I stared at Demetri with my mouth open and my face contorted in an expression of both shock and disbelief.

Mainly because i didn't expect those words to com from his mouth.

"W-what?" I asked in a choked voice

"I'm falling In love with you." He said seriously, reaching out to brush my cheek with his fingers.

My temper flared immediately and I slapped his hand away.

"Why would you lie like that?" I hissed, indignation clear in my voice. "What do you hope to gain by lying to me, huh?"

"I'm not lying," Demetri said and I snapped lounging for him, semi-conscious of the discomfort between my legs.

He moved faster than I did grabbing me before I could hit him.

"Let me go." I seethed "and get out." I growled not wanting to be near him.

"Listen to me." He growled tightening his hold on my upper arms, I was straddling his thighs, his rock hard erection pressed firmly between my thighs, our chests pressed close together, my hand on his arms trying to push him away from me.

"I'm not lying, I have liked you from the first moment I saw you the night of the ball, when you lied to me about your name." He said looking right into my eyes, his voice level, his heartbeat steady, he seems so sincerer.

"Nobody lies to me, ever. You didn't fall at my feet or push up on me and I knew I would have wanted you even if you hadn't been mine, but you didn't want me." Demetri said a sorrowful edge to his tone his eyes clouding over with sadness.

"I still don't want you now." I scoffed and he sighed frustratedly.

"Look Jessabell, I don't know when it happened but I'm falling for you and I'm falling hard and fast, and I don't like it."

"Then break our bond so we can go our separate ways," I said logically.

"Stop asking that of me because i will not do it, I will never let you go." He growled tightening his painful grip on my arms.

"You are hurting me again." I hissed staring into his eyes "you do not know what love is Demetri." I said softly and he released my arms and I crawled off his lap.

"You never will, so don't tell me you're falling in love with me. You can't be falling in love with me and keep hurting me both physically and mentally might I add." I stated adamantly,

"Jessabell it's not like that, I want to be with you as a real couple of mates."

"And you will be, but I will not be enslaved to you because of your so-called love for me." I crawled under the sheets and sat with my back against the headboard of the bed and stared at my prince who is definitely not charming sitting at the end of the bed. "I know what us expected of me as a future Luna, and I will do my duty but loving you is not a criteria and accepting your love is not one either. I don't want your love now and I never will so just leave it at that."

"I refuse to live like that with you Jessabell." He said moving to sit by my hip and taking my hands in his. "I won't do it, I will never survive the future you have painted for us, it's a bleak, boring and loveless future one that will affect our children greatly, and I don't want them to be unhappy."

My mind instantly latched onto the word children and rejected the thought of more than one child with Demetri. I can't do that, if I don't give him a son at the first go it will destroy me because we will have to try until we have a boy.

"I will only give you one child, you will never touch me again after our son is born." I told him pulling away my hands "The only way we will have more than one is if I have twins at the first go."

"Our firstborn doesn't have to be a boy Jessabell." Demetri said looking at me with a heartbroken expression on his face.

"All royals have have boys as firstborn. It's been that way for what? three century." I said matter of fact.

"The sex of royal babies are dependent on the male. Even for witches and other supernatural creatures. So if I want ten daughters before I have a son you'll give me ten daughters because we can't stop until we have a son." Demetri said, a determined glint shadowing his eyes.

"No." I gasped, that can't be true, and even if it is, he won't do that to me. Well knowing him he probably would.

"You can't do that to me." I said in a soft voice.

"I can I anything I want, I wont loose you before I have you." He cupped my face and brought his face close to mine, so close that I could feel his breath on my lips. "If I have to chain you to me with our children then that's what I will do, I won't let you go and I will never allow us to live in the same house and live separate lives."

Demetri brought his warm lips to mine and kissed me softly. I didn't kiss back but tears did flow down my cheeks as I squeezed my eyes close.

When he pulled away, he wiped away my tears with his thumbs and kissed my forehead.

"This is not love." I whispered, "You don't hurt the people you love, all we do is argue and fight, anything that we could have had together was over before it even began."

Laying down on my side with my back facing Demetri, I stared off into the darkness of my bedroom. I felt Demetri brush up against my back, he's shirtless and only wearing his boxers as he wrapped an arm around my waist and buried his face in my neck, inhaling my scent.

I didn't fight or try to push him away, I just laid in his arms rigidly, tensed and terribly saddened.

"I'm sorry, so very sorry for everything I've done to hurt you. I've been insensitive to your feelings. The type of women I normally talk to would drop everything and do as I command, but you don't and it frustrates me but it makes me want you at the same time." He said kissing my neck. "I want to try."

"Try what?" I asked on a yawn.

"Try to make us work."

"There is no us."

"Yes there is, the marks on our necks make it obvious that there is an us." He mumbled, kissing my mark and sending shivers of pleasure coursing through my body. I sucked in a ragged breath as pleasure coiled in my belly.

"Stop that." I muttered, my voice breathy and husky .

"You like what I do to you, don't fight it."

"I do. But I despise myself a little bit more everytime you touch me and I enjoy it." I admitted slowly, "I hate you and you're making me hate me too."

"I don't want you to hate me anymore. Let's try to be friends first." He offered and I flipped around to face him.

"No, stop suggesting that I try to like you." I hissed exasperated, "It's not going to Happen. I don't want to be with you. You already have a girlfriend to occupy your time so why don't you go to her and leave me the hell alone. You certainly didn't give a fuck about me when you were fucking her brains out and a was wallowing in the pain of your unfaithfulness, so don't think for one second that you're just gonna waltz up in here and apologize and tell me you want more from me and I'm just going to clap my hands and forget everything you have done to me. You're a pussy Demetri and I don't like pussies."

Demetri flipped me on my back and got over me his knees on either side of my hips. Without saying a word, he leans down towards my neck. Placing a small kiss in my mark, he held both my wrists in one of his and pinned them to my chest.

I already knew that he was about to bite me, but I was unprepared for the excruciating pain that shot through my neck as he sunk his fangs into my neck. The pain was so bad that I couldn't even scream, I couldn't move, I couldn't do anything but just lie there and cry silently.

He's bitten me before, but it never hurt this badly and I know he's doing it to punish me because I insulted him and hurt his feelings.

Pulling his teeth from my neck, he didn't lick the bite and it hurt more when the cold air in the room blew over it.

I lay there silently as tears fell down my cheeks while Demetri watched me with purple eyes.

After a while, the pain ebbed and my tears stopped.

"I may love you, but I will not let you disrespect me." He said laying beside me and gathering me in his arms.

I didn't move an inch, I was too sad and scared to think about moving away or to think about anything at all.

"I won't let you go, and that bullshit arrangement that you proposed about not touching you after you give me my first child is out of the question. I just made up my mind about our future together. I want eight children, seven girls and one boy, the boy will be last, we will share a room, I won't allow you to leave this city, if you can't go to a university here you won't be going at all even though it will just be a waste of time because i will never permit you to work, royalty doesn't work and my wife sure as hell won't work, you are mine and mine alone, we won't live separate lives because no other man will ever touch you intimately and I will be faithful to you Jessabell. I won't sleep with other women, and I have needs, sexual needs that you will take care of, we will be a couple and you will learn to love me eventually because I will be your everything as your are becoming my everything." Demetri said.

With each word that left his mouth, I felt dread seep into my boned rendering me motionless, my breathing slowed as I felt the invisible chains of the life he just painted for us wrap slowly around my throat, sucking the air from my lungs causing me to take shallow breaths.

Earlier tonight, I had created a future for us in my mind one where I would be free to live my life as I pleased, one where, although I was attached to Demetri, the attachment would be limited and I would feel less claustrophobic about my situation.

But Demetri just laid here and in the space of about twenty seconds took my vision of our future apart and remodeled it the way he wanted it to be, a future where I am bound to him in every way, with no freedom, he would control my life like it was a game and he would be the player.

I'm not stupid, I can fight and resist everything he throws at me but I know that he will win, because he's the future alpha of the werewolf society located in North America and he's a prince, the soon to be king. He has the power of the entire American wolf court behind him and I basically have nothing, because he would destroy everything I have in a heartbeat just to get what he wants.

Laying on my back, staring into the darkness that surrounded me, i was consumed by thoughts of Demetri, my future with him.

Finally, I fell asleep to a tortured dream featuring my current predicament.

I was in one of the hallways of the castle, suddenly, every door along the hall opened and large, thick, heavy metal chains lashed out of the rooms and coiled themselves around my neck, choking me. Falling to my knees from the weight of the chains, I clawed at them an pulled to no avail.

'you will never leave.' Demetri hissed appearing at the end of the hall with the figure of a skinny female draped over his body. The faceless female giggled and pulled Demetri into a room, the only door that was left closed opened and a large black hissing snake slithered quickly towards me. Opening his mouth, milky white venom dripped from the fangs of the snake as a shimmering image of Demetri and the faceless female entwined in a passionate embrace upon a bed covered in red silk sheets which resembles flowing blood the way they spilled from the bed appeared in the mouth of the snake, I gasped just as the snake snapped his jaws shut over my head.

I gasped and flew up into a sitting position on my bed. The room was still dark and the only sound that could be heard was my heavy breathing, that was until Demetri woke up, his arm still curved around my waist.

"What's wrong?" He asked, his voice husky and rough with sleep, sitting up as well and turning on the lamp on the side table beside him.

Turning, he stared at me with tired gray eyes filled with concern and worry, his black hair was messy and all over the place.

"Jess, are you okay?" He asked cupping my cheek, I jumped slightly from the feel of his fingers on my face.

"I'm fine," I said blinking rapidly as I removed his hand from my cheek. "I'm okay."

"Your hear is racing, what's wrong?" He asked again and I sighed.

"Bad dream, I'm fine now, let's just go back to sleep." I insisted.

I don't want to talk to him, especially with that nightmare still very fresh in my mind.

"Would you like to talk about it?"

"No, I'm tired and I just want to go back to sleep." I said laying down.

Demetri did the same after switching off the light, he wrapped his arm around my waist and laced his fingers through mine.

"Are you sure you're alright?" He asked again.

"Yes, I'm fine, go back to sleep." I told him, he placed a soft kiss on the top of my head.

"I love you Jessabell." He said and my heart froze in my chest as the words 'you will never leave' resonated through my brain.

Not long after, Demetri's breathing evened out and his hold loosened slightly.

I, however, couldn't sleep. My mind was running in overdrive, replaying all my encounters with Demetri. Literally all of them, from the night of the ball up to those four words he ha uttered before he fell asleep.

The four words I should have been dying to hear form my mate, but instead they were the words that made my body freeze in horror.

Warm tears gathered in my eyes and silently fell onto the pillow beneath my head.

I don't want to cry anymore. I can safely say that I have cried the most in my entire life since I've met Demetri.

I couldn't help but think that this is what my life will always be like if I am his for ever. I will always get hurt, I will always cry and I will always be unhappy and I don't want that for myself.

Demetri said it himself, he will never let me go, I'll always be his. I will never be free and I will never be happy unless of course I'm dead then I won't have to see him and I will be happy.

The thought started out as a slight joke, but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense in a sick, twisted, psychotic way.

I wouldn't have to fight him anymore and I would be free.

I slowly pulled his arm from my waist, hoping he wouldn't wake. He rolled onto his back but didn't wake, I carefully climbed off the bed and grabbed my phone and switched it on using it for light. Quietly tiptoeing out of my room, I headed downstairs towards the medicine room.

Normal families have a first-aid kit, my family has a medicine room. With eleven children medicine can never be too much.

Running my fingers across the jam over the door until they connected with the cold steel of the key.

I took the key and quietly opened the door, pushing it close, I flipped on the light and began rummaging around the cupboards for what I needed.

I have an idea of what I want. I was watching a medical documentary and learned that morphine, when given in excess quantity will kill you. But unlike other medications, it provides a painless death, and that is what I wanted, painless and quick.

Finally, I pulled the bottle of morphine from the cupboard and retrieved a brand-new needle. Filling the needle I closed the bottle the flicked the needle twice before rolling up the sleeve of my sweater.

Putting the needle to the inside of my elbow, I noticed that my vein was already visible and seems to be eagerly awaiting the needle.

For a brief moment, doubts flickered through my mind, a small voice at the back of my head telling me not to do it, but then all doubts vanished as I recalled the day Demetri had marked me. How he threatened to hurt my cousins and then I remembered the King's letter and his threat to support his son in hurting my cousins if I refused to do the mating ceremony.

Without further ado, I pushed the drug filled syringe into my awaiting vein and and pushed the foreign substance into my body.

Suddenly the door banged open and Demetri stood there with my mother behind him. They both froze when they saw what I was doing.

Demetri was the first to snap out of it and he hurriedly made his way to me grabbing the syringe and pulling it from my arm.

It was too late, it was already empty.

"What was it?" He hissed, agitation and worry clear in his voice as he held my shoulders and shook me demanding i tell them what I had taken.

"What did you take?!" He barked as my mother stepped into the room and began moving bottles which were on the counter.

"Jessabell what have you done?" She asked turning to look at me with tear filled eyes.

I didn't respond, I seemed to have lost the ability to speak as everything became a blurry of sounds and colours.

My feet buckled beneath me and Demetri caught me.

"Jessabell No!!" He roared holding me to his body as my eyelids became heavy and I blinked slowly looking up at him, "keep your eyes open." He screamed patting my cheeks gently.

I briefly registered the tears that filled his gray eyes. He looked heartbroken. I feel as if I have just ripped his heart from his chest and crushed it beneath my feet.

"What did she take?" He asked my mother, his voice sounding as if I'm listening to him from under water. "What is it, what did you find?"

"Morphine, th............ she took." I barely made out half the words as the I felt my heart slow, and I mean drastically slow, one beat per minute slow.

"No!..........loose her" Was that Demetri or my mother's voice.

"Ambulance............here." another voice said as my eyes finally shut, sounds fading into silence and my mind closing in on itself.

I was floating in the abyss of darkness and silence and then I fell into nothingness.