"Hello, Im Damien Zander jones. First off Rhea is not my friend she's my girlfriend and the love of my life" I look down at my hands and closed my eyes tightly before I spoke my next words.

"To tell the truth I got no idea what to say or do because one, there is no words to express how I feel and two, I'm supposed to be giving my vows to her at this alter not her eulogy." I felt the sympathetic stares and I regret accepting this. Why the hell am I even doing this?

Oh yeah, that's what Rhea would have wanted. This is what everyone had told me and I for a fact know that my angel wouldn't force me into something I don't want to do.

"So, I'm going to say something that Rhea would've wanted you all to hear." I take a look at the people gathered in this chapel. The front row seats were taken by her father, mother, John, Mason and Jared.

On the other side was taken by my mother, Jason, Emma and Jennifer. My eyes went right back to the empty benches at the back. I could see the doors of the chapel open and along with a bright light came in the love of my life, wearing her little blue dress; the exact same dress I saw her in that first night. She had that bright and beautiful smile that always dropped me down to my knees. She sat on the bench, her smile never faltering and her beautiful brown eyes never moving away from mine.

"Rhea always saw life as a tunnel. She told that the moment we were born we were put into this dark tunnel given nothing but just a lighted candle. Unlike us, Rhea's flame ran out at a young age and she walked in that dark tunnel with no one by her side. what we should all appreciate is that she never gave up. She walked despite the pain and regret until her flame was lit up again" I felt the tears collecting in my eyes. My mother gave me a comforting look. Tears flowing down her cheeks and Jason had his head bent down. Emma and Jennifer had looked miserable... we all did. All of them had been grieving in their own way.

Even, Gillian made an appearance, for the first time. I just wish it was in a different circumstance.

I spent the last few days in our room. Smelling and feeling her existence inbetween those four walls. Reading every page of her annotated poetry books, staring into her candles until the fire burn out and the wax melts, completely and hugging her pillow until my tears damp it and I change the cover and spray her perfume on it, again.

I wouldn't call this grieving because I'm not even close to grieve the love of my life and a part of me tells that I never will.

I might be giving her eulogy but she's not dead.

Not for me.

"She had an amazing few months. Few months until she finally did see the light at the end of the tunnel. And I. Well, I will walk in mine until I see the light because I know at the end of my tunnel Lia would be standing there for me with open arms." I finish it off and got down from the altar not sparing a single glance at white coffin.

I walk to that exact seat in the back to see my Lia not there anymore and that was the truth.

She was in fact was really gone from this world but I know she will live in my heart. I am going to make her a home in here.

My angel will always have a place in my heart.

After all, it is in fact hers. Always was and always will.

The father said a prayer and everyone went up to pay their respects. I just sat at the bench and stared at her coffin. This was the first time since being in this place that I saw her coffin.

I didn't feel the time fly by and to see that everyone had gone out of the chapel which only left me and Rhea.

I felt someone take the seat beside me but I didn't look to see who it was.

"I know I'm the last person you want to see right now," she said and it was true.

"I just want to give you something and tell you a thing too" she looked at me but I know I couldn't look back so I kept my stare at the white box, which will be bestowed to the ground in any moment.

"Rhea wore this necklace since Noah passed away; it was his. I know I was a horrible mother, especially after his passing but I didn't take this necklace away from her" she dropped the necklace to my hand and I looked down at the simple silver necklace. Our house key hung on it and my chest ached.

"I think you should have it. That's something Rhea would want too." I close my hand and held the necklace tightly.

she just sat there in silence until she spoke again, "Once when Rhea was thirteen she was very rebellious when I told her she cannot meet you. Not because I didn't want her to, because I knew that her father wouldn't leave her be if he got to know that his daughter is going to see a boy every single day. I told her she can not meet you and she threw a whole fight with me. I asked her, 'You would risk your life for this boy?' " Ella says and I looked back at her, anticipated for her answer.

"she said, 'I would die for him,' and she did."

she did.

(AUTHOR'S NOTE IN THE NEXT PART)