Jung Hoseok

" Then? Will you explain it to me? I feel so left out Taehyung." I look at him.

" Sit next to me." He gives me a chair and brings me closer to him.

I look up to him. " I'm sorry you Saw my outburst. I wish I could say I don't act like this but - sometimes I get really mad."

At least he is honest about it.

" Okey." I nod.

" The mafia is complicated Hoseok. Once you get involved, it's hard to ever escape it.

Everyone knows your name and even when you leave, people still recognize you.

The name Kim will be automatically put to mafia category but majority of business man and under ground criminals.

My father was so great in his times and .... I told you he gave me his spot just months ago.

It's all still new. He is still in charge even with me being the new Don.

And if course, I didn't get my position for free.

Nothing with him is for free."

" I understand that."

" Well, I grew up in this world. I was held by all kinds of criminals since I was a little baby.

My father taught me to shoot from a gun at seven.

And when I saw my first body? Well, " he smiles, " I would say twelve but I have a bit of a memory loss from that year."

" Oh, I'm sorry about it." Not really a pretty childhood.

" My father taught all of us that money is the most important thing in life and you will not do anything without it.

He is right.

Money really does rule the world. So, I promised myself I will also have as much money as he has, so I never have an issues in life.

Mafia is such a perfectly done organization. The higher you are, the more money comes on your bank account without even trying.

I craved this position. Well,.... Now I have it.

Is it as nice as I expected it to be? No. Is it worth it?" He says silent.

" Is it?" I ask him.

" I think that answer will affect our whole relationship and I'm not sure if I'm ready to answer it."

My eyes widen and I lower my head." You don't have to answer but....well, why couldn't we get married and have three hundred guests?"

" It was never about the number of people, Hoseok.

My father is trying to figure out where we stand. If we agree, he knows we will submit to him and he will continue controlling our every decision.

I did that until now and .... Look at where I am ." He says sadly,

" If we disagree, he knows we are not as easy to be control and we are a threat to him."

" Will he kill us?" I ask him.

" No. He would never be as stupid as to kill his own son and his best business partner's son.

He will just put someone else in the spot light.

Well, okay. Let me explain it in easier terms.

I thought this marriage will be a total bullshit. I expected some gold digger that I will say yes to and then live my life without caring about her. And she will of course do the same thing.

But I can't do that to you." He looks at me. " I can't hurt you like this and have you like my father's.... Dog or something, okey?"

My heart beat fast.

He gets up from the chair." I think you might be the person I've cared the most about since- probably since ever and I don't know how to save the both of us.

If I refuse to listen to my father, I will no longer be a Don. Shit, I don't even know if he will let me be a normal business man.

I will loose my title.

But If I agree, we will both never truly enjoy our marriage and we will life in constant fear of his decisions BUT will a lot of fucking cash in the bank account."

He puts my face in his hands.

" I thought I don't care but then I Saw you in the dress. I kissed you and ..... This is getting too real, Hoseok. It cannot just be a business deal for me.

I don't want to use you for money. I would rather.... Marry someone else and let you go."

He lowers his head and kisses me. It's a passionate kiss but also desperate one. He so trying not to loose me.

" What will we do?" He brushes my hair, " both of us. What will we do."

" I don't know." Who knew a marriage can get so complicated.