I was sleeping at Gwen shaws tonight. We were best friends because she was one of the few people who was sweet to me.

Finney was sort of mean to me so on Fridays I dreaded going to her house. It was a love hate relationship. Some days he was so nice and other days he was an asshole

Gwen had fell asleep early last night so I decided to spend the night writing in my diary

Dear diary,

I love finney shaw. He's such a dick but I can't help it. My head says no but my heart says yes. I want him but I knew it's wrong. I want what I can't have.

That's all I wrote. I did love him. I really did. He didn't love me though

He did. He loved everything about her. Her eye bags in the morning, her messy hair, the way her nightdress was low at the top exposing a small bit of her breast.

I walked into the kitchen, tired. Gwen's dad was out of town so we had the house to ourselves. Well finney was there.

Finney- morning

Gwen- good your finally up

I was only thinking about the fact finney spoke to me. What was going on

Gwen- do you want toast or cereal?

Y/n- Gwen, you know I don't eat breakfast

Gwen- right sorry

She gave me a sympathetic look.

Y/n- can I have a shower?

Gwen- sure, just shout if you need anything

I went to the bathroom and ran a warm bath. I let my whole body submerge into the water, enjoying the feeling of it.

My peace was interrupted by a knock on the door

Y/n- Gwen you can come in

Gwen walked in, scared to tell me something

Gwen- I'm really sorry

Y/n- what happened?

Gwen- finney saw your diary

Y/n- oh it's ok-

I remembered what I wrote last night

Y/n- shit!

Gwen- it's not that bad

Y/n- what is he doing?

Gwen- do you want me to tell you

Y/n- yes

Gwen- he's on the phone with Robin telling him everything

I wanted to drown. How would I recover

I dried off and get dressed. I went to leave the shaw household

Finney- wait

Y/n- yeah?

Finney- do you really want me ?

Y/n- ... I- you know what fuck it, yes

He smiled and pulled me close to him

Finney- I've wanted you too for a long time, I just thought it might hurt gweny

Y/n- Gwen is my best friend, you don't think I asked her before deciding I had a crush on you

He laughed

Y/n- she said it was fine, that we were meant to be but I don't know I think you and Donna are meant to be

Finney- Donna? No way, we're meant to be. I want to say this now in case you know-

Y/n- the grabber gets you

Finney- yeah, if he does, just know I love you

He kissed my cheek. I smiled and left

Weeks later, finney shaw went missing. I felt so stupid. I should've known it would happen.

She didn't know it yet but she was the reason he kept fighting against the grabber. The thought of her in his arms motivated him to get out, to be with her