It's been awhile since I moved in with Vixon-about a month I belive. It has to say the least been the best month-no moments of my life. Spending time with him is all that matters to me and we're actually happy. I could smile and actualy feel good about myself now a'days.

"Babbbyyy!!" Vixon mummbled hugging me closely to his bare chest as I stuggle to get up and ready for my job at the Gas Station.

I sighed and laughed, "Hunn! I got to get to work! I cant be late,AGAIN!"

He made a pouty face and held me tighter, "Call in sick! I want to cuddle my mushi cotton candy ass baby!"

I laughed and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, "You can come see me at work Vixon."

He moaned in annoyance and captured my lips in a qucik kiss, "I'll see you soon then love..."

I smiled and waves a 'see ya' and was out the door heading to the bus stop. The walk was about 5-10 minutes depending on the path I took and how motivated I was to work. I sat down taking out my phone to tell Vixon I was at the bus stop. He always was worried about me since I moved in, always wanting to check up on me-plus if i didn't text him he'd through a fit and call me until I pick up-he might even call the cops and file me as a missing person!

I laughed at the thought as I began to text him:

(~￣▽￣)~

I pushed send and shoved my phone into my pocket as I saw the bus approaching. I quickly climbed in and waved to Marry-the bus driver-and took a seat near a fire escape window. Its a thing I do in case the thing flips I can get out.. I knew i was paranoid but better safe then sorry! I suddenly felt my phone vibrate and took it out of my pocket, opening the message.

I smiled and walked off the bus and through the door of 'Maner's Gas'. As I entered I waved to my boss and took my post at the cash register. I smiled as I did my job, it was easy considering that not may people came by the place.Time passed for hours and on hours.

I stared bored out my mind out the window, wondering what awaited me back at home. I was pulled out my daze suddenly as i heard the door bell chime. I turned to greet them but froze. Right there in the door way stood Mr.BigAndBad-Kelvin. I starred shocked and shaking in my shoes. He smiled that smile I longed to forget and never see again, yet here he was.

"Hello, love..." He smiled leaning in the door way hands behind his back, his eyes roaming over me.

"Ke-kelvin...y-you'r no-not suppose t-t-to be here..." I whispered shakily just loud enough that he could hear.

He frowned, "But I wanna talk to you, baby. I love you." He stepped forward slightly and I stepped back. He noticed and smirked, "Still afraid? You don't need to be! I can protect and care for you! I can love you more then anyone else ever will!".

I turned away and let out a large breath, "Kelvin please just go! Your not allowed here and if you wanna see me you have to talk to the cops and arrange a meeting. You know that! Please. Just go!" I yelled gently to him, not wanting to piss him off-for i knew what he was capable of.

He looked at me and walked towards me-pulling out a pistol and pointing it at me, "What did you say?! You don't mean that! You love me!! Don't you?!", he screamed pointing the gun in my face.

I gulped and smiled, "Kelvin...put the gun away please. We can talk about it! I swear we can just put it away and we'll talk as much as you like!", he shook his head and screamed.

"Say you love me! Say it!!!", he grabbed hold of me and pushed me harshly against the wall.

I shook and looked him in his eyes-tears cascading from mine, "I-I L-love yo-you...", I lied knowing he was so out of it he wouldn't know the difference.

He smiled at me and forced me to sit down by the wall and held me in his arms-gun still to my head.

He patted my head and ran a hand through hair gently, "Oh,baby...I thought I lost you...", he whispered his eyes on me-blood shot, and red.

I shook terrified of what would happen,"Kelvin...pl-please...let me go."

He frowned at me, "Love, is something I can't let go of. I love you! AND YOU LOVE ME! SO WE CAN BE TOGETHER! WE CAN LEAVE AND BE HAPPY!", he yelled pulling me close and cupping my face gently, "Don't you want that?"

I looked up at him terrified, and eyes full of tears, "Kelvin, we-we can't..."

"Why not?! I love you!" he yelled grasping my face tightly.

"B-because....Kelvin the cops will find us and then well just be in trouble..." I lied, "They'll take me away from you and then you'll never see me ag-"

"Liar." he stated flatly grabbing my throat and forcing me to stand, "It's because of HIM! The one who stole you from me!"

"Kelvin please, ba-baby..." I tried to calm him as i felt my head sway.

"You never loved me!" he screamed putting the gun to my temple, "You lia-", I quickly cut him off as I grabbed his face and smiled.

"I-I lo-love you.." I lied forcing down the vile in my throat and smiling up at him gently holding his face.

He smiled and released the grip on my throat and brought his lips to mine. I resisted the urge to push him away, and waited for my chance. He tasted like alcohol and cigarettes, and made me want to gage. I waited until he released his hard hold and brought my knee right to his 'baby maker' and high tailed it to the door.

I could feel my heart beat ferociously in my chest,and hear my blood pumping in my ear. I could hear Kelvins struggles to stand-I could hear the sound of a car parking and hurried foot steps. I stopped and put my hands on the door and my eyes meet my love's-my one and only...Vixon. And just as I let my eyes shine in relief and smile at his worried face, i heard the click of the gun and heard it fire.

I screamed and fell hard onto the floor, i couldn't feel a thing.

"NOO!" i heard Vixon's voice above me along with a second fire followed by the words 'See you later love...'.

I looked up and smiled as Vixon laid me in his lap.

"Hi..." I laughed, and coughed seeing th red liquid stain through my shirt.

"Shhh-do-dont talk..." he smiled tears running down his face, he took out his phone and dialed '911' and stated the address and the situation and tossed the phone.

I smiled up at him, "Vixon..."

"Y-yes honey?"

"Kiss me...one last time..." I smiled tears falling.

He weeped and leaned towards me pressing his lips gently against mine, it felt just like the first time we kissed, it felt like the first time I've seen his beautiful face in the light of day.

"Vixon...I need you to promise me something before-before I-i go...", I coughed the pain beginning to hit me and my body beginning to slag.

"No! Yo-you can't leave me!?" He cried.

I smiled sadly and touched his cheek, "Vixon...please, You and I both know I'm not gona make it just please, promise me something..."

He cried and shook his head holding my hand,"Anything, anything..."

"Promise you'll always love me, and-and that you'll never forget me..." I smiled as tears fell and my eyes meet his, replaying all the times we had together and the days I cherished for so long.

"How could I forget? How could I forget the beautiful sound of silent rain... or the voice it has once it begins to fall-fall in love? Or how you make my heart burn and tear for you...I'll always love you...always" Vixon smiled sadly planting one last kiss to my lips.

I could hear the sound of faint sirens in the distance,they where to late tho...I was leaving, "I love you Vixon..." I said for the last time as I began to fade-letting all of myself be taken off into the light...

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I knelt next to the ground leaning gently against the stone, carved with the name 'Rain, boyfriend,son,friend'. I watched as the sky grower cold, as with my heart. I could still hear him sometimes, when i woke up...I still expected him to be there right by my side. He wasn't though...he was gone, and I was here.

I remember that day how he laid cold and unmoving in my arms ,how i watched his life drain away, how the paramedics tried so hard to bring him back, and how...it didn't happen. How he laid there dead and they had to leave him there and trace his body, then carry him out in a black body bag. How I was told to 'go home' , who would expect someone to just 'go home' right after losing the one person who was your home,your life,you'r reason to wake up every morning and live...who?

I asked myself everyday after that 'why?'. Why him? Why not me? Why did he have to die? He never did anything wrong,he was innocent,sweet,kind,shy,gentle,and socially impaired,and he was my angel...my one and only love. So why? Why did they take him away from me...why?

I remembered how we talked about our future together, how he smiled up at me hands in mine in bed at night, "I think when we get older we should adopt kids...", I smiled at Rain, "How many?", he laughed "As many as we can! They all deserve to be happy and you and me...we'd be great parents...". I smiled and kissed him, "Yea...we would..."

I remembered the time when we discussed if we'd ever get married...."Maybe when we get into collage..." he smiled as he kissed me. "Why not after high school-why not now?" I smiled, he turned and laughed and kissed me, "You really think well be together forever?" I smiled and put a simple ring on his finger, "Yea and just to prove it here...it's promise ring..." He smiled with tears in his eyes, and kissed me, "Guess you and I are stuck with each other...." , he laughed, "That's promise, I promise I'll marry you-one day..." and we smiled and watched the stars light up the sky.

I remembered our first fight, and how utterly stupid it was...."Zebra's can't be considered a horse..." , "Why not?! They look like a horse and probably sound like one too!" Rain pointed out. "Oh, so just cause a tiger looks like a cat makes it a cat also?!" I mocked. He tilted his head and crossed his arms, "Yes." , "No it's not!"- "Yes it is!"-'"No"-"Yes"-"No"-"Yes!". I smiled at his red irritated face. "You know what?" I smiled, he sighed "What?", "If you say a Zebras a horse then I have to agree..." he stared and me,"And why's that?", "Cause I love you, and love is about belief and trust -plus a women's always right."- He smiled and tossed a pillow at me laughing.

There was only good times with him, and there could have been more. But death took him from me and I'd just have to wait to join him. I could hear The the wind blow violently above me and the harshness of rain fly by. I didn't care, nothing could make me just up and leave my spot by him.

I smiled and laughed, "I miss you...I really do. I'm started to take collage classes Im going to graduate early. I did it for you. You remember how I told you I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life?", I paused and looked to his stone imagining I'm there before me, "Well I decided...that I want to be a therapist and help people,like I did you. So I can make someone else happy. Make someone else's life better...for you."

The storm flew past and I looked up at the sky with tears cascading down my cheeks at the sight I saw. A rainbow was above me,above us.

I smiled and laughed, "Speaking of Rainbows, you can't have a rainbow with out a little rain...just like me and you." , I looked down at the stone one last time and placed the bouquet of flowers down.

"You know, I'll never forget the silent sound rain has...before it falls-like I fell for you, I love you Rain." , I smiled sadly as I made my way down the small hill, letting the rain fall gently around me. And I swear to you I could still feel his hand in mine as I walked off into the cascading brilliance around me-life.