."

Then she head back inside the castle. I look at the book. It's ugly. The cover is brown, and it's somewhat fading. The book itself is thick but not that thick. Probably about two hundred pages at the minimum.

Is this really something I need to know? She doesn't sound like she's joking either. I guess I'll have to endure the painfully boring reading then. But before that...I want to find somewhere that's more private so I can read without being disturbed.

.....

And somehow that's how I end up in the tree for some reason. I guess I just love being up on trees. I mean not a lot of people would bother looking in trees to find someone, so therefore I came down with the conclusion that I won't be disturbed while reading.... 

.....

~Sesshomaru's POV~

"Lord Sesshomaru!!! Lady Yuki is missing. We can't find her anywhere!" Jaken said, screaming at the top of his lung as he burst into my room.

Can't find her anywhere?

"How long has she been missing?" I questioned.

"Not too long ago. The maid was fetching her from the garden to bath but when she got to the garden this afternoon, she wasn't in the garden." Jaken rushes out.

"This afternoon. And you are only telling me about this now?!" I stated, glaring at him.

"My apologies, Lord Sesshomaru. I thought we could find her but we couldn't."

"Did you search every spot in the castle and outside?"

"Yes. The guards said they didn't see the Lady left the castle ground."

I walk past him and head outside towards the garden. I look up in the sky, it's already this dark at night. Worry filled mind as I trace her scent and follow it to the biggest tree in the garden.

"Yuki, come down. I know your up there." I said. There isn't a single movement or noise. Sighed as I jump into the tree and saw her figure on the biggest tree branch, which is also almost the highest tree branch. I jump onto that tree branch and sure enough it was her. She's leaning on the tree trunk, hugging herself with her eyes close.

"Don't fake sleep now, Yuki." I sighed.

She didn't stir at all. I got closer to her and bend down next to her. "...You really sleep anywhere, anytime, as long as you're tired, huh?" I said as I pick her up bridal style and hop off the branch. "Your hair have gotten really troublesome."

I place her on the ground and tie her hair up with a ribbon before picking her up again and head back into the castle.

"Tell everyone to stop searching now and not to make a sound." I said to a servant as I walk past him.

I walk towards my room. It'll be quite troublesome if she ran outside again once she wakes up if I leave her in her room.

"Lord Sesshomaru! Did you find-"

"Jaken, shut up." I ordered as he nodded. Yuki stirred a bit as she tighten her grip on something that she's holding. I didn't see it earlier since it was dark outside but what it is? I walk inside my room and place her down on the futon. Then I take the book out of her hand slowly before pulling the blankets over her body.

Damn...I shouldn't have marked her so soon. Restraining myself right now is...quite impossible. 

Using all my self control, I look away from Yuki and pay more attention to the book itself. Looks like she tried to entertain herself by reading but fell asleep in process just like always. I walk over to my desk, sat down and opened the book. After flipping through a few pages, I got a bit disgusted? 

Why does Yuki have a book about mating and stuff when she don't even read? No...It's not hers. It reeks strongly of Mother's scent.

.....

~Yuki's POV~

I squint my eyes at the amount of sunlight coming through the window. I turned to my side and pull the blanket over my head to block out the sunlight. Wait...blanket...yes...I'm sleeping in a bed...yes. I sat up quickly, throwing the blanket off my upper body and held my head.

"Ow....blood rush, stupid blood rush..." I groaned in pain. "I thought I was in a tree...Was I dreaming?"

"No, you send the entire castle into panic by hiding up in the tree." I look over to my side and saw a beyond piss off Sesshomaru. The calmer his expression is, the angrier and more piss off he is.

I bet I'm in a crap load of trouble right now.

"I didn't mean to. I must've fallen asleep in the tree." I said, trying to remember what happened before I had fallen asleep. Let's see, Kimi gave me a book, I climbed up a tree to read it, but after reading just a few pages, I eventually got bored and fell asleep...I think.

"How many times do I have to tell you to not be so reckless?!" He shouted. I winced at how loud he actually is shouting at me right now since he is right beside me. Without giving me a chance a speak, he added, "And why are you reading such a disgusting book?!" 

He threw the book that Kimi had given me on the floor right next to me, then slam his hand on it. I jumped from his sudden actions. I've NEVER seen him this angry or piss off before. Was the book that bad or did I seriously made him worry too much?

"I'm sorry. I just tend to sleep whenever I open a book but I haven't open a book in a long time so I thought I probably won't fall asleep. I didn't think I was going to fall asleep trying to read it. Is the book really disgusting? I skipped from page to page since I didn't understand much of what it's talking about." I ask him, looking at the floor instead of him as I find it hard to swallow a lump in my throat.

"Really disgusting? It's beyond the word disgusting, what made you want to pick it up to begin with?! Are you trying to make me angry?!"

I grip the sleeves of my kimono tightly. This is probably the first time he's ever raised his voice at me. I've seen him done it before, but just not me though.

"I didn't pick it up...'Mother' just gave it to me yesterday after asking me a bunch of random questions. She said I need to know about the things that's written in the book." I said, but it came out as a whisper instead. I don't like this side of Sesshomaru that I'm actually scare of.

"So asking me whether or not you should read it is that hard? I'm your mate and husband, Yuki, not my Mother!! You won't listen to me yet you'll listen to Mother?!" He yelled. I took a deep breathe slowly, holding back the tears that's threatening to fall any second from now. "Just stop acting stupid...and get out of my sight for now. Go to your room and don't leave without my permission for the day."

"I'm sorry for acting stupid, okay? It's not like I'm acting, I know I am stupid and childish, it's how I am...I don't even like to pick up a book no matter how Aiko tried to teach me things. I just... I..." I paused. I what? Yeah, I know I hate to read and study, that's why I don't understand many things that anyone's talking about most of the time nor do I care. Heck, I didn't even think I was going to marry someone! I never wanted to be smart to begin with!

"I'm sorry for being supid." I muttered as I ran out the room. I ran straight to my room, slam the door shut as I sat down in the farthest corner of the room and hugged my knee as the tears that I've been holding starts to escape down my cheeks. I buried my face in my arms.

"Idiot, stupid, dummy, fool, dork, dolt. I...must be really stupid... Maybe Mina was right...I'm not fit for Sesshomaru... I want to go home, where that idiot brother of mine won't say anything to me even if I end up falling asleep in a tree or outside my room. Or even picking up a random book about a bunch of weird topics. I want to go home...But then again, I don't know the direction home since I came here in a carriage." I mumbled softly to myself as I try to stop crying. 

Maybe it would've been better if I refused to believe that I actually did fell in love with Sesshomaru? It probably would be better if Aiko and I switch places. She's much smarter and more elegant than I am. Compared to Aiko, I'm more or less like an immature child. I really hate myself...Why am I even born to begin with? I'm better off dead then alive. Everyone would be happier if it was me who died instead of Mother. Umi won't hate me as much if I was the one who died that day. Life is really unfair.