I was in my room on my laptop, googling wedding dresses and trying to understand the differences between different Designs.

Haven't I told you before, I kinda have dress phobia, I hate dresses, I've worn them before but only under my mother's pressure.

Why.......?

Because It always seemed like a totally foreign world to me.

All the names, all the shapes, all the fabrics, seemed confusing.

" God, this is so confusing, this should be a science on Its own, or they should teach this to females in their final year at School " I mumbled.

Each shape had a name, like ball gowns, trumpet silouhette, mermaid silouhette and etc.

Even the fabrics were confusing, this one is called tulle, that one is lace, the other is georgette...... Ahhhhh.

" That tulle took It's toll on me... Yeah pun intended.... Oh God I caught James's sense of humor " I said to myself, laughing.

And I still had to find which one is perfect for me.

" Should I just ask James to chose for me?? He had been to fashoin weeks and extravagant weddings, he definitely understood the differences between these designs, and could pick the perfect one for me..... No, no, I'm the pride, I should do it for myself, I should enjoy this experience " I said to myself.

I envy James, he only had to show up in a black suit, end of stoy, but I had to pick a dress, a hijab, a crown, the shoes, accessories and the bouquet of flowers, can't we just trade places for a day.

As I was immersed on studying " literally " for my wedding, my phone rang.

It was a private number, I decided to answer because I knew James as a businessman had multiple different numbers and some of them could be private.

" Assalam Alikum... James " I said answering the phone.

" No..... His mother " the voice on the other side said.

My heart literally sank, that was the last voice I expected to hear on my phone.

" Oh.... Mmm.. How.. How Are you doing ma'am?" I said awkwardly.

" Fine... Fine... Congratulations by the way my son came by and told me about the news " she said coldly.

" Oh... Thank you.. Thank you" I said.

" I just wanted to let you know that you have my blessings for this marriage you saved my son's life many times and I'm eternally grateful " she said.

" Oh.... I can't describe how pleased I am to hear this " I said.

" And as a sign of my good intentions, I'm inviting you to the mansion to prepare you suite as you wish, James told me that you are staying here for some time before you go on your honeymoon " she said.

" wha......oh..thank you, but James is better than me at this I guess " I said awkwardly.

" No, I insist, this part of the mansion needs a feminine touch, I'm expecting you..... Today " she said.

" Today... But I have no idea about house decorations!!! " I said.

" It doesn't matter, just Come today to see the suite and then take your time to decide what you want, I really want to see my son's pride today " she said.

" Oh... Okay then I'll call James and tell him to come pick me up " I said.

" Oh no, no, don't do that, let's make it a surprise for him, I'll send you my own driver, he will pick you up in an hour " she said.

" Okay ma'am I'll be waiting " I serrundered to her suggestion.

I got up to wash my face and prepare myself to go to the Wayne's mansion.

I haven't seem her since James was in the hospital and I was literraly freaking out.

My mum entered the room as I was putting my cloths on.

" Where are you going now???" my mum asked.

" James' mother called and asked to see me now, she is sending me her driver " I explained.

" That's odd " mum said.

" Yeah, that what I was thinking too, but I want to be on her good side " I said.

" Yeah, I think so, she is your mother in law, you children will ber her grandchildren, you need to keep the kinship, but be careful Jannah " mum said.

" She is my mother in law, I don't think that she would do anything to hurt me, she wouldn't risk losing James " I said.

" Yes, you are right, but with that woman you wouldn't know " mum said leaving the room.

My mother's words made me even more nervous.

We heard a car arriving at the gate of our house, I looked out and it was a limo.

" Oh God, she is doting on me" I said to myself.

I said my goodbyes and left the house.

It took us 35 minutes to arrive at the mansion.

I got off the car, and a butler showed up at the gates.

" Mrs Selina is expecting you Miss Mohamed " he said.

He led the way, and I kept looking at the hallways and the rooms of the mansion.

The last time I was here, I ran away like cinderella after his mother put wine in my food, I could never forget that.

" I hope that this time, it doesn't end like that" I mumbled.

" Right this way Miss " the butler said, opening a big door for me.

" Thank you Alfred pennyworth " I said jokingly.

The butler didn't laugh at it.

" Oh God, James' shtick again " I faceplamed myself.

" Hello darling " James' mother voice cut my silly thoughts off.

" oh.. Hi ma'am" I said awkwardly.

" Come here daughter in law" she said hugging me.

I couldn't resist so I hugged back.

" Come on have a seat" she said, after letting me go.

" Thank you ma'am" I said.

" Oh please, you make me feel old, call me Selina" she said.

" But... Okay as you wish.... Selina " I said.

" So James told me that you are getting married in a few weeks??" she said.

" In Shaa Allah " I said.

She didn't say anything, she just looked at me awkwardly.

" Oh it means, if Allah wants, It's a way of asking for Allah's blessings by Seeking his approval " I explained.

" Oh, yes, yes, I understand " she said.

Then silence prevailed again for about ten minute.

I didn't know what to say, and I didn't want to say anything that would make her angery, she was James' mother after all, and he loved her even if he disapproved of her antics, and I love whoever he loves.

" Look daughter I want you to know that I approve of your marrige, James is my only son and I want him to have anything in the world, if you will make him happy, you make me happy, so let's burry the past, and begin a new era full of love and acceptance " she said.

" Of course ma'.... Selina " I said.

" Okay, then let's get to business, I'm gonna show you around the mansion, after all It's going to be your place" she said.

" Okay " I said.

I got up with her, she took my hand, and kept dragging me after her.

It was a huge place to live in, I bet jinn live in some of its empty rooms.

Every room had a bathroom, a huge bed, and a huge wardrope.

You could literaly live at any room independetaly from the rest of the house, and never have to leave the room.

Houses are supposed to be for families to live in, but It didn't feel like a house for a family to interact with each other, it felt like a prison Where every body hated each other and never wanted to see each other.

After seeing a few rooms, she stopped and said.

" And the part of the house we are about to see is where you are going to stay with James " she explained before opening the door.

I got in after her, and suddenly I heard her scream

" James!!! " she shouted.

I looked at what she was looking at, and I felt that my eyes caught on fire.

Do you know that feeling when you see some thing that you are not supposed to see and you just wish the the ground split apart and swallow you?? that was exactly how I felt.

It took me a moment or two to fathom the scene I saw.

I saw James sleeping in bed, shirtless, and blond woman sleeping next to him, also half naked.

Our entrance has woken the woman up, but James was still asleep.

" Honey, James baby, wake up " the blond woman said trying to wake James up.

I couldn't move my eyes off James, I wanted my eyes to be the first thing he sees when he wakes up to understand my anger, also it could be the last time he sees them.

Finally, after five minutes, James has woken up.

" Wh... What... Jannah " he was shocked to see me.

His eyes kept moving back and forth between me and the girl.

" What the hell??? What are you doing here??" he asked me.

" Ask yourself first what are you doing here???" I asked him.

" I swear.... I can't remember " he looked genuinly confused.

" And you are drunk too???" I shouted at him.

" No.. I swear Jannah... I haven't had a drink in years, I'm a muslim you know " he said.

" Well, it seems like you forgot you are a muslim " I said.

" I swear... I can't remember... If I just can remember... Oh God... My head " he put his hand on his head.

"Goodbye James" I said leaving the room.

" No wait... Wait.. Jannah.. Wait " James kept chasing after me, trying to grab my shoulder to stop me.

" Don't touch me " I shouted at him, coming face to face with him.

" It is not what it looks like.. Hell.. I can't even remeber what happened??" he said.

" Well.. You have plenty of time to remeber...without me" I said.

" I know you don't believe me... But I swear by..." he said.

" Don't swear by God when you are lying, and one last thing, open your hand!! " I said.

" What.. Why?? " he asked.

" Just open it" I said.

He opened his hand.

" And here is your ring, I no longer want to wear it " I said, putting the ring in his palm.

" What?? No Jannah.. Please... Let me explain. " he said.

" James don't you see it!!!! You are a cheater!!! You already cheated on me before even marrying me!!! and I no longer want to carry your name, It's over, this is over. Hell.....I believed you, I trusted you, and the first thing you did when you got out of my house is this!!! I never thought that you would be capable of hurting me like this, but you did, so congratulations James Wayne, you have achieved the impossible and I hate you, I hate you Mr Wayne " I said, moving away from him.

I looked at his face, he was shocked to hear words from me he never thought I was capable of saying.

I knew every word cut through his heart like a dagger, but I was angery, I was madly angery at him.

Maybe our marriage is a mistake that should never happen.