After a day of sitting, sleeping and eating on a train, basically not being able to do anything, you can probably imagine how glad I was when I heard that Michigan's train station was only ten minutes away. I quickly grabbed my stuff and put it back into my carry on. The train had come to a stop a few minutes later. I got up and grabbed my stuff and slowly walked off of it. The train station was huge, and I mean huge. I spun around a bit before taking my phone out. I typed in my passcode and went into my messages and opened mine and Ryan's.

Me: Hey! I'm in Michigan(:

I hit send and shoved my phone back into my pocket. I followed the crowed out of the place and looked around. Home sweet not. I frowned a bit slightly before walking across the street and into the park. I really didnt know where to go. I didnt want to go home, but I couldn't stay outdoors. I'd get sick. I took a deep breath in before whining. I kicked a rock before walking back to my old neighborhood. I looked at all of the houses before coming up to my own. Lucy's car was in the driveway. I didn't know if Liz was here or not but I sucked my breath in and walked up to the front porch and knocked on the door. It flung open instantly and before me stood a irate, mad and probably drunk Lucy.

"Megan!" She said dizzily. She grabbed my wrist slightly then dragged me inside. "You look good!" She nodded then giggled.

"Hi, Lucy." I said quietly. I winced a bit as she stumbled over to the couch.

"Liz," She yelled. "Megan's here!"

I hugged my arms as Liz walked downstairs and smirked. "Hey, Megan."

I forced a tiny smile as I walked up the stairs and went passed her and headed off to my old room. I quickly shut the door. I pressed my palm to my forehead and exhaled. The feelings of being hated and unwanted came rushing back to me. I ran over to the bed and plopped down on it, instantly erupting into tears. I hugged the pillow closely then reached into my pocket and pulled my phone out. I had a text from Ryan which caused me to smile a bit. I opened the text and read it.

Ryan: YAY!(: how are things going?

Me: Bahhumbug.

I instantly got a text back which made me smile.

Ryan: ....not good? :(

Me: No, I havent even been here for ten minutes and I'm already crying like a baby.

Ryan: ): dont let them get to you. Just relax, and breathe!(:

I sighed quietly and frowned when another text came in. I left mine and Ryan's conversation and clicked on the new text.

UNKNOWN: Is this Megan Mace?

Me: uhhh.. May I ask who this is?

The phone started vibrating and the unknown number popped up. I slid the car across the screen and answered it.

"Hello?"

"Hey," A girl's voice broke through the other line. She sounded older than me, more mature and a more snobbish. "Is this Megan?"

"May I ask who this is?" I said again. I raised my eyebrows a bit before walking over to my window.

"Not important. I'm just calling to let you know that if you keep talking to Ryan, you'll regret it. Ryan is mine, not yours. So please do me a favor and back off."

"Uhm.. What?" I asked a bit a bit confused. The girl on the other end let out a tired, annoyed sigh before clearing her throat.

"Leave. Ryan. Alone."

"But--"

Click.

I pulled my phone away from my ear and rolled my eyes. I threw it over to the bed and sat down in my window seat. I closed my eyes slightly, letting out a long, bored sigh, reopened my eyes and looked out the window. I saw the neighbor's kids running around in the backyard. I smiled a bit. Kids are absolutely the best in everyone. Carefree, creative and just so able to live life without any fear at all. I sighed before climbing out of the window and into my bed. Luckily, I locked the door so hopefully I could sleep peacefully tonight. I sent Ryan a good bye text then placed my phone onto the drawer beside me.

~*~

The first two weeks of being back at school wasnt so bad to be completely honest. People really didnt want to bother me, which I was honestly thankful for. The only ones that did bother me we're Liz, Hannah and her gang of misfits. I took a deep breath in and walked out to the courtyard and over to my locker. I did my whole little combination thing, opened my locker and no sooner did I, a note fell out. I bent over to pick it up. I opened it slowly and in capital letters the word unloveable was spelt onto it. I felt my bottom lip quiver as I shut my locker. I shoved the note into my purse and walked off into my next class. I quickly took a seat in my chair and laid my head down on my desk.

I honestly didnt know how much I could take again. I put up with it for a good, long time. I left it, but now I'm back to it.

I couldnt even hear what the teacher was saying. I heard quiz, study and tomorrow. That was it. I heard the bell ring. I was the last one out the classroom.

"Megan?" The teacher called. "Please stay back. I need to talk to you for a moment."

I stopped in the doorway then turned around and looked at him.

"Yeah?" I asked while walking over to him.

"Are you okay? In all seriousness."

"Uhm, yeah. I'm okay." I nodded.

"I've seen a change in you over the past two weeks. It's like you're overly tired or stressed. Is everything okay at home?"

"Mhm." I lied.

"Megan, you can talk to me."

"Nothing's going on at home that I can't handle."

With that, I turned around and walked out. I pulled my book out of my bag and sat down on a bench and started to read it. I had to wait for Aubrey to get out of class. I was going over to her house tonight for dinner.

I sighed quietly as I saw Liz walk up with her group.

"Hey, Megan." She said with a sneer.

"Hi, Liz." I said, looking up at her.

She snatched the book out of my hands and ripped it in half then threw it all over the hallway. My mouth gaped over a bit before I got up shakily. I started to pick the papers up when I felt a blow to my side which knocked me over. I winced in pain before I felt another blow to my stomach. Kids gathered around us and just watched. Watched. I managed to get up before feeling something sharp hit my face. I heard a snapping nose. I let out a loud, painful scream before feeling the blood escape from my mouth. I felt the tears start pouring down my face.

"Stop, Liz! Please!" I hunched over a bit before being knocked down. The crowds of kids were just laughing hysterically. I started to lose any and all feeling in my senses, my bones and my body. I didnt want to show any signs of weakness, but I figured the tears were already showing that. I let out a long, slow whimper.

"Liz!" I heard a familiar voice yell. My vision started to blur a bit from all the pain. Another blow to my hip.

"Liz!" The voice yelled again. I looked around and saw Jake, along side of Chris, running up. Chris grabbed Liz and pulled her back. I felt Jake pull me close to him. I didn't really have the urge to fight him off. Instead, I just leaned into him.

"It's not fair!!" She screamed.

"What isn't fair?" Chris asked.

"She gets everything! The looks. The voice. The smile. The perfect guy."

"Yeah, she gets all of that. But it's because she is just herself and not some fake person who goes around hurting everyone. She deserves all of this stuff, but honestly Liz. Do you?" Chris's voice was soft, and secure. I saw Liz's face lighten up a bit as she looked over to me. She looked almost sorrowful. I looked away from her quickly.

"Whatever, Chris." Liz said as she walked away. Soon after, I fetl Chris's arms wrap around me as well. I cried a bit harder as I felt them both hold me.

"Are you okay?" Jake asked. I nodded weakly then swallowed. Chris picked me up gently and started walking.

"Let's get you back to my house and get you all cleaned up, okay?" I nodded again before closing my eyes.

Chris took me back to his house then laid me down on his couch. I pulled the blankets over me and sniffled. He took a seat next to me and smiled as warmly as he could.

"You okay?" He asked again.

"No." I said plainly. "I'm tired. I'm just so tired. I'm tired of being, and getting hurt and I'm tired of my life. I just want to go back to Ryan and be in his arms. I want to be happy, and feel loved. I dont want to force a smile anymore but I have this bad feeling that when I do get to go back to Ryan, something's going to happen and I'm going to get hurt."

"Why? What's been going on?"

I sighed quietly before looking at him. "I've been getting these texts, i dont know if it's from Ryan or who it's from, but they keep telling me to leave Ryan alone. That I dont deserve him and that he can find someone way better. Sure, Ryan and I aren't officially dating but we are dating. I asked him what we were and he said we're more than what we think we are. Which I think we're just friends, so I guess we're more than just friends? I dont know. But I do hope so so badly, Chris. It kills me. I love hm just so much it hurts and I dont know what to do about the person who keeps calling and texting and harassing me. I want it to stop, I want it to go away but it wont. It's like they know if they keep pushing me, I'll give in and I'll believe them. It's like they wont give up and there's nothing I can do about it."

I felt tears stream down my cheeks forcefully. I couldnt keep it in anymore. I finally just snapped and cried. I cried from the pain, and the hurt and just missing everything about Ryan. I felt Chris pull me into him and just held me there. My face buried into his chest and my arms hugged his waist, and I just broke down.

After a few hours of Chris holding me, I calmed down enough to drink some water and do some writing in my notebook. I pulled my phone to see I had a missed call from Nash, and a few texts. I opened my messages and read through them.

Ryan: Call me later! :)

Nash: I'm pretty sure you've gotten me hooked onto buying shoes. Oh my god.

Liz: Hey, can we meet up? I wanna talk to you.

I opened Liz's conversation and typed in.

Me: Sure..

Liz: Thank you. Meet me at Starbucks in 10 minutes.

I shoved my phone into my pocket. I told Chris where I was going then walked out and walked down to Starbucks. I saw Liz sitting in the window. She was alone, thank goodness. Hesitating, I stepped inside and walked to where she is, and sat down.

"Hi, Liz. What's up?"

"I want to talk to you." She said nodding. I didnt notice until she moved, but there were tiny cuts on her arms, and she was deathly skinny. I frowned a bit then nodded.

"About what?"

"Everything I've ever done to you. I am so sorry. I didn't know what I was doing until Chris pointed it out. The truth is Megan? I'm jealous of you. Completely and utterly jealous of you. Youre so perfect in everyway and I thought that if I hated you enough, I could become as perfect as you. But nothing worked. At all. People still loved you to death, and hated me. I kept getting texts, mean texts, then getting on YouTube and seeing how much people like you better, it just really hurt. And I know what i did was wrong, i do. I'm just hoping you could find it in you to forgive me. I miss hanging out with you, singing with you, making video covers, writing songs and recording those and everything. I miss it. I miss you."

Tears had started to stream down her cheeks as well as mine. I swear, every time I'm here, I cry like a baby. I frowned a bit before reaching over the table and holding her hand.

"I dont know why you did it, but all that matters now is you're here and you're apologizing. It doesnt mean I forgive you, but you are my sister so I'm going to believe what you're saying because I miss you too. Liz, I miss you more than anything. I miss the old you."

"Which is why I wrote this.." She pulled out a piece of paper and handed it over to me. I looked at the paper then opened it and spread across the top of the paper were the words: ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

"Liz.."

"Just read it, please."

I nodded then slowly started to read over the paper. Once I was done reading it I looked up at Liz and frowned.

"Im so sorry.." She said. I nodded before holding her hand.

"It's okay, Liz. It's okay."

a small smile formed across her face as she leaned across the table and hugged me. I hugged back and we both sat there crying for a good hour. A few guys actually came up to us to make sure we were alright. After a while Liz and I left the Starbucks store, and walked back to Chris's house. Chris was asleep on the couch, but I just went there to get my stuff. I grabbed my book bag and walked out with Liz and went to a near by motel with her.

We both crashed onto the beds almost instantly. Liz fell asleep pretty quickly and I stayed up a while longer. Could I really have my sister back? Can things and people actually change for good? I felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier. I finally let them win the battle and close, letting myself drift off into sleep.