I wanted to scream at you.

I wanted to say "I'm here! Notice me!"

But,

I couldn't.

I couldn't bare to see the look on your face if i did.

The disappointment,

The anger,

The confusion,

And most of all the sadness.

the sadness when you relized that I'm just a broken boy

I child tossed into a sea of monsters.

I can't swim.

I can't float.

I'm drowing,

I'm drowing in shades of blue,

My tears,

My scars,

My soul,

The sea,

And my heart.

Covered in a thin layer of ice,

So small,

Yet so tall.

So flimsy,

Yet so strong.

I wanted to scream

But I couldn't let you see the ice in my soul.

so I stayed silent.

hoping that you could melt my heart.

I wanted to scream.

-R.Blackwell