This morning I woke up in a good mood, great mood in fact. The events of last night played continuously around in my head as I dried my hair.

The sounds, the faces made and the pleasure we felt. I could feel myself shiver as I went through every step of last night's events.

I topped, I fucking topped for the very first time. And it was Damien whom I had my first experience with, the very person who dominated me and every ounce of my life. When I heard the words come from his mouth I didn’t quite know what to think, it had confused me to no end, it was probably the last thing I ever thought would come from his mouth. That very sentence caused pleasure to spread through my whole body, my dick had never gotten so hard so fast.

How long had they talked about it, how long had they wanted to experience this with me?

At first it had gone the way I expected it to, me following my doms every command as I prepped him. But the more into it I got, the longer I let myself relax, it was as if something came over me.

I felt different, I felt stronger.

I had always submitted to my mates when we fucked, let myself be guided by them and taken down the path of unimaginable pleasure.

But when I saw Damien laying there, eyes watering, body tense and sweaty. The neediest sounds rippling out from his lips, I could no longer control myself.

My natural self, my primal being as an Alpha arose to the surface like I was on the hunt, like I was ready to pounce on my prey. And when Damien's desperate eyes met mine, all I wanted to do was devour every inch of him till there was nothing left to take.

I wanted to make him mine.

This was the Alpha side to me that I haven't had the chance to let go, that I hadn't explored outside of hunting and training. And when it happened I realised it was something I needed, something we were going to have to explore.

Sure my Alpha side was let out when I hunted or when I attended pack training, but I needed to let it out more with my mates.

And I think they would agree too.

"You're taking an awful long time with those shirt buttons sweetheart." Matt's sultry voice found my ears as he made his way into our room.

"I wanted to look nice daddy, since it's my first time fully out of the pack in a while." My eyes stayed glued to him as he walked over to me, kneeling down until we were face to face. Last night's actions were not only filled with Damien's submission, but Matt's complete control over me too.

I may have taken charge of Damien last night but Matt had me in his hold, and he used me exactly how he wanted.

"Did you enjoy last night angel?"

More than anything.

"Yes daddy, I really did." I couldn't stop myself from staring into his eyes as he gazed at me, my body suddenly craving his very touch.

"Already needy, sweetheart? But you had so much last night already?"

His hands travel up my inner thighs in slow movements as they got closer and closer to my growing cock. Last night was plentiful, but I want more, I need more.

"Please daddy!"

Just one touch, that's all I needed. I was close, I just needed a nudge and I'd be satisfied. But he removed his hand before I could beg any further, instead his hands placed either side of my hips as he buried his nose into my neck.

"Daddy?" I felt his tongue slip out and trace my mark, my body shivered all over. This teasing was torturous, Matt refused to touch me where I needed it most but instead is assaulting my neck.

"You smell delicious sweetheart, makes my mouth water."

"What does daddy?" Getting words out was proving more difficult with the more pressure he applied to my weak spot.

"Your blood, with your heart beating faster your blood runs quicker. It's aroma has coated you dear mate."

I wince as a sharp point makes contact with my skin, I feel it trace the outline of my mark, it annalise's my flesh without penetration. It didn't need to as it had already made its acquaintance months ago.

"Why don't you and daddy ever feed off of me?" The words came out of nowhere, surprising me as much as they did Matt. He retreated from my neck and stared at me, a rather shocked expression lacing his face.

"I don't understand?"

"You both fed on me when we mated, but never again after that. Why?"

Did they not like it? Did my blood not taste good enough, or maybe it didn't fill them…

"Sweetheart slow your thoughts before they run away with you. Now let me explain."

He lifted me from the bed and into his arms, seating me into his lap before I could mutter another word. I let myself sink into his hold when his arms tighten around me.

"Let me explain Xander, as there are a few reasons why." His eyes danced around the features on my face, he was stalling for time or… trying to find the right words to say. I place my hand on his cheek to settle him and his eyes finally settle on my own.

"I'm listening."

I don't miss the smile that graces his lips.

"Good boy. As I've said there are a few reasons why. Firstly is the matter of our species, although nowadays its become more coming for mates to be mixed for centuries it hasn't been that way. Us Vampires have always fed from each other as mates and those of us without mates usually feed from a fellow vampire or from a human."

I was starting to think I was one of the less knowledgeable Alphas in our world.

"Even though Damien and I fed from you when we mated, it isn't custom for a werewolf to give blood to a vampire. And because of that we didn't want to overwhelm you, you've already adjusted to so much change that perhaps it would've been too much to take on."

I understand that, I understand where he's coming from but…

"Daddy…"

"Yes angel?"

"... I understand where you're coming from and I appreciate it, but your happiness is important to me too and if feeding from me will make you both happy then I'm happy."

Matt's face was one of surprise as he just stared at me, for a while he didn't say anything, just looking at me again and again.

"Do you really mean that Xander?"

I was a bit surprised at his reaction, did he think I wouldn't want him to be happy, for both of them to be happy?

"Of course I do, your happiness means the world to me."

Matt pulled me into him and held me tight. "You've a heart of gold sweetheart, thank you." he pulled back to give me a sweet kiss, I savoured the faint taste of mint.

"You should finish getting ready, Damien will be back soon and we'll head out then." My body tensed slightly when Matt mentioned going out. We were heading into one of the villages closest to the pack as a way to break me out of my fear… and we weren't bringing Luca with us either. "Sweetheart relax, your parents are going to take good care of Luca and we're going to enjoy ourselves."

His lips turned up into a gentle smile, a smile that soothed every nerve and shake my body kept producing recently. "I know daddy, sorry."

"It's alright sweetheart, finish getting dressed and I'll see you downstairs. Unless you want me to dress you?" he said slyly and I didn't miss the smirk he had displayed on his face.

"I-I can get dressed by myself, I'll be down in a bit." I say trying to hide the blush I could feel crawling up my cheeks.

"Very well." He smiled, leaving the room. I finished getting dressed as I stood in front of the mirror.

I'd be alright, I'll have my mates with me and Luca will be safe and sound here. I hope.

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"Does it really take this long to get to the village, the last time I went it only took me twenty minutes." I didn't miss the glance Matt and Damien made to each other as they sat in the front seats. We'd been driving for over thirty minutes.

"We're going to a different village Xander, Redpine to be exact." Damien said as he looked back at me with a soft smile.

My eyes felt like they'd bulged out of my skull. Why didn't they say we were going to Redpine, I had no objections to it but it was very far away.

"We didn't tell you baby because… well we're staying the weekend."

"What!" Staying the weekend, staying the fucking weekend.

"Xander calm down-" Matt tried to speak but I cut him off.

"I can't spend the weekend. I have a pack to run, I have my duties and I have a newborn to take care of. I can't just go away!"

"XANDER!" I trembled ever so slightly and sank back into my seat, Matt raising his voice came as a shock to me.

"I'm sorry daddy." Why do I always freak out so quickly? I should've just let them speak, goddess I'm so-

"Baby boy, I need you to do me a favour and slow your thoughts okay?" Damien tried to sooth me but it was Matt I annoyed, not him. "We're not mad at you, are we brother?"

Matt lets out a deep sigh and pulls the car into the side of the road. Once we were fully in park he turned around to look at me fully, his face consumed with guilt.

"Xander you have nothing to apologise for, it's me who should be apologising. I shouldn't have roared at you the way I did but you were losing yourself in a panic. I know that doesn't excuse it."

"I shouldn't have jumped to the defence, I'm sure you have an explanation for lying to me."

I wasn't happy about it. I won't lie, but they would never do anything to upset me intentionally.

"We do, you need more than a day away from the pack and responsibilities to get yourself used to leaving the pack. Staying away together will be a nice change." That does sound nice, spending more time together, we didn't always get to do that. "Plus we would've had to drag you out if you knew where we were really going."

Okay maybe that's true, it would've taken them a lot more convincing to have even gotten me in the car.

"So what do you say, shall we continue our journey? If we leave now we might make it as before the sun starts setting."

They looked really happy, I liked seeing them excited like this, it made me happy.

I nodded my head slowly and sat up, "Ye, let's go."

"Good."

The drum of the engine started again as we moved back onto the main road. I would give this a go, I'd enjoy myself and the time spent with my mates. But something was amiss.

"I never packed a bag?"

"Nothing to worry about pumpkin, Matt packed you a bag this morning before you woke up." Damien said and they both chuckled to themselves.

Goddess my mates were sneaky.