Miami, Florida

2:00 PM

June 14, Monday

"Miami We're here!!!"Heaven yelled as we walked out of the airport.

Everybody started laughing and I shook my head.

"Okay who's all riding together!? I know that Heaven, Kai, Ashley, Jade, and Tamia are riding with me. Dallas, Niya, Natasha, Hailey, and Samantha y'all are all riding together right!?"I said while looking around at everybody.

"Yes ma'am!!"

"Okay the trucks are already waiting on us, so I guess we should load up."I said before we all headed to the two SUV's that we're awaiting us.

The drivers helped us load everything inside and we all took our seats.

Tamia, Heaven, and Kai sat on the very back row while I sat in the front seat, and Jade and Ashley sat in the second row.

Once everybody was ready, we headed to the air bnb.

So, let me break it all down for you.

After Scarr and I had our little "fight" about him going on tour or whatever, he still decided that that's what he was gonna do.

I was mad as fuck when I found out that's what he chose to do but I immediately sucked it up once I realized I was temporarily single, could travel, and it's the summertime.

By temporarily I mean we haven't talked at all about where our relationship stands.

It's just like he left and said, "Oh well, she'll be fine."

I was hoping that my dad would talk some since into him but he didn't.

I can't be mad at him though because for one Scarr is a grown ass man, two my dad is just as fucked up as him, and three he still has to do what he has to as Scarr's manager.

I'm pretty sure my mama doesn't give a damn about how fucked up he is though because she be doing shit too, hell being in jail ain't teach them shit.

Anyways back to Scarr and I, we just communicate about the kids that's all.

We don't even talk like we're married anymore, it's like we're both single and are just co-parenting from a distance.

Basically I'm a fucking baby mama and he's just a rapper on tour.

I know he misses the shit out of me and is regretting every bit of leaving but oh well.

Now I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't miss my husband but I mean it is what it is shit happens, we'll be back together later.

Anyways as soon as he left, I started booking this damn trip.

I made sure to close on a couple of houses before I left and I did exactly that.

Since Scarr isn't here to help, I decided to just leave the twins in Atlanta with my mama and just bring the older kids, Heaven and Malakai.

I miss my babies and I really hate that I couldn't bring them but I most definitely am bringing them on the next trip.

I did end up bringing the babysitter, Tamia, along with us because I'll be damned if I walk my fine ass around Miami not being able to shake this ass just because my kids are right there.

We are going to explore some places down here that's going to be fun for them but once the nighttime comes, mama is in them streets with my girls.

I feel like I invited the right selection of girls, ummm Makayla isn't here because I haven't heard from her since the day she told me to stop trying to help her.

I've assumed that she has everything under control so I'm just gonna back the fuck off, all I know is that if something tragic happens to my cousin Lontrell is going to be six feet under.

Anyways we're gonna be down here for a almost week so until Sunday.

The house that I rented out for us has nine bedrooms and seven bathrooms.

It's most biggest features are the beautiful lounge areas, pool, movie theatre, and poker room.

This isn't my first time coming to Miami but since I am a new bitch I wanted to do shit big.

My birthday is coming up in two months, I don't have anything planned but depending on how this trip goes it'll help me determine what I want to do or where I want to go for my birthday.

We pulled up to the house in about fifteen minutes and when we got there, I could already hear Natasha screaming from the other truck.

"Kooooodiii oooooh my fucking gosssssh!!!"she screamed dramatically while running over to me and hugging me.

Ion know why this bitch acting like she can't do the the same exact shit.

"I can't fucking believe this shit, mama I made it!!!"she yelled while looking up causing us all to start laughing.

"Thank you so much friend!!!"

"You're welcome girly. Everybody has their belongings!?"

"Yes ma'am!!"

"Everything!!?"I asked them again.

"Yes!!"

"Okay well I think we should go in."I said and we all walked up or the doorstep.

"Save the biggest room for my mommy!!!"Kai said and I chuckled while putting in the PIN number to the house before opening the door.

"Listen before we go inside, I wanna let you all know to be pretty careful. As you can already see the house is expensive as fu— as heck. You know what, to the adults only, do whatever the fuck you want okay!? We're in Miami, it's the summer, ain't nobody's children around, well except for mines, ain't nobody's man's around so have a good time. If you do happen to break something, don't stress it just put the broken pieces back in place where it was and I got it from there. There should already be a fully stocked kitchen, feel free to grab whatever you want. Then in about an hour I want everybody to get ready because we're going to the beach so yeah that's it. Oh and don't forget to save the biggest room for his mommy, y'all heard my baby."I said before letting everyone in.

When we all got inside we rushed to our rooms.

I made my kiddos share one of the rooms that had the two beds while i indeed got the biggest room.

As soon as I got to my room, I called my mother so that I could talk to the twins.

After I talked to them, I ended up crying.

I missed my babies but not only did I miss them, I missed my husband too.

If it weren't for him and his fucked up mindset then we'd all be here together.

Me, him, the twins, Heaven, and Kai.

I wouldn't have planned this trip and everything would've been just fine.

I'ma try to suck this shit and move on and enjoy Miami because once I get back to Atlanta, I'm gonna be a miserable bitch.