Shoot what did I do?

I'm such an idiot, I admitted my stupid crush on Lola, the girl I just met. The look on her face right now is everything I wanted to avoid. She looks confused and scared, her adorable eyebrows are pushed together, and her lips are in a frown.

I can tell she's deep in thought due to her eyes looking distant.

The number of times people have told me when they first met me they thought I was some woman player. And every single time I thought to myself why?

I don't get with a new girl every single day like most guys my age, maybe it's the way I look?

I don't mean to toot my own horn, but I am a good looking guy. I get my amazing genes from my mother, but I also take care of myself, like going to the gym every other day, eating healthy, and getting a good amount of sleep every night.

Beyond that I'm not the guy everyone thinks I am, I respect women. I don't use them for my needs and then throw them away like trash. Women are incredible they bring new life into the world. Above all, they get their period every single month. I know us guys wouldn't handle bleeding out of our man part every month well. How can us men even say we're better than women? I can't comprehend why most men think they deserve more rights than women. It's frustrating and ridiculous.

Above all, I haven't even had a girlfriend before, and it's not because I don't "do" girlfriends, It's because I'm looking for the right girl.

However, I think I'm looking at her right now.

Scolding myself in my head, I tell myself it's way too soon to be thinking this way about Lola. However I can't help it, the heart wants what it wants.

I'm freaking out inside and there are so many thoughts consuming my brain. Falling for your coworker is not a good idea, both of us could get heartbroken, and that could affect our acting skills if we don't work out. Imagine not getting along with the person you have to act in love with.

Yup, not going to work, but some annoying thought is nagging me and saying that we will work out if we try.

I curse myself, such a stupid idiot catching feelings so quickly.

There's something about Lola that I've ever seen before in a girl. She's very beautiful, quiet, respectful, caring, and hard-working.

However, I know she has gone through something in the past that still haunts her. I'm not sure what, but I'm determined to find out.

I know I need to keep my feelings to myself, but I just can't. I can't help but reach out and run my hand across her cheeks, step closer to her where I can smell her vanilla perfume. However, it's like my body reacts without my permission when I'm around her.

I desperately need to control myself, and I also need to help Lola forget her past.

"Me and my friends are hanging out tonight, do you want to join us?"

"I don't want to intrude," she says shrugs, still not looking at me. "They're your friends, not mine."

"You're not intruding if I want you to come." I can't believe she thinks she would be a bother, she's so precious it's unreal, "So what do you say wanna come over to my place and eat your body weight in nachos?"

"You do know I"m a model right?" she explains, "I wish I could eat my body weight in nachos, but if Emma finds out she's going to kill me."

"Who's Emma?"

"My uptight manger that keeps tabs on everything I do," she answers with a sigh which makes laugh, "It's not funny Chris." She says as she slaps my chest with her hand.

"It's funny to me, I'm imagining a woman chasing you around with a clipboard yelling this at you." I let out with a laugh, "Are you coming tonight Lola or are you gonna be a party pooper and stay home?" I question her with a raised eyebrow.

"Are you sure you want boring old me there?" She questions with a shy look on her face.

I just wanna pinch those cheeks she probably doesn't realize she's scrunching up, while she questions me.

I nod and she offers me a small smile, "I'm going to declare you the guest of honour."

"You better not Smith." She narrows her eyes at me, "I swear Chris I'll drop-kick you across town if you do that."

With that, I walk out the room and yell over my shoulder, "I'll make sure I get an ice pack ready for my sore butt than."

I stop walking quickly when I hear Lola's angelic voice yelling at me through the hallway, I turn around and spot her outside her door, "Yes" I answer.

"What time?"

"I'll text you the details."

Before she closes her dressing room door, she gives me a nod and a smile.

With a smirk and a shake of my head, I continue on my way to my car outside.

Tonights going to be a blast.

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