Hoseok doesn't understand my father. He is so manipulative, he can make anyone think his ideas are the best and follow him.

He always threatens people so they think there is no other way out of the situation and they have to do what he wants.

And Hoseok fell for it, u can't blame him. Of course the easier path is to agree with him.

I always wanted to be the next Don. It was my dream and I know I will be one since I'm the oldest.

When father told me his condition that I have to get married, I was mad. He took this as another of his business deal and moved me like a toy.

But I agreed because I thought he will either change his mind in some time or leave me choose myself.

He was really a backstabber when he just announced that I have to get married now and that he chose a person for me.

That was not the deal. He didn't say a date and he didn't say I was not allowed to choose.

So, of course I was mad at him but I didn't have time to prepare myself because my ' fiance' was coming to my house two days after it.

I know he did it so quickly on purpose so I don't even have time to react. How could I be so stupid and not see through it?

Then I met Hoseok and it made everything so complicated. Not in the the way people might thing but it did.

I remember telling Hoseok about my past relationships and how it didn't work out. How it's probably my fault but he said that maybe they weren't interesting enough.

I think he was right.

Well, I thought that this whole time, I might have higher standards or be even asexual but no, after meeting Hoseok, I'm having feeling I've never experienced.

He really is perfect and I think I .... I might like him.

Which is the reason why everything is so complicated. My feelings towards him. I care for him and it's not just listening to my father's orders anymore.

I actually want to make him happy and possibly have a nice relationship.

I don't know what to do and I don't know how to explain this to him.

My father already controlled this whole relationship. It will start with wedding, then he will bring the house, business, kids, our literal souls.

If I didn't care about the marriage, well.... My Hoseok doesn't deserve to be treated the way my father treats me.

He can hurt me but not him. I would be so selfish for allowing this and .... I don't want to be selfish, for once.

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He walks into my house, back in our house.

" Taehyung, I feel like there has been some.... Well, things in your family I don't understand.

And I'm confused to why you reacted like this but I don't want to be.

It's my wedding too, you should explain what is happening." He gives me sad eyes.

" I know. I'm - sorry."