I peeled my eyes opened at the scream my mate realesed.I quickly pulled him in my arms but he fought them off and got off the bed and headed for the door.

"Where are?.....Amatus?" I called jumping off the bed just as he open the door.

I followed him down the corridor and down the stairs.I thought about touching him but I wanted to see where he was going.His nightmares have come back again.They come and go.Aloisia had told me that he gets them when he is stressed and I have a clues on why he is sressed.Ever since that meeting three days ago his questions have been more and more intense,so I started burrying myself in work to avoid him.

I would leave early and come back late when he is asleep.I nkow it's a shitty thing to do but I don't know what to do.I know that if he ask me one of his questions again I will crack.I could feel his fustration and hurt through our bond and it didn't do anything to ease my guilt.

I followed him in the living room and outside.The outside breez slap my face harshely.It was winter so it has started snowing.His bare feet melted the snow they stepped on.He just stood there staring at the ground and I couldn't see his face.

I stood next to him queitly and placed my hand on his shoulder but he flinched and snap his wide and terrified eyes to me.

He looked like a lost child.I retracted my hand quickly.

"It's just me,baby" I said queitly.

"The snow is hurting my feet" He mumbled,making me frown.

"Let's go inside where your feet can be warm" I said sofly and took his heand slowly.

I sigh when he didn't fight me.I lead him into the fire place and sat him next to it and I took a seat next to him on the bearrug and wrapped my arms around his shoulder and he leaned against me.

It was silent as we sat there,the only sound was the crackling of the fire,until Amatus broke it.

"I want to tell you about nighmare...They are memories actually"He said.

"You can tell me anything,luna meum,take your time" I said and kissed his shoulder.

"Uh well...When I was growing up my family was very happy.I was a happy child.My parents both adored me."

"I dore you too" I said sofly.

His cheeks tinted pinke before he cleared his throat "My father and I were very close.We did almost everything together,my mother would always joke about how I took her mate from her but when I look back she wasn't joking about that."

I frowned but refrained from saying anything.He released a sigh. "One day my father was going on a meetng with a neghbouring pack and like always I begged him to take me with him.I guess it was my lucky that which turned sour because he agreed."

"Dad and the Alpha of that pack were always clashing so the alpha had called a meeting to sort these out and make a treaty.When we got there,he apologised to my father and suggested a stupid treaty with our pack.When dad refused he got realy angry at shifted to his wolf in the blink of an eyes"

He paused to take sharp intake of breaths like he was realiving the memory. "You can stop,it's okay"

"No.I want to tell you...Where was I?....oh right,so Dad shifted too and they fought.My father told me through the midlink to hide but I was the Alpha's son,I was not going hide.I was going to fight.I took the chair I was sitting in and threw it at the back of the wolves back but it didn't do anythng but make him more angry.He turn around and had this wild look on his face"

"He didn't waste time and lunged at me and I closed my eyes to brace for the impact but when minutes passed without anything happaning I opened them.My dad was lying in a pool of blood and he had shifted back to his human form.He had jumped infront of me and the other Alpha stabbed him right in the hear wih his claws"

He started breathing heavely and sucking in deep breaths of air.

"You can stop now,baby" I said and pulled him closer to me.

He shook his head and wipe a few tears "I said I was telling you"

"I forgot how stubborn you can be" I said and wipe his tears.My heart bled at the sight of his tears.He tryed smiling but failed miserably.

He sniffed and continued "Ever since that day my mother had hated my very extistence.She blamed me for my fathers death.Then the abuse started,first it was just verbal.She would call me names but then it got physcical where she would beat me with her hands and that didn't hurt as much as when she would beat me with anything she would find"

"It became like that until I started hitting puberty when I was 15 amd the real toture started.At first she would call me to her room just to tell me how much I look like my father.Loss had finally hit her so hard that she started t-touching me like you would"

He swallowed and moved away from me only to flinch when I reached out to him.

"Then she would tie me up bondage style and touch me.She would inject me with something to make me um..hard and then she would do things to me I would never forget.Sia would find me bruised and swollen and she would take me to the infimary and that's how we started being friends"

It was queit as he sniffened queitly and I was trying to keep my beasts under controll.They wanted to hunt down the women who hurt our mate,who scared him so much that he can't sleep at night.

"Come here,baby" My voice came out as a growl making him flinch before shaking his head and standing up.I acted quickly and swiped my leg under his and he fell but I caught him before he could reach the ground.

I pulled him in my lap and he wrapped his arms around my neck,burrying his face in my neck.

"Did she....Did she ever go beyond touching you?" I asked the dreaded question and I knew if he says yes,I won't stop my beasts.

He shook his head "No"

I pulled him closer to me and burried my nose in his hair,taking in his scent to calm myself and my beasts down.

"I'm sorry this happaned to you,amica mea.I'm sorry you had to go through that.You were so young and just lost your father,you were still grivieng.No child has to go through that but you went through it and your here today,safe in my arms.....My strong mate"

Then the damn broke.I held him as he broke down,my beasts howling in pain for their mate.He cried and cried until there were no tears left to cry.I helped him wipe his face and nose when he calm down.When his face was clean he placed it back in the crook of my neck.

I continued to hold him as he drifted to sleep in my arms.I could feel myself still shaking from the anger I was feeling and Amatus emotion through the bond.I can't believe my mate went through so much growing up.I have a lot of questions I wanted to ask but he had enough.I will have to ask aloisia because I don't think I would be able to control myself if he sheds another tear because of his so called mother.

I teleported us to our room and gently placed him under the covers.I quickly teleported to Aloisia's and Angela's room and I wish I didn't.Aloisia's head was burried between angela's thighs.

They were so into each other that they didn't even notice me appear inside their room.I cleared my throat and Angela screamed while her mate growled.

"There is something called a door,where you nock on it before we tell you to come in" Aloisia snaped at me as he cover angela with a blanket.

"I'm not going to say sorry" I said plainly and she gave me the middle finger making Angela gasps.

She pecked her gaping mouth "sorry,princess"

I sat down at the couth next to the window and got straight to bussines. "Amatus told me what happaned with his mother and I have a few questions"

She sigh sadly "Is he okay?"

"He will be but he is asleep now" I told her.

"Ask away" She said.

"How old was he when his father died?" I wanted to know when the torment started.

"He was nine"

"Why didn't you report his mother?"

"He was convinced she was going to change because at some days she would be the loving mother and Luna we all knew" Aloisia said.

"Where is she?"

She shook her head "I can-"

"Where is she,Aloisia" I growled at her,making Angela flinch.

"When Amatus turn eighteen he challenged her for the Alpha position and he won obviously and we decide to put her in the institute" She said.

The institute was where anyone who lost their mate goes to wait for their death or find their second chance mate.I thanked her and teleported back to our room.