Atlanta, Georgia

9:30 PM

April 3, Saturday

I looked in the backseat at my daughter, Heaven, as she slept peacefully.

Jean had just left to go "handle" something and I was sitting here thinking about if I wanted to just leave the whole fucking state and disappear.

I looked over in the passenger seat at the duffle bag full of money, enough to move and start my whole life over.

I sat there thinking about all of the advantages and disadvantages of moving.

I'm guessing the disadvantages got the best of me and I got out the car along with Heaven.

As I was walking back up the stairs towards the house, I heard someone whisper "This ain't what you want," in my ear.

I immediately turned back around, put Heaven in the car, cried for a couple of minutes, and re-thought everything.

"Just do it!!!!!"I yelled while looking at myself in the mirror.

I turned the car on before pulling off slowly.

I'm not sure where I was driving to but I was gonna damn sure get as far away as I could.