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Impending End

"—yung?"

"H-Huh?"

"I've been calling your name for the past minute, are you alright?" Jimin worriedly asked the startled boy right in front of him. "You should shower next if you want us to leave early."

Taehyung gently shook his head and removed the towel from his shoulder. "Jimin I think you should join your mother to go shopping. I don't think I can celebrate with you for tonight."

"Why?" Jimin casually asked to not sound like a kid who didn't get what he wanted. "That's not a good thing to wrap up your birthday party. Are you tired?"

"I just need to think about... things." Taehyung sighed. He knew he can't go somewhere and have fun with his conscience striking his mind.

"Okay, I understand." Jimin nodded and grabbed a shirt from his closet while opening his phone to contact his mother. "I'll help my mom and just watch the fireworks with you tomorrow, is that okay?"

"Of course."

Once Jimin was out of sight, Taehyung locked the door and plopped down on his bed and hugged his pillow that he always kept close.

He raised his wrists up and quickly removed the brand new watch Jimin gave.

"What was I thinking?" he told himself as he looked for something on his bedside drawer.

It was the bracelet Jungkook gave.

"K-Kookie..." he tried to call out to nobody. The instant he said his past lover's name, unstoppable tears started to fall down from his eyes. "I swore to never hurt you even though you've hurt me a lot of times unintentionally, just because you only love and attention. But looking at our situation right now, I am intentionally breaking your heart."

Taehyung cried himself to sleep that night. But this time, not because of Jungkook. But because of his own actions that he wanted to fix.

-

The next morning, everyone at the dormitory was busy preparing for the countdown for new years eve.

Some students and workers left to spend the holidays with their loved ones, while the remaining decided to put up a fireworks show, just as Jimin said, at 12:00 am for them to enjoy.

Barbecues and delicious dishes will be served. And because majority of the students residing in the dormitory are legal, the dorm eating area even opened a small bar and karaokes.

Everybody was cleaning their respective rooms while the others were helping out the staffs to prepare and clean the lobby area.

Though some students stayed in their beds to sleep, and one of those 'students' is Taehyung.

Taehyung just woke up after hearing a phone call.

It was from Jimin who didn't return last night because he was out with his mother.

As he answered the call, he stayed in his room trying to was his face to reduce the redness of his swollen eye, caused by crying all night.

"Morning, Taehyung! I assure you, tonight is going to be fun." Jimin's voice can be heard from the other end of his phone on loud speaker.

"What time will you be returning?" Taehyung asked, he was worried. What if the other saw his eye condition?

"Hmm around a few hours before midnight. I won't forget my promise with you, so I'll look for you the whole night— or day since that's probably twelve am pass."

"Okay. I wish you a safe travel."

After saying good byes to each other, the call ended.

"1:15 PM." Taehyung read the clock on the upper side of his phone and groaned. "I woke up really late, I should prepare for tonight."

-

8:17 PM

The loud party music dominated the whole dormitory and gave an energetic vibe.

"Taehyung! Let's eat lots, it's all free!" Jin, who rarely appeared in the dormitory, came this time specifically because of all the food free for the students living here and for their guests.

"Jin hyung, you don't live here. Is it okay for you to eat that much?" Taehyung questioned after seeing two plates filled with various dishes, one on each of Seokjin's hands.

"They know me so it's okay." Jin smiled and gave Taehyung one of the plates he was holding so he could grab some bottled soda with his free hand on the table. "Get your food too. Let's eat together."

The younger shook his head as a no and got himself a small bottle of water instead.

"Jimin is not here yet, I don't want to be full or else I couldn't eat much later when he comes back." he explained.

"Well I can eat another round of dishes later." Jin proudly smiled, his talent was to eat lots without having a stomach ache. "I won't force you to eat if you don't want to, just join me while I eat at the garden tables outside.."

9:02 PM

For the nth time, Taehyung looked at his phone to see if he has any new messages, and to his disappointment, there weren't any.

"Are you waiting for a call?" Jin asked after shoving another spoonful of rice into his mouth.

"I'm waiting for Jiminie. I have to tell him something." 'I can't stay by his side the whole night, I have to find Jungkook.' he thought the rest.

"While waiting, do you want to watch a movie? They're playing an drama action movie at the big screen of the lobby area."

Having no other thing to do, Taehyung agreed to Seojin's pleads and together, they watched the movie along with some students.

11:15

After the credits rolled, Taehyung couldn't help but to look around and sigh.

"It's almost midnight—"

Ring.

His statement was interrupted when his phone started buzzing as a sign somebody left a text. He read it in his mind.

"Tae, I'm stuck on a traffic, mom wanted me to visit Busan for a while this afternoon. I'm still on the way there and I think it would take me more than half an hour... I don't think I can't reach the midnight in time. But don't worry! At two o'clock this morning there's another fireworks show and I'm sure I can watch that with you. :)"

"Jin hyung—"

"Wow, I bet the traffic is really long this late." unknowingly to him, Seokjin was already reading Jimin's text from his back as well.

"What time do you think will he be back?" Taehyung asked.

"Around 12:30 or 1:00 pm I think. Let's just watch the encore fireworks show." Seokjin requested as he released a yawn. "I think I'm sleepy after eating a lot. Can I sleep in your room?"

"O-Okay. Here's the key." Taehyung nodded and gave the keys to the older.

"Don't drink any alcohol if you're not with someone, okay? Just juice and soda." Jin reminded once again before going to the direction of the elevator.

Now that he's all alone, and knowing Jimin wouldn't be back until past midnight, he has to do another agenda of his.

And that is to find and have a talk with Jungkook.

-

11:55 PM

Five more minutes.

It's been more than thirty minutes since I decided to look for Jungkook. I couldn't find him anywhere, he's probably out having fun with his friends.

The hallways upstairs were empty, probably because the ones residing here are on the lobby or garden area.

The loud booming sounds of the fireworks didn't amuse me, looks like this new year is going to be sad for me.

The elevator stopped at the floor of his dorm room, he couldn't possibly be here, right?

My thoughts were proven wrong when I saw a familiar figure standing outside on this floor's balcony.

As always, just seeing his back made my heart pound.

This was the guy I fell in love with.

With wobbly feet, I jogged to where he was. I couldn't help but to smile when he looked back at me.

"H-Hello..." he cutely stammered. "A-Are you looking for someone?"

I was looking for you.

"Jungkook..." I said trying to stop my tears. "W-Why did you lie about your family status?"

He turned his whole body around and looked at me in shock. "What did you know about me?"

I looked at his features. Even though he was sometimes mean and he made me cry a lot of times. That doesn't change the fact that he's one of the reasons why I smile.

His childish actions, his clingy and possessive personalities, I understand now.

Jungkook only wanted love and attention. He just tried to acquire it in a selfish way.

It made me realize, Jungkook was a mysterious person who hides a lot of secrets. I only knew half of him, and I want to know the other half.

11:57 PM

"How can I leave you knowing that I am your family?" I couldn't help it, I failed. My tears were unstoppable.

"Tae..."

In an instant, his lips started shaking and he began to tear up too.

"I don't want you to know and leave me just because of that." he explained. "Please don't cry right in front of me, I'm hurting."

"Stop being a coward!" I softly shouted. "Why are you always concerned and worried about how other people think? You can filter those who really care for you if you're just honest with yourself."

Jungkook looked away into the sky as he wiped the tears forming in his eyes. "Nobody taught me how to love myself... that's why I always had to find it with others."

I turned my palms into fists as I tried to think of a reply. It took me a few seconds before I can even start speaking.

"About your letter, I need to correct some things."

"M-My grammar?" he innocently asked.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling. This guy, if only he knew how much he made me happy.

"Jungkook. being distant and away from you wouldn't grant me happiness." I looked down because of how cheeky my next line was. "You are my happiness."

I looked at him straight in the eye after that. His eyes were wide and he looked like he wanted to say something, but he was speechless.

"One more thing." I cleared my throat before continuing. "We couldn't be friends."

"W-Why?" Jungkook asked as he started shaking from where he stood.

11:58 PM

"I couldn't love a friend." I confessed with the stars and the moon outside as the witness.

I can't stop myself anymore.

I ran to his direction and gave him a warm kiss on the lips.

"I-I never stopped loving you." I whispered as I leaned on his shoulder, feeling his warmth.

It was just a few days, but my separation from him felt like forever.

"H-Hyung..." Jungkook buried his face on my hair and rubbed circles behind my back. "D-Don't force yourself to have feelings for me just because you knew about my family status or you read the letter I wrote."

I shook my head lightly and hugged him tighter on the waist. "Frankly, I just wanted to be treated better because that is what I think I deserve. Looking at it this way, I guess I'm a bit selfish too."

11:59 PM

"No hyung. You deserve to be treated better. And if I'm not the right person to—"

"Kookie." I cut his words off as I pulled away slightly without breaking the hug to look straight in his eyes once more. "I love you, and is it wrong for me to believe that person could be you?"

He removed his hands from my waist and held my cheeks to pull me into his face.

I closed my eyes and let his lips lock with mine. The kiss was sweet, gentle and very meaningful.

Gosh, I missed his kisses so much. It's okay for me if we stayed like this for a long time.

"Why don't you go down there and celebrate with the others? It's almost midni— whoa, are you two kissing?!"

Quickly, I pulled away from Jungkook's body and turned around to see who it was.

It was that sanitation worker in this floor. The same one I asked where Jungkook a long time ago.

He squinted his eyes as he looked at us, as if he was trying to remember our names to give us a scolding.

I opened my mouth to start explaining, but only incoherent sounds went out. This was the first time we got caught while kissing, I don't know how will we weasel our way out of this situation.

I looked at Jungkook who didn't even look nervous. I looked down to see him holding my hand and tangling his fingers with mine as he released a small chuckle.

12:00 PM

"Sorry, about that. I just missed my boyfriend so much." he told the man out loud.

In shock, I looked at him and blushed.

Did I hear that correctly?

"J-Jungkook did you—"

I was left unfinished after I heard loud fireworks exploded in the sky, signaling it was already 12:00 in the morning.

From here you can hear the loud cheers of the people down below greeting each other a 'happy new year.'

"Oh, I'll give you two privacy then! Enjoy the fireworks!" the man shouted so his words can be heard as he left.

I was still stunned. I didn't expect that to happen.

"Happy new year, Taehyung. I love you." Jungkook greeted while giving me another kiss on the cheek and draping his arm over my shoulder.

"H-Happy new year... I-I love you too but..." I greeted back. "D-Did you just tell the man t-that w-were, that I'm y-your..."

"Are you not?" he asked as he flashed an innocent pout. "Of course I wouldn't forget about my promise."

I leaned against the balcony and smiled at the fireworks show.

"Of course, I am."

Now that everything is okay and Jungkook and I are back together, I couldn't ask for anything more.

Everything is going to be fine.

Right?

( of first half? )

► no. ( should we end this here? )

► yes. ( should we know more about what would happen to their relationship? )

[ this was the longest chapter so far lol ]i'm not really good at fluff so sorry if that was cheeky haha. but how was it?

please remember answer inline on the yes or no above :')

random question: how did you find this book and what can you say about it?

i tried to follow mainstream covers lmao