When I arrived Althea wordlessy pulled a chair for me to seat down.I watched as she went back to stir something in the pot before looking at me through her shoulder.

"The potion will last you for three to four months,your majesty but it has side effect" she said her voice low and quiet.I nodded telling her to continue.

"It will supress your vampire.Aloysius will dissapear until the potion wears off."

I've always avoided potions that will make my beasts dissapear even if its for a while.They are mine,a part of me and I don't want to lose either of them even though they are pain in the ass.We've been together through a lot and just the thought of not having one of them for so long hurts.

I groan when those said beast started aguing.Aloysius thinks that i'm tyring to keep him from his mate while Alphaeus is tyring to reason with him.At the end he huffed and the three of us came to the desicion that we are taking the potion.For our mate.To avoid hurting him we taking the stupid portion.

"Give me that stupid shit"? I said to Althea making her chuckle.She poured the steaming portion in a cup and gave it to me.It's smelled addicting making it easy for me to drink and enjoy it.

"It's has your mates scent in it" Althea answered my unspoken question.

As soon as I finished drinking my head started pounding and my eyes felt heavy.I stood up and stumbled.The world started spining then everything went blank.

.........................

"Your highness?"

"Time to wake up,Master Lucio"

I slowy peeled my eyes open to find Althea standing over me,a small smile on her face.I sat up on now realizing I was sleeping on a couch.

"What happaned?" I asked now realising how calm I felt.I felt oldly calm and like something is missing.

"You couldn't handle the heat and passed out.I layed you on the couch" She said with a smirk.

I growl at her making her smirk widen.I checked the time and my eyes widen when I saw it was nightime. I stood up stretching.

"Thank you,Athlea" I thanked her.

She bowed and then I teleported to our room.It was empty making me frown.I tracked Amatu's scent and it led me to my little sisters room.I opened the door to find Amatus snuggled up on my sisters bed while she ran her fingers through his hair.

She glared at me when she noticed me.I sigh and smiled apologetically at her.She huffed and looked away making me almost roll my eyes.

"He came to me telling me that he thinks he messed up and that you were mad at him.He just fell asleep.Why didn't you tell him instead of hurting him?" Amara said.

I ignored her and gently picked up my mate,groaning.He felt a little heavy since Aylosius was domant.When we reached our room I placed him on his side.I followed suit and got on my side.He immideatly snuggled on my chest.I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his head.

I was woken up by cold air coming from the balcony.I sat up with a yawn only realizing now Amatus was not in bed.I went to the balcony to find him sitting on the couch,starring into space.

I sat down next to him and his head snap next to me for a brief moment before looking out in the forest again.

"Why didn't you wake me up,Amatus"? I asked him sofly.

He shrugged but kept queit.We were queit for a while until he broke it.

"Althea helped you right"?

I stared at him with a raised brow.

"Amara told me" He said.

"Yeah she did,we won't be hearingfrom Aylosius for three months" I told him.

He swallowed "I'm realy sorry,Ambrosius.I nkow it's my fault and I promise i'll be ready the next time." He said making me frown.

"Amatus-"

"No listen.I know I was not what you expect especially mentally.I'm getting better especially now that i'm out of that house.I know I messed up even though I don't know how.I just need more time and I p-pro-"

He couldn't finish talking because he started breathing heavyly,his heartbeat increased and he started sucking in big gulps of air.I frown but gently placed my hands on either side of his face.He quickly graps on my wrist.I winced when I felt his claws pierce my skin but ignored it and focused on calming him down.When our eyes connected I sucked in a breath.Small droplets of tears were slowly coming from his eyes.I had never seen him cry and it hurt to witness this now.

"Breath with me,baby." I said calmly.He noded his head frantically.

"In and out.....in and out,there you go.....in and out........you doing so good."

He copied my breathing until he his breathing and heart slowed down.I pulled him in my chest wanting to make sure he was okay.

"Thank you" He whispered,his voice hoarse.

I squeezed him. "Don't thank me for taking care of you,my angelus"

We remained like that for a while until he pulled back and wiped his nose and face with his shirt sleeves.He scotted away from me a little and bowed his head.My heart broke at the sight and my wolf howl in pain.He looked so broken it broke my heart.

"I'm sorry,Ambrosius.I'm such a messed up person and I know you deserve better but you my mate and in my messed up mind,selfishness also exints" He told me queitly,his head still bowed.

I sigh and leaned back on the couch.

"My first thought when I first saw you was,fucking perfect.I knew you were Alpha Roscio but I din't care and I still don't,baby.It's not your fault that Aloysius is domant.You were not ready and I wasn't going to force you into doing something you not ready to do.I'll wait for you,Amatus"

I took his hand in mine and kissed his wrist before intertwining it with mine.He raised his head and look at me.I cupped his cheek.

"You are everything I ever dreamed about in a mate and more.You not messed up,you have your own demons like everybody does." I told him sofly.

He swallowed emotions flowing in his eyes.

"I'm sorry for the way I acted towards you.I was trying to protect you.I nkew that if I saw you I wouldn't be able to control myself and my beast."

He smiled a small one and in return I grinned and wiggled my eyebrows making him chuckle.I opened my arms and he laughed before snuggling in my chest.

"Ambrosius?" I hummed.

"You won't leave me,right?"

"Never,"

"Someone once told me that I won't have a mate and that if I do he'll reject me" He said making me want to murder that asshole.

"Well,that person is an asshole for saying that to you.You derseve a mate and more,luna meum."

He beamed at me before schocking me as he smashed his lips against mine.He has never anatianted anything before, so I was shocked but I quickly responded and kissed him back.I need to know what or who hurt my mate.I want to make them suffure like they did to my beloved.