december 5th.

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As nervous as I was feeling, I was prepared for today. Finally, I was going to see Isaiah for the first time. Shit, I didn't even know what to wear. We ended up texting all night and things just seemed so right. There's hope here and I'm definitely going to keep going after it. We decided on starting things over again, it's for the better anyways.

Right when I finished flat ironing my hair, I felt a rush of throw up at the back of my throat. I accidentally dropped the flat iron onto the pink plush rug and ran into the bathroom — heading straight for the toilet. I emptied out the pancakes and grits I had ate for breakfast. Once I was finished I walked to the sink and brushed my teeth before looking in the mirror. Pregnancy was amazing but at the same time it was draining. It felt like all I do is throw up constantly. And, that's what I hate the most.

Walking back into my bedroom, I picked up the flat iron that had burned the rug. "Fuck, I'ma have to just get a new one." I shrugged, unplugging it and placing it back down on the black towel. "Now what to wear." I sighed, rumbling through the full sized closet.

Ten minutes into looking for something, I just decided on a basic black sundress. With some matching sandals of course. I would've did more but, I don't think that's necessary. I grabbed my phone from my dresser and went to his contact.

TWO RECIPIENTS.

💙

hey, i'm omw to greystone.

DELIVERED.

🤤

u late. been waiting on you for a whole hour girl. 🤦🏽‍♂️

💙

sorry. your child ain't wanna let me get ready in peace. IM COMING!

DELIVERED

𝟷𝟸𝟷𝟻𝙿𝙼

After that long ass ride to say I was tired was an understatement. I was exhausted and I haven't even did anything yet. Stepping out of the car I quickly made my way into the restaurant. From the side I could see Isaiah sitting at a table all alone. I'm not sure why but, seeing his face again in person made me want to run out. It's not like the last time we seen each other ended on a good note, we both had anger in our eyes. That's the last thing I remember. It's stuck with me for two months.

Swallowing the lump in my throat, I walked over to him with a smile on my face. "Hey."

He looked up at me and returned the smile, standing from his seat he embraced me in a hug. "Hey, baby. I've missed you two so much."

We pulled away from the hug and I sat from across of him. "I missed you too. What's been upAnything new"

"Remember I told you I got signed yesterdayLater on tonight I'ma actually go to the studio and put some shit out. See how people respond to it and shit."

"Ahh, that's amazing. I know how much you love rapping, I remember the first time I heard you spit some bars. That was our first date."

He chuckled. "Yeah, I remember that. You threatened me and had an attitude that whole night. Shit was smooth then."

"And then a couple weeks later I end up pregnant. You think we were moving too fastI think we really should've used protection constantly until we really started to know each other."

"Oh yeah, we definitely was. Everything just happened in the heat of the moment but now things are getting fixed. We have a child to raise and we'll be doing that together, ain't nothing ever gone come in between us."

"You say all of this now." I sighed. "Are you sure about thisYou really done with all them other bitches"

He reached over the table and grabbed onto my hand, looking me dead in the eyes. "Yes, baby. I'm sure. I'm done with all those other girls, you the only one I'ma ever need and more."

"Okay. I believe you."

There's those words again. Those words that always find me in trouble someway, somehow. Hopefully things are on the start to being different.

♡♡♡

december 18th

𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐙𝐙𝐘

saweetie, nickiminaj and others.

𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐀_𝐈𝐙𝐙𝐘: babygirl. 💙

𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴𝙳𝙾𝙼𝙾delete this, izzy!! 🙄

𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐀_𝐈𝐙𝐙𝐘: @𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍𝚘𝚖𝚘 shut up, you look gorgeous here.

𝙳𝚄𝙼𝙱𝚆𝚄𝙽𝟷 — okay but who said she could have my man???

𝙱𝙰𝙽𝙳𝙷𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙰_𝙹𝚄𝙶𝙶𝟷 — aight bro. back to that original thing! 🤞🏾

𝙰𝙻𝙴𝚇𝙸𝚂𝚂𝙺𝚈 — LMFAO, ok.

𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃𝐎𝐌𝐎: @𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚡𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚔𝚢 we got a problem babe? 👀 it can get solved QUICK!

𝙰𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙷𝙾 — thought u was keeping her a secret. 🤔

𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃𝐎𝐌𝐎: @𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚑𝚘 mind your business bitch.

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Domonique and I been with each other on the low. It was for the sake of her father not finding out we were together. Plus she she said she didn't want to be in the spotlight of me being an official rapper. So, I had to be very careful with everything I was doing. Although, I have slipped up and posted her sometimes. Besides all that we finally had some time to spend together today.

"IZZYYYYYYStop, you bout to make me pee on myself" She screamed in between laughs, trying to catch her breath.

I kept tickling her until I felt like she had enough. "Aight, aight. I'm done, I don't need you wetting the bed up."

"Shut upAnyways, we you shooting the video for That's the only shit I been hearing on the radio and you only released that shit last week."

"Soon, don't worry about that though. We gotta figure out how this Christmas shit gon' work."

"Well since I'm doing the early gender reveal on Christmas Eve, why don't we just go out of townWhere nobody knows us and we can get some privacy"

I nodded. "We can definitely do that ma. Anywhere you wanna go, we going and I mean that shit."

"Ah, Ah. What I tell youWe're taking things slow again, rememberSo, don't be saying none of that just yet."

"You be ruining all my fun but, you right we taking things slow." I agreed with her, moving closer to her on the bed.

She sat herself up and just stared at me. "You so fucking fine, yo." She blurted out.

I laughed. "Thanks, baby."

"You know what... we might have to break the taking things slow rule for right now."

"And why is that"

"I want some dick."

The way she said it just made me laugh, it was so straightforward. "Seriously

"I'm so serious. Ain't nothing else can happen, I'm already pregnant."

"You right. Bring that ass over here."