Atlanta, Georgia

11:01 PM

March 10, Sunday

"Hey, go get in the bed Sarai."I said to her as I waited for Josh to answer the fucking phone.

"Mommy can I sleep in the movie room tonight?"

"No go to your room, put a movie on, and go to sleep."I said while redialing his number and opening Heaven's door.

She was already sleep or at least playing like she was sleep so I walked out of her room and closed the door.

"I don't wanna go to sleep."Sarai pouted.

"Sarai go in your room and go to sleep you have school tomorrow!!"

"I don't wanna go!"

"You're going to both, now go!"

"Do I have to go to sleep?"

"No but you have to get in the bed and when I wake you up for school, don't be complaining to me about how sleepy you are 'cause I don't want to hear it."

"Okay."

"Goodnight, I love you."

"I love you too mommy."she said and I closed her room door before going back downstairs to my room.

I called Josh's phone for the last time and I waited for it to go to voicemail.

"I'm not understanding why the fuck you can't pick up yo mfn phone or why you didn't text me back an hour ago!!? I promise you if you make it another hour, when I see you ima fuck you up!"I spat before hanging up.

This isn't the first night this has happened, it actually happened last week.

I brushed it off because he told me that he was out with his boys having a good time, and I indeed was overreacting.

Now I'm not sure what the fuck it is.

I didn't wake up to him but I did meet up with him this afternoon for lunch to grab something to eat.

After that we both went our separate ways and got back to work.

He called me around six telling me that he'd be home around nine and now it's fucking eleven o'clock and I haven't got a call or text back from him.

Im trying not to think he's doing what I think he's doing but it's hard not doing that.

I went into the bathroom and decided to curl my hair while going live.

"Hey y'all!!!"I said while combing a piece of my hair and reading the comments.

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"Thank you!!"I smiled.

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"I'm doing okay, thanks for asking."

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"Hey Samantha girl!!"

"Girl who's album release party?"

"If you coming I'm in that hoe for sure."

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"Okay boo."

"Do I ride d upside down, I'm not about to play with y'all today."

I heard the room door close and I walked into the room seeing Josh.

"Where you been at!?"I asked him.

"Out with the guys."

"You couldn't call me and tell me that!? I called you and I texted you more than once, you couldn't tell me that!?"

"You already know that when I'm out that late that's what I'm doing!!"

"No because you told me that you we're coming back home at nine it's eleven thirty Joshua!!"

"Do I give you shit when you're out with your girls and you stay out later than expected!?"

"I don't even care about that, it's just the fact that you couldn't return my calls or anything!"

"I got carried away and couldn't pick up the phone."

"Josh just shut the fuck up because that's bullshit and you know it!"I said while going into the bathroom and turning my live off.

I unplugged the curlers and grabbed my phone.

"Aight so what you think I was out doing!?"he asked me.

"Boy fuck you. If you can't be honest then ima just go based off what I know."I said while walking out of the room and going into one of the guest rooms down here.

When I got into the room, I locked the door and got into the bed.

I don't know what told me to do it but I went searching for anything I could find on his ass.

Too bad I couldn't find shit so I just went to sleep.

"Niece!"I semi yelled as I picked up 30 and Natasha's daughter, Rylee.

"Wassup? I like yo hair."I said to her and she smiled.

"What you supposed to say?"Natasha asked her.

"Tank chu."

"Here uncle got some for you."I said while pulling out a hundred dollar bill from my pocket and handing it to her.

"This wanna be Bill Gates looking ass nigga always trynna give out money and shit."Bk said.

"At least I got it to give, get like me Nigga."

"Okay tell your uncle thank you, it's time for bed now."Natasha said while grabbing her from me.

"Night night Rylee."I said while waving at her and the rest of them niggas mocked me.

"Man what's up with you!?"30 nem asked me.

"For real."Shiesty said while sitting on the couch.

"Shit I'm straight."

"How you and Vanessa doing?"Bk asked me causing us to start laughing.

"Fuck y'all laughing at?"he asked us.

"It's Victoria lame ass nigga!!"Shiesty said to him and he shrugged.

"You know what I mean but how y'all niggas doing."

"Shit we good I guess but I'm 'bout ready to leave her ass."

"Nigga y'all was just boo'd up fourteen hours ago."30 said.

"She was boo'd up and I know she tired of my shit so I think I just might let her ass go."

"Nigga yo old ass need to settle down!"30 said.

"With the right woman."Bk said.

"Serious question though, y'all really think K.O. done with his ass?"Shiesty asked them.

"Hell nah, she just needed to test the waters one last time."Bk said.

"Shit ion know man... that lil nigga got her wrapped around his finger."30 said.

"Hell nah I know for a fact he ain't hittin' it right!"I said while staring down at my shoes.

"You think so?"Shiesty asked me.

"Hell yeah I think so. She need a man to handle her ass, that lil peon ass nigga ain't doing shit."

"Damn so what you gone do?"

"First I gotta check out all of the possibilities then I gotta ease up on her."

"Nigga get yo Dr. Dolittle sounding ass on somewhere."Bk said while laughing along with 30 nem.

"Man fuck all y'all, I'm high as hell right now."I said while shaking my head.

"What's up with y'all niggas though?? Me and mines good."30 said.

"Shit finishing up this wedding shit with Samantha."Bk said.

"Nigga if you needed a lone after all these years you could've said that."I said before we all started laughing.

"Bitch ass nigga if you needed couples therapy after all these years you could've said that!"he spat.

"Fuck you man!"I shook my head and said.

"Y'all niggas crazy, nigga why you don't ever talk about yo relationship? Or bring the family around? We all family, ain't gone tell a soul."30 said to Shiesty.

"'Cause it ain't nobody fucking business, we good."

"You sure nigga 'cause last time I checked you couldn't keep ya hands to yourself. I'm saying this 'cause I'm ya brother and I ain't trynna put you out there or none, but if you need some additional help nigga I'm here!"30 said to him.

"Shit we all here but I can't fucking talk."I said.

"We straight, let's not bring up the past."Shiesty said.

"It's cool to admit it, we ain't here to judge you at all."30 said to him.

"I'm straight, we straight Aight?"

"Aight ima take yo word on it now."

After chatting it up with them, I headed back home.

Ion know, I just don't want to let Victoria go but I feel like it'll be for the better.

She won't have to put up with my bullshit anymore and she can move on with her life.

As far as me getting Kodi back, I gotta work on myself first.