"We need to have a serious talk" I said

"What's wrong darling? Tell us about it"

"Do you promise to support me no matter what I tell you right now?"

"Me and your dad will always be by your side honey. Tell me what's wrong"

She was smiling, which hurt me even more. My heart was aching.

I didn't know how to tell them. My mind scrolled through all the different answers I could give her. Should I just tell her directly? Should I make a whole speech before I tell her? Should I just lie? No.. I can't lie. This is the right time.

"I'm attracted to men"

I couldn't look her, or my father in the eyes. I just sat there, eyes glued to the table. A tear fell down from my face. I heard it hit the table. Yeah, that's how quiet it was.

I waited for an answer. I waited for what felt like an hour, though it was most likely not over two minutes. My face was swelling up and turning red already. I tried my hardest not to completely break down in front of them. They were aware I wasn't lying to them. I never cried in front of them, so they knew I was serious. I sat there looking down at the table and my half eaten pancake until I decided to look up at my mothers face.

She was glaring at me with red, tear filled eyes. It's been so long since I've seen that face. I remember she gave me that look more often when I was younger. -If I stole candy, or swore. This time it was worse. She looked like she wanted to kill me, or at least hurt me. I gazed over at my dad who was shaking his head in disappointment.

"This is what we were scared of" Dad said.

I just sat there. Staring down at my even more depressing looking pancake.

"Go to your room. Now!" My dad practicality screamed.

I stood up from my chair, took one last look at my mom who was absolutely breaking down, and went up the stairs.

My hands were shaking a lot more than what they did earlier. I locked my door and sat down on my bed. Fuck.. What am I going to do now? I'm a disappointment.

A fucking disappointment.

I laid down in my bed staring up at the ceiling. I just stared, head empty for 10 minutes. I got my phone and called Jisung. He picked up immediately.

"Heyy Lix! Have you told them yet?" Jisung asked me.

I couldn't open my mouth. My voice would be completely fucked up, and he would hear me crying. So I just kept quiet, not giving him an answer.

"Hello? Are you there lix?"

I let out a small sniffing sound that gave away my crying.

He went quiet for a second.

"I'm sorry Felix.. I don't know what to say, do you want to talk about it?"

That's when I broke down.

I tried telling him what happened, but he couldn't understand a word of what I was saying. I was ugly crying, and my words were impossible to read.

"Hey hey, slow down. I'm listening." Jisung said.

I told him everything. I completely vented out all I could. I told him about the look on my moms face, and the sound of my dads voice when he told me to go to my room. I even told him how sad my pancake looked after confessing.

Jisung was listening. This is the first time that he have ever heard me cry, and he didn't really know how to act. He didn't say anything. We were both quiet. I sat in silence with my phone in my shaky hands until I heard someone knocking on my door.