What the fuck just happened.

"What?" I said stunned

I looked up at Hyunjin.

"Are you?" He said once again

I didn't know what to say. My mind traveled 200 different places at once. Did this just happen? He knows? How the fuck? What the fuck am i supposed to say?

"Why do you ask?" I asked him, trying to keep my voice from cracking

«Jeongin told me and Seungmin that you were gay. Is it a joke?» Hyunjin asked me

I looked up at him. I had no idea if i should lie. Was i exposed? Jeongin has proof, so lying wouldn't work. The whole situation was awkward. Kai sat there and heard everything, but I couldn't care less about him at the moment.

"I don't know» I said

"Is it a joke? Yes or no"

«No»

He looked at me with an odd expression. I couldn't tell if he was scared, disgusted, suprised or confused. We went quiet.

I waited for him to say something, but he just walked away.

I sat there, staring at him walking away from me. I had no idea what he thought, but i feared the worst.

I saw Kai in the corner of my eye. I was expecting him to stand up and walk away, but he stayed.

I kept staring into nowhere after Hyunjin left. Neither me nor Kai said anything.

What just happened?

I was one week into this shitshow of a camp, and I've already managed to fuck it up this bad? I have no idea what to do.

"Wow" Kai said quietly

I didn't reply.

He looked at me.

"Are you ok?" He asked me.

Him saying that somehow made it worse. I felt my eyes tearing up. I stood up and walked all the way to my room.

I slung myself in my bed, and cried.

I felt like such a crybaby, such an idiot.

I looked up at the clock. It was late. I knew Hyunjin would have to walk in sooner or later. I had no idea what to do. If he's seen the messages, he must be disgusted with me.

One thing I did notice is that he said "Jeongin told

He didn't bring up anyone else. But what do I know. Maybe they're going around telling everyone right now.

I'm fucked either way.

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I kept staring at the clock. I knew he'd eventually walk in. I had to think quick.

I figured it'd be the best if I was already asleep when he walks in, or, at least pretending to be asleep.

I quickly went into the bathroom and changed to my pyjamas. I removed my makeup, and washed my face. I checked the clock once more, and went to bed. My pulse was probably at 200. He could walk in anytime now.

What am I supposed to do tomorrow? I'll have to talk to him then. We're literally roommates.

I put the blanket over me, and faced towards the wall so that Hyunjin wouldn't be able to see me. I didn't have to wait for long until I heard the door open.

It was so quiet, I heard every little sound.

I heard him walk into the room. He came closer to the beds, and stopped for a second. I tried my best to appear as if I was asleep. I don't know if I fooled him, but he went into the bathroom and got ready for bed without saying anything.

Part of me wanted to turn around and, at

least look at him. I wanted to see his expression.

Part of me also wanted to say something. I wanted to know exactly how he felt with it. I wanted to hear him say something about it. No matter if it was nice, or awful. I just wanted an answer.

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The bathroom door opened, and I heard him walk to his bed. He turned the light off without saying a word. I also kept quiet.

All I could think about was tomorrow. There's no way I'm sitting with them at the caf. I also definitely can't hang out with them in the free time.

I'd be a loner for the next three weeks.