"Please don't worry about loosing me after the camp. You won't"

I smiled, taking in the words before placing a kiss on his forehead.

"What pizza toppings do you want when we go to Kai's house?" I grinned

"I'll answer that when our dicks aren't touching" he said

Oh

I hadn't even realized it. I was too lost in the kiss that I forgot neither of us had any pants on.

I awkwardly laughed, and pulled my boxers up. He sat up from the bed to pull his Pyjama pants on before sitting down again. I sat down next to him.

"You look absolutely destroyed" I said, light heartedly.

"I am" he responded

I stared at him. The lightning was pretty dim, but I could see every little freckle on his face. His eyelashes looked extra pretty and long after being drenched in tears. His hair was pretty messy, but not too messy. It was perfectly messy. Just-fine messy.

The butterflies were attacking me again. He was beautiful. I had found the right guy.

"Pepperoni" he said

I was caught off guard by the sudden comment.

"Pepperoni?" I asked

"Yeah" he nodded -"that's the topping I would like"

Ohh, that's what we were talking about.. pizza toppings.

He must've caught me zoning out, staring at him.

"Nice" I replied

"You're a pepperoni" he joked, punching me in my arm.

"You're a mushroom" i mocked, acting offended by what he said

"Mushroom eater" he added, giggling like he just said the funniest smartest thing ever.

"I see what you did there, pepperoni eater" I joked.

We were pretty dorky, but come on. It wasn't that bad.

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Me and Lix went back into the bathroom to rinse our mouths with mouthwash after the whole 'session'. He told me it was necessary to kill off bacteria or whatever. I didn't really care, but did as he said anyways.

"So,, you think you're gonna tell your parents about us?" I asked

"I mean, I have to" he replied

"You don't have to" I said

I quickly regretted telling him that, cause I really wanted him to tell them.

"I don't want to keep you a secret" he explained -"are you going to tell yours?"

"Yeah" I replied -"I'm gonna tell them"

He nodded. He was definitely not super confident about telling them. He looked pretty unsure.

"How about we pretend to be friends until you feel comfortable telling them?" I requested

"Sure" he smiled

We went back to bed short after talking. I told him we needed to get eachothers numbers, as well as Kai's. We agreed to write them all down on a note of paper tomorrow.

Tomorrow was the last 'normal' day in this camp. The day after was the activity thingy. I wonder if I'll miss this place. Part of me thinks I would, and part of me thinks I won't. To be honest, I probably won't miss the camp itself, but I'll miss waking up with Felix beside me.

"How often do you think we can meet up?" I asked him

We had just laid down in bed. Same position as usual. His head on my right arm holding around him.

"Hopefully pretty often" he responded

"Like, every week?" I asked

"At least"

I was hoping he would say something like that. Once a week is nothing. I couldn't wait to go on late night walks with him and show him around my neighborhood. I couldn't wait to go to the supermarket to buy some snacks, paying for his as well.

I wonder when his birthday was. Mine's already been. It was in March.

"When's ur birthday?" I asked him, stroking my fingers through his hair.

"It's in September" he replied softly

"Tell me your wishlist" I said

"You" he replied

"You've already got me, what else do you want?"

"I don't know yet, i've still got a couple months to think about it. No rush"

"Alright then, let me know when you have something in mind. I'll get it for you" I said

I kissed his head two times. His hair was super soft, and smelled nice like always.

"How do you think they'll react?" I asked

"Bad" he responded

I knew he was homeschooled, so he'd have to see and talk to his parents more often than others. I was a bit concerned for him. I knew he was strong and all, but it can't be easy. Especially not when his parents expect him to 'come back as straight'.

I was scared to tell my parents as well. They were really fucking conservative. I'm sure they're gonna try and talk me out of it.

I don't think they'd treat me like ass. Sure, I won't be treated normally, but I don't think they would be super mad. They simply just wouldn't believe me.

I wasn't going to tell them right away tho. I'd wait until Lix did the same. Maybe it'd comfort him a little, knowing we were going through it together.

Something's been bugging me about all this. How would me and Lix be able to have real alone time? And I'm not talking about going to a park with him, playing games with him, or eating pizza at someone's house. I mean the real stuff. Waking up next to him, laying in bed with him, make love. It would all practically be impossible.

I'm sure Kai wouldn't like us having sex and such in HIS house. I wouldn't like that either. Not that sex is the most important thing. But I'd definitely miss it.

I wanted to try new stuff with him, like we did today. Finding out what we like, and how to please eachother. We can't do it all in these last couple days.

"What's your favorite snacks?" Lix asked me casually

"Twix and pringles probably" I replied

Thinking back at it, I probably should've replied with something like "You", but I was too tired to come up with that.

"Mm" he mumbled -"I like those too. But my all time favorite thing is those love hearts candies. You know, the ones with the cute little word or messages on em"

"Oh, yeah" I said

"Let's buy all those and go out somewhere after the camp" he suggested

"Mhm" I hummed softly in response

"We could go look at the stars again" he said

-"like we did when we kissed for the first time"

I was really tired, but not tired enough to feel embarrassed. I can't believe I started crying in his arms that day. I was in complete denial.

I let out an exhale, trying to show my embarrassment.

It was really late. -A new day in fact. We went to our room pretty late, and it all got pretty heated from there. We completely forgot the time.

"Good Night" I said before placing yet another kiss on the crown of his head.

"Night" he replied in a soft voice