'honestly, i'm scared

the world's drunk in a swirling glass

at the edge is my burning heart'

- drunk-dazed, enhypen

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Kyungsoo was used to having no roots. Always on the run and never secure enough to create that study structure, he liked to trick himself into believing it wasn't his fault, but when a guy chased you after a hockey game while also using your significant other and putting your brother in danger, he tended to relapse into blaming himself and only himself. In which he would become quite unhealthy.

"You don't happen to know how to get a hold of Spider-Man's tracking device do you?" Eric looked towards his brother with panic and question.

"Right now isn't the time to b thinking about meeting your heroes Kyungsoo!" Eric tried to keep his voice down in the cvar, but the humour within the question his brother asked because of the situation made it hard for him to be a professional older brother.

"It's Peter."

"Well then you've met your hero so shut the fuck up and help me think of a pla-" Kyungsoo interrupted with ease.

"No, Spider-Man is Peter, Peter is Spider-Man and that dick back there knew and said something about him being dead. It will be my fault Eric. All mine!" Eric just sped the car up, heading the best way possible to Jaehyun, the eldest brother being the one who knows all in crappy situations like being chased by Hydra agents.

"Kyungsoo, you know that's dense thinking, Jae is the brains okay, you're the brawls and I'm just the one who can drive well."

"You cook really well to, like a warm mother would."

Eric ignored his brother's complimentary insult, used to the jokes as he could give them too, he simply continued to drive hazardously towards there safe space, Jae's voice ringing out annoyed through the car speakers after Kyungsoo rang him. "Hello, brother, haven't got long to talk. Just head home. Hydra shenanigans, nothing important." A slap could be heard through the line "Ouch Eric, two hands on the wheel you rebel."

"Very important Jae, mother and father should be informed too."

"That serious, what the hell did you Kyungsoo?"

"Nothing just a slight altercation, can you use those weird connections and get tracking information on Spider-Man. Please no questions, I will explain later."

The two brothers rush towards their front door, two other cars sat near by, left on the drive in a dash to have the family meeting. Slight noise ran throughout the large empty halls, hitting their ears along with the bumps of their nervous hearts. It's been a while since they had to go through this, the blip giving them an extra 5 years despite Kyungsoo and Eric being the only two to vanish during it.

The indistinct chatter started to resemble real words as the two skidded to halt, immediately Kyungsoo marched towards Jae, dragging him with hush questions of whether he got Peter's tracking info. The boy had no real fighting experience, just fleeing, but for Peter he'd shoot 'beanstalks' through as many ribcages as possible.

Hi ignored parents, just stood stiffly, hardly seeing one another as is. The both prepared work and only came out of hiding when it was serious like this, as they were at risk themselves too. Kyungsoo took a device from Jae's hands, "A man named Happy, interesting name, said 'doing anything weird and he will end you' not sure but I'd listen to him kiddo."

Kyungsoo didn't know what to say, a embrace was all he could think of, he knew he could trust his brother, no questions asked, just pure trust and love between the. All three of them had been through too much to give up on one another. Kyungsoo headed back towards the front door, the quicker he got out the quicker he could help Peter, or even see that he's alive.

"Yoo Kyungsoo, sit down."

"Mother not right now please."

"Kyungsoo, this damages the whole family, you will stay until it's discussed. We will have to leave again because of you, so the least you could do is sit down."

"I didn't ask for this, it's just a friend is possibly in a life threatening situation because of Hydra-" Kyungsoo faltered at the damaging words, Eric who just soothed out his nerves looked to reach, but Kyungsoo had already succumbed to blaming himself again.

"Because of you."

"Father, that's harsh, Kyungsoo wouldn't do any of this purposefully."

"I think it's time we stop sheltering him, Jae. You are his older brother I understand, but we might as well never buy a house if we constantly leave. We no longer have Tony Stark to secure us job relocating-"

"There must be a way father, Happy used to work for Mr Stark personally we can-"

"I don't want to move. I finally have a place. God I even some how got a boyfriend in this whole crappy situation and we have to move, probably to like the arctic at that." Kyungsoo's clutch tightened on the device that buzzed with the knowledge of Peter's where abouts. Each word his parent's spoke striking him like lightening, however the kid was a 'freak' so the sensation just fuelled up his powers, like Hulk, the angrier he got the closer he was to losing it all. This constant blame not making it better as emotions were mixing and he couldn't let it out by punching his father, that would be rude. The world around him was visibly swirling from he exposure and extortion of power.

"We have to, Kyunggie, you know it can't be helped. We don't, Eric and I, hold none of this against you. I'm sure Peter would understand the situation" It was slowly dawning all 3 of the brothers that this was incredibly serious, another relocating would commence for the family, this time more heart breaking as they had found comfort in their Midtown location. Jaehyun had a job he genuinely liked and found solace in his brother's feeling like they had a place that they could call a home. Eric was doing his best at University, juggling it and his hobby of cooking, one that his parent's frowned upon as it wasn't 'a real career path', but he loved it and he loved cooking for his university friends and introducing them into flavours he grasped from each move. He had people other than Jae and Kyungsoo. Kyungsoo, well Kyungsoo had issues still but he had friends, though not the favourite people of the school, he was achieving well in sports and academics and he scored the cute guy he would admire when he wore a blue jumper over his shirts to school, though then he was watching him watch Liz.

"Kyungsoo, the quicker you sit down the quicker this process will be, do you understand son? We will ignore the fact you went against the rules of finding a girl- partner, you know that is strictly forbidden, it creates issues like this. We will discuss it in depth when we move. We have the next location already, that's always planned ahead." In a way that answer was admirable, Kyungsoo just came out to his parents and they didn't shout at him for having an interest in men.

"Well it doesnt matter now, we are leaving so I'll be leaving him won'y I? How far? Please say like Ohio."

"South Korea."

"Home?" Eric jumped in, each confused about the return to South Korea

"Sadly. No expects you to return, as you put it, 'home' while being chased I guess."

"Mother is that necessary, that is where we were raised by our grandmother." South Korea held many happy and many sad memories for the three children of the Yoo family. That country is where it all started for them, somewhere so far away in location but so close to their hearts.

"I guess not Seoul?"

"Daegu, luckily for me and your mother it still has work opportunities. I leave Eric and Kyungsoo into your hands Jaehyun, handle their education and whatever their needs require please. Your mother and I have packing to do and some calls to make. Jaehyun call that Happy figure and see if you can pull some strings. Oh and Kyungsoo, don't do anything stupid again. Can't have you risking it all for us again." Absolute silence, a pin dropping could be heard as their parent's ascended the stairs away from the boys who were nothing but unluckily blood related to them.

"Nice of them to inform us at least."

"Yeah, but put it all onto me again, How am I meant to know what school to send the trouble maker over here too?" Jae went to point to a solid figure of Kyungsoo, but it was void of him, just a slight click of a door was heard, both knew he had made a run as soon as his parent's were out of hearing and seeing reach.

"Who? Caspar?"

"Har. Har. You think he will be okay though Eric? I worry for him."

"He's a tough cookie, you raised him well okay, don't doubt him or yourself. Want to eat all the instant ramen when he gets back?"

"Just the right amount of water please, or you won't be seeing Daegu. We should go chase him right?"

"Jae, oh Jae, lets give him a head start like the old times. By the way that Peter kid-"

"The small and cute one?"

"Guess what, he's Spider-Man."

"Don't lie to me like that."

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Kyungsoo ran as fast as he could towards Eric's car, wanting a quick route to Peter's location that sat in his front trouser pocket. His parent's harsh words tainting his brain like alcohol and making his decisions rash, ill thought out and spinning with each step he took. Kyungsoo held no idea in his brain of what he would actually do when he found Peter, he was supposed to start training this month with people that Jae had connections with, but not anymore. He'd go back to pretending everything was normal with his broken hangul let alone new slang that would have developed.

Hi marker on the map was getting closer to Peter's but the closer it got the worse his surroundings got. Just like the warehouse before, flames engulfed the dimming sky and lights of blue and red flashed from every angle. With that came road blocks, something this car wouldn't be able to pass by without being arrested. The traffic was at a stand still, but Kyungsoo refused to be, he lunged out the car and made his hectic steps closer to the suits tacker.

The heat radiating from the flames could be felt from where he was, Kyungsoo still had a good 5 minute sprint before he was truly close, so the heat he could feel already panicked him, the only hope he clung onto was that the flashing circle that signalled Peter's location seemed to teleport in and out of the building, hopefully it wasn't a lie and Peter was swinging victims out out.

Kyungsoo was closer now, he recognised the sound of web shooters, he never felt so relieved to know the sound so well. His feet carried him further, the heat unbearable but he couldn't stop now, not with the threat that Peter was meant to be dead. He knew this wasn't it, it can't be, he can't let his guard down while Peter's life relied on his actions. Hydra weren't weak, though small in scale after the defeat against King T'Challa, they still had impenetrable walls that held unmoving supporters.

Sadly for Kyungsoo, his hunch was correct. Men with hefty guns that could cause more damage to this already ingulfed situation charged out of the shadows and aimed for the boy swinging back towards the building. The guns began to light up with energy, the slight lag in Peter's move showed that he could tell he wasn't so safe any more, but he chose the trapped innocence over his own life. He always would and Kyungsoo knew that dark truth, ever since Ben, Peter would rather fall than anyone else fall.

"Peter Don't! Please, just wait! They will kill you!"

"Kyungsoo? What? Get out of here!" Kyungsoo ran towards the boy in the self built suit.

"Peter, these people are far bigger than you and I-"

"I have super strength, they have guns, I've fought worse Kyungsoo, like Thanos. Come on please leave, I want you safe."

"If they get you Peter-" "Kyungsoo I promise they won't"

"They want me, let me distract them and you can continue. Please just wait while I grow some confidence, it won't take long hang on."

"Kyungsoo what do you mean they want you?" Kyungsoo sighed.

"Remember I said I've kind of been on the run, like the Princess Protection Program, I'm like Demi Lovato in this situation but just more torture and guns and less prom queen and really nice dresses, we should watch that before I leave."

"Wait they are Hydra? This is bigger than I thought, does Happy know? I have to tell Happy. Kyungsoo where are you going?" Kyungsoo already took up a slight jog as Peter rambled on and had EDITH contact Happy with the strategy changing news.

"Just going to make myself the centre of attention like I usually do, see you on the other side Petey!"

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somehow only have two chaps left, the epilogue is written and edited, love it or hate it oops.

i want to finish this soon for you all, and for all the people that keep adding my loki book to a reading list, i havent even completed the characters for that um... i think that will be uploading every friday, as with this book i caught up on myself updating daileee.

i also got distracted by tharntype and thousand stars and my lovely writer so sorry.

ILL REREAD PLEASE REMIND ME, ITS 12:30 AM AND LIKE 100 DEGRESS CELCIUS BUT I WANTED TO GET IT OUT FOR U SO ITS LIKE SLIGHTLY UNEDITTED.