Have you ever get tired of chasing? Chasing train, chasing sales, chasing cat, chasing time... a dream, a career, friendship... love?

Well, I do.

And I give up.

I'm not just on the verge of giving up, or surrendering everything to the universe to give my heart's desire.

I am at the bottom pit, the end of the line or the road or whatever you call it. I'm on my limits now wherein, I don't give a fuck anymore.

All my life, I kept on running, chasing this and that and what I get in return?

One word... heartache.

They say if you want something, never give up. Well, that's actually true. If you want something, fight for it. Keep moving forward, never surrender, never give up until you reach all your dreams.

But what if you're chasing something's not for you? Should you still try harder? You will just waste all your energy, your effort, your time. For what? For nothing.

It may not agree with a lot, but, this is the lesson I learned the hard way, the most painful way that almost shattered my heart, my soul, my everything.

I used to believe in fairytales. Love at first sight, heart throbbing upon meeting the man you think you prayed for and the universe had given you.

I chased love. Period.

Isn't it the reason I have written love story so well. Wherein, anyone who reads it, could fall in love with my characters. It is because, it's my frustration to feel that kind of love in real life.

But I was all wrong.

It gave me the advantage of creating a fulfilling fictional love story however, and I am thankful for that. But in real life, it drained my spirit.

I could say, I eat heartache for breakfast.

Guess what I had learned.

Just surrender. Never ever chase something you are obsessed with.

Let go!

Now, I do. I'm letting go. I'm giving up.

I dreamt of having a great career that could lead me to the highest level of my self-acrualization. I dreamt of luxurious things I wished I possessed since I am not borned rich. I dreamt of meeting my soulmate which had lead me to multiple heartache.

I thought it was worth fighting for, but now, I realized it wasn't. And I'd already accepted my fate. I just wanted to let go, and let things unfold itself.

So this book, is my journey of singleness wherein I'm throwing to the garbage can all of my wants, my obsession and let the universe do the did.